Falling Deeply Into You
*****************************

I wish
I could feel life
thru your eyes
that I could be it
without all the disguise
the height and depth
the vast majesty
what a reflection
would it reveal to me
in what form
would I find ecstasy
a thought
or a feeling be
what if you stood next to me
the air
its space
could I still breathe
clinging to your mastery
where positive and negative dwell
what future would the past foretell
seeking freedom
denying self
true love is the only common wealth
in tune to natures rhythms
and blues
physically rising and falling deeply
so deeply into you
such mystery surrounds our equal fate
we thrive and strive toward heaven’s gate
together
yet alone it aches
my heart
the touch of you creates
a longing in me
in the moment of balance we…
will its fusion reach infinity
of this I seek

©AthenaRose01/12/13

If You Snooze, You Lose
*****************************

hey… freak!!!
we’ve got serious possibility
so why are you still playing hard to get me
you know what I find sexy
I would love to have you between my knees
thrusting
with all your masculinity
combusting

just the thought of it makes me crazy
weak… quivery… and shaky
can’t you feel my attraction
can’t you sense my freak
we can both dance to the same beat
long as you respect me in the morning
while in the kitchen… coffee I’m pouring
my naked body your eyes are absorbing

just imagine how many ways I can adore you
naked in my bed
I can be your whore… too
with your hard core nature craving me even more
all our fantasies open to explore
haven’t you been thinking about us lately
so what if other people are hating
we’re all here on Mingle for the dating
not the judging or berating
and you don’t want to keep this lady waiting
or do you

okay then…

hey… super geek!!!
yea you… my freak!!!
you better stop whistling for Dixie
and just come collect me
while I’m still here for the tasting
all the flavors are so amazing
but we’ve got a favorite to pick
and its now or never to savor us like this
the choice is up to you… if you snooze you lose
so don’t ignore this platitude
or we both could be screwed
by someone new
then again…

I might like that too

©AthenaRose01/12/13

This makes me want to post a thread with all 21 or so of the poems I wrote. Then I can add new ones to it too as you do.

You Seem Like My Type
***************************

I see you there… it’s you in my stare… or am I glaring…
at you… I know you see me too…
in fact… we’ve been avoiding how we react… to each other…
keeping feelings under cover…
looking from a distance… holding on… to our resistance…
only speaking in passing… no communication is lasting…

but… you seem like my type… minus all the hype…
though the time hasn’t been right… until tonight…
when you finally decide to write…
contacting me directly… and I’ll read…
but I’ve also heard too…
so…
should I believe every word…
or…
are you just trying to get a rise out of me…
walking me through your fantasies… teasing…
appearing to be so pleasing… until…
turning your back to ignore… on your way out…
you close the door…

are you serious… or just delirious… from too much acclaim…
all the women chasing… and calling your name…
while you play with me… in this chess game…
making your calculated moves… forcing me to concentrate on you…
real smooth… but you very well could lose…
to my defensive offense…
so…
you might want to rethink your pretense…

either you do.. or… you don’t… as my attention span won’t…
stay focused on your thought out plan… even if you are the man…
for me…
I can wait for only so long… patiently… then I’m history…
what…
you haven’t heard that about me…
then where have you been… do you want to be my friend…
then spell it out… and push… SEND…

©AthenaRose 01/12/13

Truth, Are There Consequences
*********************************

from within she unfolds
the simplicity to behold
even foretold
with elegant perfection…
as she embraces her dissection
even her correction
with her presence
seemingly undisturbed
she bandies nary a word
in anger or remorse
reflecting instead on the absurd…

scandals evolve… resolve
hearts assume… resume
each in its own melody
caressing and sweet
or… in melancholy
from it’s own memory
irked… yet replete
with love
voices sing, ring
sharing everything…

and…

when emotions tide
rises high
we question why
ride each side
then decide
who… or what is right
truth… we can’t deny
before our eyes
we pry
we lie
we cry
we try
we die
when we’re alive…

we experience everything
eager to thrive
wanting to survive
we rely
on chemistry
on honesty
on what we see
this we believe
for security…

basking in the purity
of our convictions
obsessed in our addictions
and the ramifications
of our actions
that meet with satisfaction…

in all things
big or small
short or tall
when our backs against the wall
we come out fighting
igniting
wronging rights
righting wrongs…

together
we measure
with pleasure
the strength
of our weakness

so we can learn and grow…

Athena Rose © 01/14/13

I Must Have Missed The Memo
**********************************

old friends
brand new enemies
nothing like having frenemies
everybody wanting a piece of me
as if others happiness is my responsibility
and there’s always something they want for free
there must have been a memo sent out that I missed
because there’s nothing like being frucked w/o being kissed
our love has died, can’t you feel the void in our soul
there’s nothing left between us to even console
it blows my mind that it/we came to this
what we touch now turns to s#it
time to reverse serendipity
make old enemies
new friends

Athena Rose © 01/15/13

The Green Eyed Monster
******************************

once upon a time
we were on the same path
having fun and lots of laughs
until one day we got mad
stopped talking, it was sad
since then, looking back
we can still see the tracks
even though we didn’t last
we’re always there, in our past

well, after we went our separate ways
we both began living just for today
knowing we can’t wait ‘til tomorrow
because time won’t let us borrow

so, we worked to forget about us
closing our eyes to all there was
though it might still sting some what
we had to move on from lost love

then, we came to this fork in the road
both trying to decide which way to go
should we move forward pretty fast
or keep traveling along nice and slow

either way, we get out and go to Mingle
after all, life is now, and we’re still single
so we joke around and begin to flirt
making new friends, we dish a little dirt

when all of a sudden we’re on red alert!
the lover’s past has come sneakin back
and it wants to take a bite out of our a$$
as passion and envy mix, there’s an attack

cuz, dying embers can reignite an old flame
it’s a natural occurrence nobody to blame
even if our lives have drastically changed
once hearts connect, love’s there to remain

besides, when a broken heart is on the mend
without time we haven’t gotten over it yet
and watching us have fun could get them upset
leading them to actions we all could regret

because in the heat of passion we often forget
green eyed monsters don’t play with a full deck
well, what do we do in relationships like these
how do we move forward safe and independently

and, will the next person understand this history
even sticking around when/if the s#it gets deep
I guess it just depends on the level of intimacy
that a new relationship has been able to reach

Athena Rose © 01/14/13

What's The Point
***********************

Ever in my quiet mind
I’m all alone with time
Eternally you bewilder me
And all I can do is cry
Every ache that ever was
Rages at once in my voided soul
Forcing me to admit defeat
I no longer have control
Life spirals me endlessly
I’m always too dizzy to think
How will I ever find you, or me
With hope dangling on the brink
Bravado and wit might save my face
But nothing rescues me from the pain
Now I fear it is too late for us
As my will is no longer the same
Day after day I repeat my steps
Like a machine obeying commands
My feelings are irrelevant now
As I forget there was ever a plan
Going thru the motions that’s me
Is the only path ahead I can see
So what’s the point to all this fantasy
When only believers rely on their dreams

2Athena Rose © 01/16/13

Coming Up Empty
*********************

everyday
I search for you
and I think maybe today
is the day
you’re searching for me too
how many faces
have we already looked through
how many voices
have we heard
how many pages
have we turned
is there anything from this experience we’ve learned
whenever the phone rings
I think it’s time
that finally you’ll be on the other end of the line
calling my name
telling me
from now on nothing will be the same
that your heart has found it’s second beat
and your songs are all about me
you know this instinctively
so we should meet and agree to be
monogamous
to give ourselves a chance to know
while letting all our emotions show
and grow
that you are right for me
that we are meant to be
everyday
I search for you
and I think you’re searching for me too
but
we have always been just a fantasy
each other’s face we never see
will this forever be our destiny
searching
waiting
anticipating
in love
coming up empty

Athena Rose © 01/14/13

More Coffee Anyone?
*************************

friends
so happy to be
I like you
and I think
you like me
but, what do we know?
so open
so trusting
I provide a sampling
of my heart strings
and
you distinctly savor
all the flavor
of my loving
like black coffee
it’s strong
it produces
an adrenaline crave
add some sugar
I become sweet
no longer bitter
to your buds taste
pouring my feelings
into your empty cup
I try filling your soul
as you drink me all up
like a good caffeine buzz
your body needs to wake
my love feeds your impulses
and you feel it everyday
there’s no other addiction
to stir your savage beast
like a hot pot of coffee
that’s brimming for me
my energy
needs your energy
our stamina
is living proof
so, pour us another cup
open up
and let me into you now
too

Athena Rose © 01/16/13

Losers & Loners Loathe Lovers
*************************************

losers and loners
loathe lovers lives
we can be hateful
just out of spite
human nature
follows its own paths
we give it direction
via internal maps
lovers loathe losers
and loners lives too
every evolution
grows from our roots
people are happy
until we’re sad or mad
ruing the destiny
we wish that we had
we start off as lovers
until we lose our heart
someone else took it
tore it all apart
if the damage leaves scars
from pain really deep
we remain all alone
healing as we weep
so…
always remember
in the world of love
we put ourselves out there
to find the other glove
once we’re a pair
an equal match
we’ll work together
on the plans we hatch
but…
if one of the gloves
gets tired and worn
it might get replaced
like a woman scorned
then we’ll surmise
how lovers lose
losers become loners
and loners
sing the blues

Athena Rose © 01/17/13

Newbie in Town, Bullies Around
*************************************

have you ever been the newbie in town
trying to find your way all around
not sure where you’ll find your niche
if you’ll make friends that will be a good fit

at first you just mind your own business
putting a feeler out to see who’ll accept it
of course people start to look your way
to see what you bring to the party… if you play

immediately, they ask all kinds of questions
looking you up and down, making suggestions
asking you to explain what are your intentions
like they’re crossing guards with power of prevention

and, you can tell by the way they address you
if they’ll let you pass, or make you pay some dues
but either way, you’re quickly sizing them up too
cuz sooner or later they might give you the blues

you know how it is these days that’s full of haters
kids shooting kids, bullies online being instigators
kids committing suicide after being online teased
verbal/emotional cruelty is wielded by some so naturally

there’s something in their genes that makes them mean
and they feel powerful picking on the weak or meek
then you have those who follow the gang mentality
they side with bullies attacking their victim ruthlessly

for third parties standing around watching all the abuse
they don’t get involved for fear of being the next attacked too
it’s a vicious cycle that people aren’t ashamed to induce
and they don’t answer for it unless they end up on the 6 oclock news

me personally, I live and let others live the way they like
but I don’t close my eyes or walk away when I see an unfair fight
when people gang up on another because of their poetry
it seems that everyone can be judged for what they believe

and while some are immediately accepted and praised endlessly
others are either ignored, or they have to face the wrath of the bullies
who want to run the newbies off, so their turf will remain all theirs
they don’t think this is bad for business, because nobody cares

well, fellow writers, if you’re just writing for self expression and fun
get ready to be criticized, and don’t reply, or you’ll be sent on the run
just a little something I’ve learned after being put under the gun
online bullies are everywhere, so watch your back, and trust no one!

Athena Rose © 01/15/13

I Hear That I'm Just Seeking Attention
**********************************************

All my years I’ve worked and I’ve prayed
I’ve had a long productive life to this day
Suffering hardships taught me appreciation
Every humbling experience I use for my creations
My journey hasn’t been one of primping and ease
I’ve dirtied and calloused my hands, feet, and knees
So, what I have now comes from sweat off my brow
Nobody gave me nothin as I earned all my chow
Well, it comes to my ears from gossip around here
That I’m just a B*tch seeking attention, it’s clear
The message being delivered to alienate me
Shows the nature of those with jealous insecurity
And they want me to observe all their commands
Like I’m just a follower without my own plans
Well, excuse me please for making my own living
Believing in charity, loving hard, and forgiving
Those who think they can run rough shod over folks
Would do better eating their words before they choke
On the other hand, the day they start paying my way
Is when their word will hold over me a little sway
Because gone are the days we women must grin and obey
So nobody better expect me to submit to their play
Listening and talking to one another is nice
As we’ve learned about what the other is like
And friends, to me, is what I want us to be
Until we find one to commit too seriously
I don’t know how else to make you understand
But I will not be moved if being pressured by a man
Unless you’re the master of me as your wife
I’ll do exactly as I please with my life
And, if I have 1 lover, 2 lovers, 3 lovers, 4
It’s my private life; you don’t need to keep score
So, back up off me, and get out of my face
Never think you can intimidate me in this way
And don’t come at me with your expectations
Or you’ll be disappointed by my insubordination
Now that I’ve had my say about the chatter
We can be friends, or not, it doesn’t really matter
My world won’t stop without you in it to mingle
I’ll keep having fun, cuz I’m over 21, and single

Athena Rose © 01/16/13

Wow! This is Awkward
*************************

WoW!
how blind I’ve been
it only took a second to see
we’re just closet friends
cuz you’re ashamed to be seen with me
MaN!
this s*it hurts
my ego it stings
if I’d have known how you feel
I would have been much less giving
JeeZ!
this is so awkward
I don’t know how to talk to you now
I don’t even want to look your way
all I can think at this moment, is, WOW!

FrucK!
my eyes are open
my mind on high alert
you are part of their clique
the one that treats others like dirt

DamM!
you’re not mine, but theirs
so how much have you fed them
it’s not about spreading gossip
but killing my trust
no wonder I get hints from their poems

WhateveR!
this new revelation blurs all the lines
and tells me the new day comin is here
all the pages between us are gone
in the future I’ll wait ‘til the coast is clear

GoD!
please have mercy on me
though I may not deserve YouR leniency
I beg of YoU, selfishly
allow me to understand all the mystery
and to accept my fate unconditionally
I proceed like I understand my path, but it’s blindly
if YouR will is to be, I’ll act faithfully
all that’s good and harmonious is what I seek

Athena Rose © 01/18/13

The Majority Rules
*************************

you think I don’t understand
but actually I do
in any society
the majority rules
right or wrong
cliques
like peas in a pod
exist
so we can get along
with those we do belong
I’m not as naïve as I appear
my dear
when a reality check showed me
what to expect
I knew what I could say
and what I’d regret
holding the cards
close to our vest
is what we know
works out for the best
sometimes in life
we have to take unusual measures
to uncover its worthy treasures
like who we can cherish
as a dear and close friend
in the end
when
we let down our guard
as it seeks out the truth
protecting ourselves
is the first thing we do
sure
I’m disappointed
about the way things are
but let’s step back
and view this from afar
we won’t shed any tears
they’ll be no scar
now that we’re exposed
we know who we are
games are so childish
even if they’re fun
but it’s time to get serious
in our search to find someone
after all
everyday that passes
we get older still
and closer to Alzheimers
so there’s no time to kill

Athena Rose © 01/18/13

Where I Draw The Line
*****************************

all I want is someone who
wants what I want
from the other one too
I’m not being arrogant
thinking first about me
because I look at love and life
philosophically
what’s good for me
is gonna be good for you
when I give my heart
you get the rest of me too
I cherish and nurture
what and who is mine
but
I refuse to be used
that’s where I draw the line
therefore
whatever you dish out
is what you’re gonna get
so make sure you can swim
before getting your feet wet
I love a good challenge
but I don’t play head games
when it comes to real life
we both pay the same
and we’re not going to gamble
what we don’t want to lose
so before we commit
let’s test the waters
we’re diving into
by being completely aware
of our personal limitations
it allows us to envision the future
without unreasonable expectations
we won’t live in the past either
where memory ghosts dwell
any baggage still left there
will have to be expelled
and we don’t need a lecture
on minding our P’s and Q’s
because we’ll acknowledge in advance
that we’ve already paid our dues
so let’s move forward
with interest piqued this way
and we’ll have our happy tomorrow
by leaving behind us yesterday

Athena Rose © 01/18/13

All Our Complexities
****************************

I’m going to keep on babbling
‘Til all my thoughts
like peas
are shelled
you grow weary
of muted listening
or I escape
from this prison cell
pulling the rug out
from under me
only fuels my will
to go on
to overcome tripping embarrassment
as I search
for where I belong
getting on your nerves
is my specialty
I’m like a wound
that just won’t heal
I’ll fester
until you notice me
and cause you pain
so I can make you squeal
this is what happens when loneliness
overtakes you
and your common senses
you keep opening yourself up
to anything that breathes
by letting down all your defenses
we know there’s someone
for everyone
but how many faces
must we look thru
hopefully the right one
will come along
and we’ll recognize them
when they do
if they’ve journeyed along
beside us
been fortunate to take in the view
they know what to expect
and will accept
all the complexities in us too

Athena Rose © 01/18/13

I Try
**********

I try to leave
to just be me
but everywhere I turn
you’re still there
and my intuition
forces my acceptance
of your unrelenting stare
with such an envious care
your strangle hold humbles

I try to resist
but the barrier around me crumbles
as your passion intercedes
with my need
my undefended personality

I try to believe
as our worlds
our bodies
our spirits
collide
our love
overpowering
decants freely

I try to see
my secret lover
in the darkness
as I plead
please let me breathe
silently

I try to grow
as you twist and torture my feelings
my thoughts
into your own
you feed my emptiness
with pleasurable bounty
from everyone’s know

I try to admit
there’s so much more that I want
and can do
to benefit
from your blatant intrusion
into mine
you, my ensuing mind

I try to love
together
push come to shove
you and I
two species
of a different kind
creating realities
off the tongue
just as whole worlds
have always been spun

Athena Rose © 01/19/13

Talking About Pure Fantasy
***********************************

The naturally masculine scent
emitting from his cleverly adorned flesh
afire for me
is intoxicating.
and I’m energized
by the voracious sway
he has over my mind
my very existence.
little did I know then
what the repercussions
of our first touch
would consist of.
that my every act of submission
has since weighed heavily on him
in the dark of night
as I open my self up
to his exclusive eyesight
allowing him access
into every aspect of my life
and mind.
for five months
I’ve instinctively followed his path
walking where he leads my feet
reveling in the people
he designed for me to meet.
this tactfully judicious man
has a will of cast iron
a lustful passion for life’s rarity
and an imp like me
who is no match for his austerity.
secretive
and calculating
he follows and leads
an ever changing course
to pique my curiosity.
from the very first moment
I woke to his dedication
powerlessly to obey his need
without hesitation
he sets boundaries around me.
my innate ability to pontificate
on all that I see
on all that makes me, me
sometimes tests his dual nature
to the limit of its capacity
and he becomes angry
lashing out
hurtfully…
its only then I understand
my true captivity.
naturally my inclination for survival
gives me strength
to overcome his obsession
and I quietly shut my door in his face.
but
with deviousness
and cunning
never to be outdone
he stands at the thresh hold
laughing…
my futile efforts to reject him
are invigorating
as the faster I flee
the more zealous he is
to remind me
of his authenticity.
he is determined to make me see
the error of my way
and allows me time
for thought control
while bringing my actions in tow.
his life is one of business
as he patiently waits
daily
getting inside my head.
my heart he keeps
securely in his grasp
until such time
he claims me for himself
and only then
will he be able to subdue my will
completely
as I surrender to him
happily choosing to be his woman
in the end.

Athena Rose © 01/20/13

It Get's Harder To Say Goodbye
*************************************

My spirit refuses to let you be
every time you try to ignore my words
like rain showering you completely
they soak into your memory
your minds eye is forced to read me
as I hold myself up to your view
constantly… irreverently
repulsed is what you feel instantly
yet your will refuses to let you leave me
how have I captured your thoughts
why do I need you to see my truth
as each new wind blows it dry
and your eyes look deeply into mine
it gets harder and harder to say goodbye
it’s pointless now for you to even try
our lives have become intertwined
awake and asleep
we breathe and think alike
inertia has lost it’s power to divide

©Athena Rose 01/20/13