Topic: I hate my life
Seakolony's photo
Thu 04/18/19 07:54 PM

i have ****ing Asperger's and I just feel like I'm a ****ing idiot I'm not smart I'm not talented nor am I special in anyway. I actually am punctual but I was just too lazy to do so most of my friends have it too but there a whole nother story to deal with I have a shitty job with only 2 years experience prior to the one I have now I don't drive I've never been in a relationship and the reason why me and my mom live with my sister is because we had to sell our house because we were going to lose it and put it under probate. everything just fell apart once my dad died and people have screwed us over with the money my mom is trying to get and I just wish I had a father figure there for me because I feel lost. I've felt lost when my grandma died too. my dream in life is to become an MMA fighter but I feel like it's not going to happen because everyone wants to **** on my dreams and I just want to roll up in a ball and die


Sorry but my son has Autism and Epilepsy both. 27 seizures a day. Many people succeed in life with Asperger's. People with Asperger's are usually super smart. You can accomplish things in life. The only thing that will hold you back is trusting people you shouldn't or giving up on your passions. People love it when people with issues succeed. Have you tried out for mma.

Seakolony's photo
Thu 04/18/19 07:58 PM

i have ****ing Asperger's and I just feel like I'm a ****ing idiot I'm not smart I'm not talented nor am I special in anyway. I actually am punctual but I was just too lazy to do so most of my friends have it too but there a whole nother story to deal with I have a shitty job with only 2 years experience prior to the one I have now I don't drive I've never been in a relationship and the reason why me and my mom live with my sister is because we had to sell our house because we were going to lose it and put it under probate. everything just fell apart once my dad died and people have screwed us over with the money my mom is trying to get and I just wish I had a father figure there for me because I feel lost. I've felt lost when my grandma died too. my dream in life is to become an MMA fighter but I feel like it's not going to happen because everyone wants to **** on my dreams and I just want to roll up in a ball and die


Sorry but my son has Autism and Epilepsy both. 27 seizures a day. Many people succeed in life with Asperger's. People with Asperger's are usually super smart. You can accomplish things in life. The only thing that will hold you back is trusting people you shouldn't or giving up on your passions. People love it when people with issues succeed. Have you tried out for mma.

Argo's photo
Thu 04/18/19 08:37 PM
Well I lay my head down on the railroad track
Waitin' on the Double E
But the train don't run by here no more
Poor poor pitiful me

Mark's photo
Thu 04/18/19 08:43 PM
well I'm a nobody I wasn't smart enough to go to a university and it's not like I'm smart enough to get an AA or AS

Mark's photo
Thu 04/18/19 08:45 PM
no but I wrestled in high school which I sucked at and all my team mates were ******** I did boxing at junior college and I had a friend hook me up with jui jitsu

actionlynx's photo
Thu 04/18/19 08:50 PM
I used to work with Autistic adults.

Your writing is much better than my clients'.

You are much more articulate.

I don't see a lack of intelligence. What I see is frustration.

That frustration may stem from not finding the proper way for you to learn. For instance, you may not be a verbal learner. You might learn better visually.


Mark's photo
Thu 04/18/19 09:03 PM
I've also been hospitalized because I felt suicidal and what was the point in going there and making a new friend and not having the time to see her? same with this girl I met who I felt was the one for me because I never felt so much love from another person. I even been catfished on this one site before and all I want is to be loved. I don't even talk to women on here because how do I know they aren't cat fish and most of them are fake and don't respond anyway or live out of state or country

ivegotthegirth's photo
Fri 04/19/19 12:39 AM

Well I lay my head down on the railroad track
Waitin' on the Double E
But the train don't run by here no more
Poor poor pitiful me


waving
PERFECT!

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Fri 04/19/19 12:57 AM
Mark, I've worked as a substitute teacher and teacher assistant for 5 years in special education, and my oldest son had Asperger, but he's not here anymore...he died 12 years ago. I was always amazed at how brilliant those with Asperger or any other form of autism were. Far from stupid, when my son was in 5th grade he had the reading level of a 12th grader. You live in a world that very few understand and excel in whatever talent you were gifted with.

There are plenty of programs out there that can help you with this, as you most likely already know at your age. It would benefit you to stop focusing on who you think is against you and focus on those who can help you feel better about yourself... unless of course you prefer to feel bad about yourself.

The choice is always ours as individuals. Best of luck to you.

no photo
Fri 04/19/19 01:14 AM

Well I lay my head down on the railroad track
Waitin' on the Double E
But the train don't run by here no more
Poor poor pitiful me


Must you always be such a bear tongue2 winking waving

actionlynx's photo
Fri 04/19/19 07:41 AM

I've also been hospitalized because I felt suicidal and what was the point in going there and making a new friend and not having the time to see her? same with this girl I met who I felt was the one for me because I never felt so much love from another person. I even been catfished on this one site before and all I want is to be loved. I don't even talk to women on here because how do I know they aren't cat fish and most of them are fake and don't respond anyway or live out of state or country


Everything you mentioned, I have experienced too. No joke.

The secret lies in how you choose to manage those experiences. Right now, you are frustrated, and focusing on the negatives. It's not working for you. Therefore you need to try something different.

Yes, your experiences have been rough. How can they be made to work for you rather than against you?

Well, I bet you learned a few things from them. If you can apply that new knowledge in a positive way, then those experiences become positive too.

For now, you need to stop telling yourself you are stupid. Just stop it. No questions. Just do it.

Secondly, not all group homes are the same! My clients had their own house. Just two of them living in the house. Both of them had jobs. Your disability is not as severe as theirs. You can do better than they do. You can have a much better life than they do.

Thirdly, just because you have Asperger's does not mean you cannot be successful. Dan Akyroyd has Asperger's. Look how successful he has been.

Mark's photo
Fri 04/19/19 01:18 PM
I'm sorry but I don't believe you when you say all group homes are the same because most of the people that live there have severe problems. I knew someone that lived there but he just used me and my other friends for money

Mrmxb's photo
Fri 04/19/19 01:45 PM

I hate my life


I had read somewhere;

"Things give sorrow are like birds. You shouldn't let those birds fly your around. If you feed the birds, they'il come over. ..."

... and text is continuing that.


The problem is just birds.

no photo
Fri 04/19/19 01:48 PM


I hate my life


I had read somewhere;

"Things give sorrow are like birds. You shouldn't let those birds fly your around. If you feed the birds, they'il come over. ..."

... and text is continuing that.


The problem is just birds.


Very wise words Sahin.

Moral of the story... if you don't want the birds around you, don't feed them!

I like that. smile2

Mrmxb's photo
Fri 04/19/19 02:11 PM



I hate my life


I had read somewhere;

"Things give sorrow are like birds. You shouldn't let those birds fly your around. If you feed the birds, they'il come over. ..."

... and text is continuing that.


The problem is just birds.


Very wise words Sahin.

Moral of the story... if you don't want the birds around you, don't feed them!

I like that. smile2

flowerforyou

actionlynx's photo
Fri 04/19/19 04:01 PM

I'm sorry but I don't believe you when you say all group homes are the same because most of the people that live there have severe problems. I knew someone that lived there but he just used me and my other friends for money


Mark, you are thinking emotionally, not logically.

You are basing your thoughts and opinions on a small sample size.

You need to break this negative conditioning you have. Otherwise, you will continue to persever.

The first step is to stop reacting. Based on everything you've been saying, I bet you are feeling a lot of emotional stimuli. You are in overload, and feeling overwhelmed. Unfortunately, by reacting rather than detaching yourself, you are just feeding the cycle of emotions.

You need to step back, take a deep breath, and count to 10.
Do this three times.
It will help you calm down. It will help clear your mind. It will help you detach from your emotions. You will be more able to think clearly and logically.

Make sure you do it slowly. Don't rush the breathing. Don't hyperventilate. Slow and easy breaths. It is the extra oxygen from the air that helps you.

After you have done this, I want you to think about something...
I want you to think about this thread.
Think about how many people you felt were just being mean.
Then think about how many people have given you advice, or been supportive, or have tried to help you.

I'm pretty sure you will see that most people in this thread have tried to help you in some way, but only one was "mean" as you called it.

The same is true of the world around you. Most people aren't bad. Most people who work with the disabled are not bad people.

You have just been living in a tiny pocket of bad people. If you move out of that pocket, you may find that the world is not as bad as you thought.

Seakolony's photo
Fri 04/19/19 08:19 PM

I'm sorry but I don't believe you when you say all group homes are the same because most of the people that live there have severe problems. I knew someone that lived there but he just used me and my other friends for money


Honestly it sounds like you truly like your life, due to the fact that anyone making suggestions you find a way to not try. Do you want to try in life rather than be miserable. You only fail in life when you give up and don't try. The only way to stop hating life is to make changes. Starting with any small change. Obviously what is going on now isn't work. You have to start somewhere or nothing will ever change in your life.

God, Grant me the serenity to change the thing I can. Accept the thing I can not change and the wisdom to know the difference.

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Fri 04/19/19 08:35 PM
Then change something in your life each day until you do like it... :thumbsup:

ivegotthegirth's photo
Fri 04/19/19 10:39 PM

Then change something in your life each day until you do like it... :thumbsup:


That's what I said...

Mark's photo
Sat 04/20/19 01:51 PM
What am I even saying I don't have a life I'm ****ing 28 years old working part time as a bagger which is a job I hate I do **** that kids do like play video games watch cartoons and read comic books. I have trouble making REAL friends because they are all losers or get butt hurt when ever I make jokes I still live with my mom I have no place to call home since we had to sell our house and I don't even know why I even bother to be on this or any other dating site because I get no responses or if I am lucky to go on a date I just get ignored the day after. I mentioned that my goal was to do MMA because I used to get bullied a lot and I feel like if I make a name for myself all of that **** would stop and that way no one would ever try to **** with me again otherwise I'll end up killing them. I almost did kill someone a while back I had a knife on me and he was lucky I didn't use it on him because I have been paranoid after high school thinking I would run into old people that use to treat me like ****. Long story short he was some ******* who ****ed with me back in high school and he hasn't changed a bit. He had a picture of himself on Facebook holding a gun but when I got in his face he took off like a little *****. Anyway I know that I'm not wanted or needed by anybody and I know everyone wants me dead.