Love Is Costly
********************

we’ve begun
when
we’re done

musing

stains
my brain

fingertips too

words suffice
dissolved in ice

temperature zero
where’s my hero

the air’s breath
whispers softly

love is costly

her denial
is suicidal
never bridal

you walk >>>

before you fall

stand tall

head strong

you still belong

AR©02/01/13

You Rocked My World
**************************

what we did
is not what we do
I’m moving on
getting over you

where we connected
I’m clueless to see
but you rocked my world
getting the best of me

gripped in your intensity
you made me so weak
I couldn’t resist you
knocking me off of my feet

you made me so hot
my skin burned for days
felt like I was helpless
lost in a your haze

coming on so strong
you thru me for a loop
and you still try to hang on
tho I want nothing more to do with you!!!

I want you out of my head
my mind stays confused
my body resents you
and I do too!!!

this just can’t go on
don’t you get the clue
man, aren’t you listening
I hate having the flu!!!

AR©02/01/13

The Healing Begins
*************************

every
day
…
as you get
farther
…
and
…
…
…
…
farther
away
…
more sooner
than later
i won’t even remember
your face
…
once
…
we were strangers
…
then
…
we became friends
…
now
…
we’ve gone back
to being strangers again

life is uncertain
with each step that we take
love is not promised
to the hearts we don’t break

the feelings that hurt me
will now disappear
as i move in new directions
my true friends will adhere

we might not be open
for every eye to see
but
we’ll grow even closer
within our own privacy

our worlds have made contact
we can see between the lines
and that’s where you’ll lose us
unable to read the signs

i enjoyed what we shared
now
it’s time for someone who
captures my attention
keeping my focus off you

my life isn’t glamorous
i don’t want flash and bling
all i need to make me happy
is
trust
respect
love
...
and honesty
…
for some otherworldly reason
my way i always seem to get
because i don’t ask for much
i receive more than i expect

i’m so excited about the future
it’s unfolding around me now
as i continue to make progress
i’ll know God helps me out

no matter the many trials
of which i might bear
i’m God’s prodigal child
and i know that He cares


maybe someday
we’ll speak once again
we might even laugh
and call each other friend
then

©Athena Rose

02/02/13

Live Long and Prosper
****************************

nothings the same
in this
our lovers time frame
as we account for our feelings
that refuse to stay at bay

entwined are lives
One
Two
Three
Four
Five…
philosophies thrive on their instincts to survive
compelling us to magnify
and dignify

what we create
to satiate

fed to us on a platter
of silver matter

we devour our needs
some so very bitter
and some
so much more sweet
our tastes differ

as we seek

we see
we speak
we listen
we hesitate
we wait
we contemplate
we walk away
we run

we look for our special someone

our unique perspectives
guide us like this

and when we know
when we hear
when we stay

our journeys will prosper this way

AR©02/02/13

I CAUGHT YOU
******************


Eeeewww!!!

One look at all this
And my ire rises
To INDELIBLE

Something of which I thought I was incapable
And yet this thread makes it entirely possible
For me to get postal

This feeling consumes me
Body and Soul

Like dead weight on my chest

I just want this out of my head!!!

How in the world is this happening?

Even subconsciously
It’s always the same thing I see

I don’t understand
WHY
I let it even affect me

Yet
I think it might be YOU
Yes

You..
You…

You
Shallow
Outright narrow
Bag of wind!!!!

I can see you in the mirror
Nothing and no one can be anymore clearer

You are sooooo
Not my scent
Not my air
NOT MY BREATH!

In fact
If I ever sneeze you out again
You will evaporate permanently then

Count on it
With both hands and feet
Twenty digits each
Who compete
One with another
To finish first

Although last with me wins the purse

And you…
Once again…

YOU

Think you have a chance
With my heart in your hands

I’m trying to make a stand
On the outcome of your plan
As I myself welcome another man

After you took
And took
And took
And took

You’re just a conniving CROOK!

A mind bending
Heart rending
Never ending

Baited hook

Catching fish
To filet

But, it’s you who’s gettin fried today!!!

©Athena Rose

02/02/13

We'll Be Inseparable
***************************

Like an 8 week old puppy
You’re right on my heels
Following in my footsteps
I almost trip when you squeal

You’re so playful with energy
I haven’t disciplined you yet
But as you dart through my legs
You get kicked in the head

It obviously doesn’t bother you
The imminent danger you’re in
Mindless to the consequences
You come back playing again

Not wanting to hurt you
I grab you up in my arms
Where you're licking my cheek
And I fall to your charms

There’s no better smell on earth
Then puppy breath sweetness
It emits the newness of life
Wish I could bottle and keep it

It’s time now for training
You’ll learn as you grow
And I’m a good teacher
Who’ll school you on “NO”

To keep you happy and wise
You’ll get plenty of attention
And when you cross over the line
You’ll serve time in detention

The sooner you understand this
While staying clear of my feet
We’ll soon become inseparable
Just you wait, and then see

©Athena Rose

02/02/13

Spinning Love Into Gold
*******************************

we’ve nurtured our growth
from immaturity to bold
and life has various cycles
it spins some into gold

while others just blow cold

with tenderly devoted offerings
so much happiness they bring
and melodious ballads are sung
long as we are still listening

to voices not void of meaning

if it's hard to interpret words
like hearts without the nerves
there’s no way to breathe in life
and all we’ll feel is disturbed

while keeping silent to observe

if we ever see, then we’ll choose
to find ourselves lost in you
each others heart we won’t lose
for how, or who, can love refuse

©Athena Rose

02/03/13

It's Time To Rock Out!!!
*********************************

a coming together
out of the night
…
our wills devotion
minds explosion
match to dynamite
…
bodies held tight
…
scenes of doubts
no answered questions
moments
but few to count
…
wasted promises
…
on love
…
yes
…
LOVE
under attack
without any slack
…
leaving me to remain
on the edge
where my every breath
is an excruciating test
…
a fight to survive
…
forcing me to come out alive
forgiving
repeating
my every craving weakness
…
in this sickness
…
called LOVE
…
as it
abates me
HATES ME
…
in every fiber
burning
fire upon fire
…
desire
rocking
unlocking
desire
…
don’t you see
…
ME
…
hungering
…
clinging
to what’s left
of my sanity
…
and yours is just watching me
…
nodding
…
wanting
…
falling
…
into me
over me
all around me
…
inside and out
of me
…
we breathe silently
…
touching
…
as I open my mouth
only your sins pour out
…
my ears hear the words
with no connection
not even an inflection
…
can be heard
…
as I devour your mouth
in mine
and our vibes
…
ROCK OUT!!!!

©Athena Rose

02/03/13

We Need Each Other
*************************

we hold on
tightly
you and me
us
and we
relating
anticipating
a change
staying the same
relentlessly
gripped
in each others ways
and open hands
we expand
to include our thoughts
to include
them in us
each other
we must
for every “one”
has a double
to share in trouble
in good times “two”
contemplating
possibilities
will we combine
you and me
them and me
you and them
them and they
are
and will always
be
…
are we all in this camaraderie
….
with every eye we see
pupils dilating
looking closely
defining the lines
but who can read
the silence in rhyme
deeply seeking
that certain beat
to keep us steady
because
we can never break free
of you and me
of us
and we
even if we aren’t meant to be
always in harmony
there’s
too much energy
too much time
too much space
…
we need to concede
we need to succeed
we simply need
to be
together
endlessly

©Athena Rose

02/03/13

I Don't Know What To Do
*******************************

You have me wishing
on every combustible star
Following the constellations
to where ever you are
There’s no distance between us
that’s ever too far
When we always feel the beating
of our two hearts
My strings attached to you
will always be true
Hard as I’ve tried
I just can’t cut them loose
In all of my life
I’ve never met anyone like you
Nobody else turns my head
quite the way that you do
Our love doesn’t stop
just because we’re apart
We knew we had something genuine
right from the start
Together we found our way
out of the dark
Now others travel destinations road
that we chart
And you’re the only one
my soul listens too
Any and all other voices
just get me confused
My loneliness deepens
while I haven’t a clue
Because I don’t know
what I’m going to do
without you frown

© Athena Rose

02/03/13

Have You Ever...?
************************

have you ever been in love
did you know what you were really thinking of
were you actually thinking at all
or just feeling your way through
wanting to believe it was true

do you remember what its like
to want to be blind
when you know inside
that something isn’t right
but you had to hold on
you want to have faith
that you haven’t been played
with each passing day
you open your door a little bit more
stepping out into the unknown
but wanting desperately to remain in your comfort zone
how else would you be able to know
if you don’t get the courage to just let go

then unexpectedly
like receiving a reward for bravery under pressure
you hear out loud what your heart felt
but you were too afraid to admit yourself
“I love you”…
oooohhh… how my insides came alive
did he really say that
should I tell him
what I’ve held in
oh yes… of course…
“I love you too”…
I said with a smile on my heart so wide
I thought it was going to burst with pride

but
at the end of that conversation
immediately my head was questioning
the fear and doubt wasn’t lessening
it must be true because he said it to me
first
I thought without hesitation
well we both took that step
he said, she said
what else could be his motivation
tomorrow is another day
and I’ll see if words is all he’ll say
then I turned the light off and went to bed

© Athena Rose

02/03/13

Something Better Is Coming My Way!!!
**********************************************

So you think your termination plays are going to get under my skin
all I have to say to your new antics
is
let the f*cking games begin
yes
I can be kind
I can be sweet
I know how to calmly take the heat
I also know when I’m facing an enemy
an enemy that wants to get the best of me
and you’re a computer geek
actually
you’re more of a freak
a cast off from society
you can rock my world and nobody but me will ever see
but what you did today
hey
I’m cool with change
obviously something better is coming into play
and I don’t have to have every little thing my way
because unlike you
I believe in things that make dreams come true
and my future is going to be much better without you too
in fact
unrequited
my a$$
you’ll have to do much better than that
we know each other much too well
now it’s time we both dance our last dance
in hell
so here’s my grand farewell
the major difference between us is
I don’t kiss and tell!!!

©AthenaRose

02/04/13

Watch Us Fall
*******************

Feelings and word shadows unite
Seeking kinship
They roll off the lips so thick
Taking us, wasting us in time
And the touch we crave so much
With little attention brings affection
While the wind blows between us
…
But, do we trust each other enough
…
How oft we dare to truly care
As love is whispered in the air
Yes, we see it, it’s over there
And how do we attain our share
By these feelings we extend to be
More than we really are it seems
But turn them off an impossibility
So watch us fall, one, two, three
Head over heels is what we prefer
Smoldering embers kept lit for sure
Silence is golden is part of the allure
Is there sin found in motives so pure

©Athena Rose

02/04/13

You Have Too Many Secrets
*********************************

I know you
have your eyes in the sky
looking my way
is your favorite pass time
It’s strange to think of you
high in the air
screening my movements
through a satellite’s glare
I sense your agenda
in the new visions I see
they’re waving and nodding
with your secrets they keep
now that you know
another’s interest in me
you don’t lose my sight
for more than a tweet
even behind
what you still choose to hide
you’ll never escape
the fact that you lied
so how can I trust
what you say to be true
when your words
are burning candles
they disappear from my view
If you intend to convince me
that you are my man
the distance between us
isn’t a very good plan
however, I’ll stay faithful
until I’ve had enough quiet
though at peace is my nature
I will radically rebel
if you know I don’t buy it

©Athena Rose

02/04/13

Wishful Thinking
***********************

I can’t even begin to describe
how great I really feel inside
for the first time in so very long
it’s okay to do everything wrong
no one’s looking over my shoulder
I have no qualms about getting older
if I want to leave everything a mess
no one can nag, or get me upset
instead of having to listen to gripe
I can sleep very peaceful at night
and waking up is such fun too
the first thing I do is talk to you
my life is so different since we met
I love always seeing you in my head
so even the times we cannot speak
you tell me you love me so devotedly
but even a whisper from your heart
won’t miss my ears when we’re apart
the joy I feel while being in your world
makes me so happy that I’m your girl
even in my fantasy you’ll always be
my Prince Charming, the man for me

© Athena Rose

02/05/13

I Don't Want a Ladies Man, Do You?
******************************************

Is everything a bleeding joke
to you
no wonder love and life
have no rule
it feels so shallow
like I’m in a kid’s wading pool
and your careless attitude
it really isn’t cool

you take peoples hearts

and then you twist
like you get a sick kick
out of doing this
always conniving
you don’t care about bliss
and your attention at best
is only hit or miss
life is far more valuable
than a numbers game
but all you care about
is gaining fame
so when others treat you
exactly the same
just remember
you only have yourself
to blame
hanging around you
just isn’t any fun

you break peoples hearts

and I’m so done
cutting my losses
I’m aiming to run
hopefully now
I’ll be able to meet someone
a person
who really does understand
has integrity
isn’t a ladies man
he’ll really get me
even my philosophy
and won’t be a jerk
who doesn’t care about me
everyday in every way
I will see myself
through his eyes
and he’ll say,
“Your heart in mine
is how we’ll live,
mind to mind
our thoughts are positive,
we’re building a future
and together
we’ll learn to fight
to forgive,
now hush your mouth
cuz I want your lips,
show me how much you love me
and start by giving me a kiss,
aaahh, my sweet…
there’s nothing on earth
that’s any better than this.”

© Athena Rose

02/05/13

I Miss My Best Friend
****************************

I can’t get you out of my head
these damn awful mood swings
are going to be the death of me yet
just when I think I’m done with you
I recall every single thing you do
and today was such a busy day
long and difficult in its own way
but my mind wouldn’t concentrate
and I made more than one mistake
I wish I could pull myself together
when will I get over you, never?
I don’t want to think about us
when I do, it hurts too damn much
but there really is no us anymore
and you I’ve got to stop wishing for
I must be retarded or a tad bit insane
cuz you’ve taken up residence inside my brain
oh well, I guess I’ll have to keep venting
then turn my a$$ back around by repenting
and I’ll try to block out how stupid I look
but who really cares cuz they’ve all read my book
with you in every chapter I’m not hard to define
and one of these days I will draw the line
yeah, I know, until the next mood swing swings me again
then I’ll miss you, and want to see you, my very best friend

© Athena Rose

02/06/13

Good, Good, Good... Good Vibrations
*********************************************

can you feel
all the vibrations too
recognizing each
as soon as you enter a room
do they allow you to see things
objectively
or maybe
their spin has you acting defensively
sometimes
I wish my feelings could be quiet
because
when they’re intense
they create in me such a riot
it’s never something I do
on purpose
honestly!
because if I did
I would stop it
seriously!
since my childhood
I’ve been dissenting
from everything
naturally
and from others
drawing outside the lines
and mixing all the colors
my heart attaches deeply
instinctively
it beats for peace
and it breaks
ever so easily
why did God create
a tempo in me
only He can see
when will I know the devotion
that makes us all complete
I feel like I ask these questions
repeatedly
and selfishly
but what of
am I so damn guilty
don’t I have the right to know
IF
and how much
you really do want me
this answer is what I seek
every time I enter a room
my eyes look for you
amid the crowd
while my thoughts flow out
can’t you hear my voice
am I such a difficult choice
is it not you that you think
I’m looking for
is that why you simply ignore
all my knocks on your door
because it’s definitely you
that I need
to help me believe
life is still for the living
and our hearts
are meant for the giving
if you feel these same vibrations too
and they open your mind
to everything new
but by trying to decide
you become speechless
and confused
just go with your instinct
you know
that feeling in your gut
that refuses to let up
as it compels you into action
demanding its own satisfaction
and together
we’ll learn to dance
because
I’m your woman
you’re my man
and we found us
and possibly love
in this place for romance

© Athena Rose

02/07/13

We Take Our Time
***********************

My spirit is so calm for now
it feels good to forget somehow
in the midst of turmoil I just freeze
not letting anything get the best of me
I’m balancing sooo many plates in the air
as each falls it breaks my ability to compare
the weight on my shoulders tries to keep me down
but you lovingly make me smile by clowning around
you know the tune of my heart and how it beats for you
and together we understand impossible is what we do
we don’t want sad wrinkles on our faces to grow
so we nurture our love by remaining close
in each others minds we keenly relate
life… we take time to appreciate
for tomorrow we may not see
lines between you and me

© Athena Rose

02/18/13

Hammer, He's My Boy
***************************

I knew my mood
would swing back again soon
there’s just no escape
from all this gloomy doom
what happens next
I don’t even want to know
one loss at a time
is how my luck goes
I’m content with my life
for the most part
but not when it comes
to matters of the heart
in this benign category
I fail to pass the grade
even with lemons
I can’t make lemon-aid
there must be something serious
that I’m really missing
or else why is it just my dog
that I’m always kissing
Hammer is faithful
he’s a good snuggler too
he’s even learned to dance
and sing me the blues
when he’s not sneaking outside
to carry off my shoes
but happy as he makes me
cheering me up when I’m sad
he refuses to cook
wash clothes
or even take a bath
so other than his charm
and all of his tricks
he’s just like some men
except that he licks
his own dick

© Athena Rose

02/08/13