I was in a serious relationship 5 years ago. We were even going to get married later on in life. But he committed suicide 4 days before our 2 year anniversary. Its still hard sometimes on the anniversary of his death.

i miss my oldest son--he moved three hours away
with his dad
i never get to see him
made me cry

don't ya think though, when the pain gets intense ..

It helps to remember that letting go doesn't mean giving up, just accepting it's not meant to be ( like with Sage and JaneDoe) it CAN'T be anymore...

Sorry to all the broken hearts

snowangel, you need to let go of the guilt that you feel and try to move on. hun i know its really hard to do that, but you have to remember that everything happens for a reason. things happen the way they are meant to be and we have no control over somethings. for a long time after my hubby died i felt so guilty because i'm the one that signed the papers to take him off life support and had to sit there and watch him die. that is the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life, but...i know in my heart it is the way it was meant to be. i also believe that if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it! it does get easier....

I know that you are right about letting go. There is the good days and the bad ones. I know everyone has said it or thought it before but I wish that I could see Matt at least one more time to appologize and tell him that I love him. I tell myself that he would want me to get on with life and to be happy. That is what I am doing or at least I am trying to.

awww Don,so sorry I know she was your world..I'm sure when you love like that there will be good and bad days,your in my thoughts and prayers