Thinking... how I can work around my physical problems and still do what I want to do. OMG... scary as hell, hihi.
But I must admit it should be possible. IF I don't get caught in the fear thinking of what if this and what if that.
If I plan, create structure, prepare very well and a helluva lot... it should be possible. It IS possible.
OMG... Eeeekkhh hahaha.

So glad my friend is going to be ok!

Thinking I might go with shoulder length hair when I get my haircut today.

Thinking... I'm not in between jobs but in between chairs
I can almost sit on the new one the entire day, but not quite there yet. I get dizzy.
But I cannot sit all day on the old one anymore either because it puts my back out of whack, which in turn triggers vertigo.
So I'm moving between the two, really really terribly annoying.

Hopefully another week and I'll be there...

Like the style of that bag.

Wondering if I'm the only one to start to send a message like ....
Im less lonely than I've ever been but its hard for me to love someone and not want to express it. It's not easy for me to let go. It sucks not being able to see you or hug you and say I love you. Especially now that all the anger I had is off my heart. Its just not appropriate and I know its not wanted anymore. It's not something I can change. Trust me I tried and it makes me feel so shameful. Like I'm bothering you but its just different for me. I don't know how to unlove you
Then delete all that chit and type
I hate you ...
I hope you f-ing die!
Then delete that and just bury your head in your hands and cry sending nothing.
No? it's just me?
.
.
. Figures.

Rebuke the nonsense
Throw it to the dustbin

What Churchill said never ever give up

How great it is to have a NYE without all the frigging noise from noise fireworks. Just the loud bang crap. This year it is forbidden to do fireworks, so you couldn't buy it either. Some may have gone to Belgium or found other means of getting illegal stuff which is awful stuff.
And I heard a few really loud bangs earlier on, one close to my home. That's not legal stuff.
Thank goodness both my cats are indoors, they are always scared out of their minds and takes weeks for them to relax again. So I'm enjoying this peace & quiet.
I will miss the beautiful fireworks at midnight, but you cannot have it all. The a-holes always ruin the good for good people. Although this year it's to do with the pandemic.

Thankful for my friends on here and in my life. Happy New Year everyone!

I KNEW I was going to jinx it... some a-hole just went through the street with very heavy loud fireworks.

Wondering where I lost my credit card or was it stolen whilst I was dancing? Lol, a lovely policeman and his dog gave me a ride home when I had to hitchhike because my phone was dead too. What a night!!!

Thinking about the road trips I want to take in the new year.

All this shall all pass. Precious girl, take it easy. 🧚‍♀️
...
In the end, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

Thinking... tomorrow is a good time to clean up the Christmas stuff, undo the tree. I'm going to miss it though!
The lights, the roses, the warmth...

Thinking...

You might have mellowed in the last few years, but clearly haven't.

4:44

It's been a good day. Now it's time to go to bed. And I don't want to

I am thinking I adore New Zealand very lucky to be living the life that I do :., professionally and personally smitten: