first off me and my mom had to sell our house and we have been living with my sister and once my mom gets the money back from the house we might end up moving and I don't want that **** because I don't want to leave any of my friends behind and nor do I want or need a fresh start

Maybe you should get your own place and not move then

That's nothing.
I hate the very fabric of reality.
I despise entrophy.
The very fact that things decay from a pristine state is a defect in reality.
Try living with that?

Not only do I wish I never had to experience this reality, I hate the idea that I might live forever in any shape or form.

All beauty in this reality is subject to decay.
It doesn't matter what it is.
The very fact that anything grows old at all is proof that this reality is defective.
You can have it.

Gladly, my time in this reality is almost up.
Hopefully, it will be the end.
I certainly don't want to go thru this again.

that's deep I know how you feel

I'm too stupid

I doubt that.
See, I have a gf, I'm not looking for another.
I'm not really desperate in any way that might suggest I have a suicidal tendency.
I don't, actually.
I just despise reality.

Life is a sexually communicated disease.
Everyone afflicted with the disease of life dies.
It is 100% fatal.

You could be put in a room with absolutely no exterior forces and you will still die. Yes, its that fatal.

No matter where you look, decay is there.
No matter if it is the most strict clean room on the planet, eventually, decay invades.
You can explain the reasons why dust forms on things in your home.
You can eplain why milk curdles over time.
You can explain many things about the reality in which we live but you can't, no matter how how you might try, stop entropy.
Entropy exists universally throughout the Universe.
Stars, gas clouds, supernovas, black holes.
It all is slaved to entropy.

You might say "well what about new life?"
Even that is a slave to entropy.
The very first cell division is an act of entropy.
A change of state.
It creates a cascade of entropy that lasts until death.
The whole process is repulsive to me.

For a moment, try to think of a Universe where entropy does not exist.
Nothing grows old, ever, even one second older.
It stays pristine, forever.
In such a Universe, I would have never existed.
I would have never had to endure a Universe of change.
I think I would rather that, than to exist in the Universe I was forced to endure.

In this Universe, decay is a given.
We learn to 'live' with it.
I never chose to do so.
It was forced upon me. By decay.
The process of decay forced me to endure something I do not want to endure.
I must continue to endure this until decay reaches the inevitable conclusion of what I am. Dust in a Universe of decay.

Frankly, I consider it a kick in the guts.

Mark, stupid is as stupid does... have you seen Forrest Gump?

If you don't want to move, get a job so you can get a place of your own
and not move away from your friends.

I have a job but it's a shitty one

a chitty job is better than no job. At least you are earning money so you can live on your own.

it's part time though

As Sam Kinison once proclaimed: "Move to where the food is!"

You know what you need to do to rectify your current situation.
You can make all the excuses to yourself why you can't do it.
But, you know what needs to be done and when you bite the bullet and do it, things will change.

Frankly, I don't give a damn why you hate life.
It seems like a temper tantrum to me.
Just like me, yer stuck with life.
You can either make a change or continue as you are.

Personally, I can't change the nature of the Universe so i am stuck as I am.
I make the best of a diminishing return.
I don't like it but I know I can;t change it.

If you don't like where you are, make a change so you are where you like.
Seems pretty simple to me?

So you hate your life? I can promise you there are very few people who haven't said that at some point son.
Be a man and change it!

You could always end up like I did -- homeless.

I lost EVERYTHING.

My car, my apartment, my money, my computer, my books, my furniture.....even my girlfriend!

But know what? I survived. Nineteen months sleeping in shelters, behind bushes, in bus stops, on park benches, in a tent, etc.

I did online surveys at the library on computers. I mowed lawns for money through a friend. I even briefly worked in a law office coding documents on computer.

I did what I could to at least earn some money rather than reducing myself to panhandling.

I spent 2+ years in psychiatric therapy with only mild medication.

I also quit drinking.

Then I got housed through support programs.

Then I got a part-time job.

Then I was recruited for a full-time job that paid okay for someone with no experience. Certainly better than a supermarket or department store.

I moved into a larger apartment. I bought a car.

Now I am about to start another full-time job. This one pays the same, but has more potential for growth and advancement. Even though it's retail, I don't work for a store. I work for corporate headquarters. Better pay scale. Better perks.

3 years ago this month, I was sleeping in a tent!!!

So I have to agree with Tom -- you are making excuses.

Take it from someone who has hit rock bottom and dragged himself back up -- because I did what I HAD to do, not what I *wanted* to do.

Maybe that sounds harsh, but truth is, YOU CAN DO IT. Everybody can. But you have to make a conscious choice to dedicate yourself to making it happen.

It sucks. I hated every minute of it. I had some really dark thoughts. But the important thing is that I stuck with it. I weathered the storm, and my life improved.

You might have some tough choices and tough times ahead. But if you make the choice, dedicate yourself to getting through it and keep moving toward a better life, eventually you WILL succeed.

Yeah, been homeless more than three times im my life, once at 17 and I still managed to graduate High School a half semester early.

The important thing is that you realize that there is no easy out.
Things can always get worse.
How long you wait is equal to how worse they can get.

I was homeless in a station wagon in St Louis with 4 children (yeah, not a good time in my life) but I turned it around.
I did.
Nobody fixed it for me, I had to make decisions I never even dreampt.
It was very scary, very scary indeed.
But I pulled thru it all.

Now, at 58 years, my life is nothing as I imagined it would be.
I survive on 1/5th of the money I was making.
I live with pain and sickness daily.
My rent just went up $120.
My truck broke down today (luckily I fixed it myself with a chunk of wire I chopped from inside my dash).
My GF just got out of the hospital from emergency surgery where she could have dies.
My son is having problems with his marriage and there are two grandchildren involved.
I just got notified of a Flat Stanley project for my granddaughter's school and a gazillion other things that make life less than the peachy keen idea I had for me at this age.
Ya know what...Ya deal with it.
Ya do what it takes to deal with it.
Its the same no matter how old or how much money ya have.
Ya deal with it.

If life sucks as you know it, welcome to the punch.
Ya deal with it.
Ya either deal with it or it deals with you.

You know what ya need to do, do it.

How far away will you be moving?

aww hell soulfie!
I was getting much more inspiration from the title than his OP.
When I read his OP the only thing I can think of is "Hey Kid"
But I can personally identify with the title.

Since its the title that attracted me, it probably attracts others.
So, I hate my life is identified with a certain similarity to others in a position they have no clue how to get out from under.
The details are really not the focus of the title.

The OP is banter related to specific reasons why the OP hates his life.
But, the issue of the topic title implies a deeper meaning which many could identify with.

M2 is famous for bringing insight to the world of relationships.
If we concentrate our focus on the OP, others will not gain understanding of the topic at hand.
A topic that many deal with daily.

While, providing a useful topic, the answers we might provide may allow others to gain some never considered insight to their own assessment that they hate their lives.

If we only focus on this kid's issues, we cheat the public of valuable considerations that might not be available in other 'less focused' threads.
The responses to the title have the potential to not only help the OP work thru his own problems but also help countless other gain a grip on their situations.

In this case; the OT (original title) has more significance than the OP (original post).
The OP is worthy of addressing but the OT is worthy as well.
The OT (title) is significant and can apply to anyone.
The OP applies only to the original poster (again OP).

To respect the OP is honorable.
All I am saying is the OP (post) and OT (topic) have a great potential for others to gain insight to their own life dilemmas.
The solutions expressed in the comments have the potential to influence more that just the OP.

No harm/no foul
Just tellin it as I see it.

well my sister is going to move to Ridgecrest and once that happens she will give me and my mom her apartment until the contract is up but once it is up I have no idea if my mom wants to move over there or somewhere else and she keeps talking about wanting to get an RV

Based on what you've said, I think you need to find a better job, and it sounds like you have at least some time do so.

You may not realize what opportunities you truly qualify for.

First thing you need to do is create a resume. It has to be the right TYPE of resume though.

Maybe your past jobs aren't impressive. Maybe none of them are anything you wish to make a career. Those things don't really matter. What matters is the knowledge and skills you have acquired.

My skills are what landed me my last 2 jobs. Both pay the highest wage I've ever earned. It turns out that I was using the wrong type of resume. Once I revamped my resume to focus on my skills rather than my work history, employers began coming to me. No application filed. They simply saw my resume online, and decided to contact me about positions they had available.

So perhaps you have marketable skills that better employers are looking for. If so, then creating a skill-based resume might land you a full-time job that pays a much better wage, possibly with benefits.

If that does happen, perhaps you can afford your own apartment. Or maybe you can find a roommate.

But don't go for your ideal apartment right away. Maybe a small studio or efficiency would suit you better starting out. That's what I had for the past 2 years. Now I have a 1-bedroom apartment that is double the size. Perhaps in a year from now, I may be able to afford a larger apartment -- with 2 or 3 bedrooms.

Think of how refreshing it would be to have your own place, where you can have friends or a date over without worrying about family. Consider how liberating it would feel.

I lived with my parents as an adult, not by deliberate choice. I know how suffocating it can feel. It is really frustrating when you can't have a woman over to spend a night, or to cook dinner for her, or to watch a movie just by yourselves, etc. When you live with a parent, you don't get to make your own rules. It makes you feel like you're still a child. You lack the freedom that you always dreamed adulthood would bring.

Don't focus on the negatives like bills so much. Focus on what you will gain. The positives that will make you feel happier with your life.

Then adapt your reality so that it can sustain and maintain your new lifestyle.

Who knows? Maybe you will be able to rent your sister's apartment once her lease expires, if that's what you want and can afford.

Hi Mark, sorry things aren't going so well for you. Change can be hard and leaving all that you know behind can be heart breaking.

That's great that you can stay in your sisters apartment for a little bit longer. You'll be able to see your friends a while longer :)

If your mom does get an RV, maybe think about the places you'd like to visit and speak with her about that. It could be an exciting adventure and you'll get to meet new people, maybe make some more friends.

Leaving doesn't always mean saying goodbye. You can perhaps visit from time to time, or keep in touch on Facebook or talk on the phone.

I just have one question... if you move that means letting go of your job, right? Will you be getting a new job? If so then what is stopping you from doing that now so you can maybe get your own place and stay where you are?

Good luck to you and I hope it all works out :)

I can answer that with a song by Trooper, Canadian band. Listen to the words.

Raise a Little Hell!