Love Just Isn't Enough
*****************************

this girl wants to be the center of his world
but all that boy wants is to give her a twirl
once around the dance floor is how he lives
he swags to sway and has nothing else to give

that boy talks a really good game about losers
in his reality rules, beggars can’t be choosers
taking whatever he can get at others expense
he’s an incubus for which there is no defense

this girl sees that boy in her day and night dreams
he’s not what she needs, nor is what he seems
yet she’s drawn to him as if by some evil magic
if she gives into his charm life could become tragic

that boy shouldn’t cut in to this girl’s last dance
unless he’s ready to commit to a real romance
even then, this girl on that boy is taking a chance
but, for this girl maybe that boy will become a man

a man that will grow together with this woman in love
because this woman wants a man she can be proud of
differences with verbal sparring may sometimes come up
but, without debate affairs can gather boredom’s dust

so, a creative mind and can do attitude is a definite plus
for this woman to accept a man, he has to have her trust
but, if he steps on her toes their dance is done simply because
in her reality rules, love without fidelity just isn’t enough

© Athena Rose 01/22/13

Biology 101
*****************

I see him in my mind
blue jeans
a tight white t-shirt
brown leather uppers
boat shoes, not boots
dark shades
to camouflage his face
he’s so fine
and soon he’ll be mine
for Valentine’s Day
he’ll send his love my way
for now I’ll drop a dime
and call my attention
to the new life lesson
this dream is about to teach me
and it will be on him, finally
a freakin freebie
there won’t be any cost to me
learning will come naturally
cause I want to graduate
with a degree in love
after I took a semester in hate
and just like a deviled egg
he will be my appetizer
knowing him will make me wiser
even if I have to fail a grade
experience is worth the price I’ll pay
with my heart
its been scarred
tough as a bed of nails
it deflects or impales
but he enjoys creating pleasure from pain
transforming normal from the insane
expertly he breaks through walls
healing old wounds, scars and all
and ladies…
when an original, life changing man
sets his sites on me
you can bet your bottom dollar
me and him
we’re gonna make some history
just you wait, watch, and see
and when my schooling with him is complete
maybe you too
can take his biology class for free
Athena Rose © 01/23/13

I'll Give You My Cherry
*****************************

who cares
if nobody cares?
I care,
you care to share
with me?
who said
she said
he said?
I said,
you want to say it
with me?
pretty pleeeeezzz!!!
I’ll give you my cherry
on top,
underneath,
it’s a tight squeeze
between us two,
but we’ll make it fit...

Athena Rose © 01/23/13

Our Music Sounds Like Love
**********************************

I like the feel
of plush,
it softens
all the rough,
and I never
get enough
of your words,
they make me hush.

I see your soul
through the bluff,
and I know
your tender touch,
while our friends
are all abuzz
together we’re high
on life’s head rush.

I know I can be
smug,
I also tend
to act tough,
and our timing
sometimes sucks,
but our music
sounds like love.

Athena Rose © 01/24/13

I Believe In Karma
*************************

I want to see
a different view,
but I’m not sure how,
or what to do.
When each new day
dawns like the last,
I’m constantly reminded
of the past.
But what’s the point
in looking back,
where wounds sustained
leave fading tracks?
And I’ll never retrace
the steps I took,
as I crossed the street,
but failed to look.
My thoughts are angry
when I think about it,
how being played
makes me feel like s#it!!!
Some painful memories
I’ve buried so deep,
no one will see them
encased in concrete.
Yet so very often
my face is rubbed in the dirt,
like my heart is calloused
or I’m incapable of being hurt.
And all I can hope for
at this stage of the game,
is to never see your face again
or ever hear your name.
I believe in karma
so whatever you did, or do
will eventually come back around
and make a bigger fool out of you.

Athena Rose © 01/24/13

The Power of Positive Energy
************************************

My part of our loveship’s on pause
as I reboot me all over from scratch,
being back to square one is surprising
it’s like living with The Cat in the Hat.

What looked like the genuine article
reads more like a fluff piece instead,
that taught me to distinguish the value
of what and who I let inside my head.

Connections can be blots and blessings
when disguised they’re difficult to see,
but I trust the power of positive energy
to open the doors that are right for me.

My own future is in the palm of my hand
and I’m molding it to suit my personality,
maybe one day there will even be a man
who’ll take notice, and make me his lady.

Yesterday showed me tomorrows skies
and I’m eager to experience the weather,
even if storms beat us down to the ground
they will never stop us from being together.

Regardless to where fate might lead us
my soul has to climb out of this dark,
as I leave behind all the old memories
I’ll make room for new love in my heart.

An online romance is great when it exists
if it’s a solid clicking between two souls
one day we could look back to reminisce
about what we all did to make us feel whole…

AR©01/25/13

Can You Feel The Love
****************************

I want to walk
NO
I want to run
I want to feel
the warmth of the sun
I know its glow
is for everyone
but if I could
I would take extra for me
and hoard its rays
so selfishly
letting them shine
on my darkest of days
I’d always feel the love
of nature that way
then
there’s the moon
and all of her beams
affecting my feelings
directing my dreams
if I could capture
just an ounce of her light
for romance I’d shine it
on the darkest of nights
illuminating a path
coming straight to my door
so my lover can find me
ce que je ferias pour l’amour
let me not forget
each star in the sky
whose twinkling view
is caught in my eyes
and as I focus my lenses
on you
reflecting the harmony
of the stars, sun, and moon
you will begin to understand me
with an open mind
you’ll see my greatest need
it is my lust for life
YES
and it comes naturally

AR©01/25/13

It's Time to Move On
****************************

Why are you still viewing me?
I haven’t changed
until recently
when you said
you want to be free
you said
you want someone else
so
I walked away
immediately
I didn’t ask you to stay
I didn’t ask you to explain
I cut all ties
so
you can realize
I’m no longer
part of your life
you no longer
have to hide
you no longer
have to pretend
we’re not even friends
because then
you might actually have to admit
we have a connection
we have a relationship
but we don’t
anymore
just like you wanted
and I don’t want to be haunted
by you
so take a clue
and move on too
OH
and BTW
I hope she is everything
that I’m not
your friend
your lover
I’m sure you both
deserve each other
so be happy
forget about me
because I don’t play
second fiddle
in lovers lives
I don’t get in the middle
I’m all
or
I’m nothing
and you will miss
all
my loving
because you knew
how much I loved you
but you didn’t love me
obviously

AR©01/26/13

It's Just Another Mood Swing
************************************

My life
more over
than starting out
is now
starting over
reborn
to begin again
my head
no longer
in the clouds
my dad would be proud…
I know
there’s a man
for me
somewhere
he’s my destiny
and I’ll answer
when he calls
I’ll let him climb
all my walls
to exercise his will
with mine
he’ll be my blanket
my security
when I’m cold
I’ll feel his heat
when I’m lonely
he’ll be with me
when I’m angry
he’ll turn the other cheek
and talk me off the ledge
hedging his bets
that it’s just another mood swing
c’mon
I am 51…
going through life’s changes
is a never ending cycle
for women
when every monthly
we can become enemies
even to our friends
growing and slowing pains
never end…
then
there’s the monthly moon swings too
Mother Nature can be cruel
to those of us she rules
up and down
round and round
one minute this
the next minute that
if you doubt my verse
read the farmer’s almanac
and don’t forget the zodiac
signs to show you why
when I’m happy
I still cry
there’s always some truth
even in the absurd
and I wish that
all the men
could really comprehend
what we women
have to endure
just from our own bodies
forget about our minds
that’s a story
of a completely different kind
you could fill the pages in a book
explaining the meaning in a look
that starts off in our head
where we can get upset
and our faces will reflect
our intensity
for all to see
so the entire human race
can clearly appreciate
what we’ll say
to explain the looks away
while thinking
“Thank God, I’m not the one in the hot seat.”
you see
we women
are nature’s complexity
and I’m just starting out
again
hoping the universe
is still my friend
so my nights
are occupied
getting to know
yin and yang
of the future
around us
as it unfolds
with more stories
to be told…

AR©01/26/13

You Won't See Us Cry
***************************

You’ve had my attention from the start
I wasn’t thinking with my head
I was feeling my way through
with my heart
finally
this is something I want to feel
and I want to pretend it’s real
I’m not ashamed to admit
I like the fantasy
the make believe
the you and me
we’ll never be
except for in my dreams
because sometimes
fake is much more safe
than real
it can be more real
than how real
can ever feel
and if it’s a crime to take something fake
and pass it off as real
then I’ll consider you a steal
and if convicted of taking what I want
from you
I won’t even bother to appeal
instead
I’ll gladly serve a life sentence
with the way you make me feel
I hope I’m not spinning my wheels
explaining my philosophy
telling you
what works for me
after all
we’re not children playing
hide and seek
we’re lovers
crushing on the rush
buzzing on our freak
geek to geek!
So
NO
we won’t cry
our love wasn’t a lie
it just wasn’t real
you get the deal
right?

AR©01/26/13

What Do You Want From Me
********************************

What do you want from me?
Why are you in my face?
You are making this so difficult
When it’s easier to just walk away

You think you know me so well
Okay, I’ll give you this one, only one!
When you’re near me I crave, I cave,
and I hate you for making me weak in this way!!!
Am I a game now, are you having fun?

That’s it! You’re alone and bored
So you thought you’d look me up
Good ole Karen, she’ll come out and play
Only my feelings are real about us!

Do you think I’m impervious to pain?
Do you think I’ll take all you dish out?
Do I look like a sucker for punishment?
Do you really understand what I’m about?

You hurt me!
You want to be free, of me!
You want another woman, not me!

Again!

Why are you still in my face?
What do you still want from me?
You are making it hard for me to turn away!
MY FEELINGS ARE REAL!!!

AR©01/27/13

We Are Meant To Be
************************

This is just too creepy
I can’t write
When you’re watching me
Self consciousness defeats my inner spirit
If there’s a voice
I just can’t hear it
Well…
I do
But there are too many
Not all are friendly
And each wants to be first
To quench my tongue’s thirst
Selecting one
Makes my head and heart hurt
Choosing wrong
Makes me feel even worse
So I stumble along
Falling over each verse
Closing an opening
Beginning at the ending
I understand now, I’m cursed!
It’s only your face
In front of me
It’s only your voice
From my fingertips heard
Obsession
Once again
Is my reveling
As my focus becomes blurred
All I can think now
Is to keep breathing
Inhaling and exhaling our spirits igniting
The fire that burns our scarred minds
Keeping us blind
To the void we deny
Opening our eyes to the new love
We find
In each others life
Where we’ll always be
Because
I’m the one for you
And you’re the one for me

AR©01/27/13

There's No Such Thing As Mr. Right
*******************************************

I see the pattern with my own eyes
and
I’m very aware of what’s behind each disguise
what makes your sense of romance intriguing and nice
are the games that you play to keep me surprised
from the very beginning you weren’t who you are
relentlessly you followed me
and no path was too far
every single word that came out of my mouth
you quickly devoured like a lure to a trout
in your world of cold shoulder respect
you have to behave like others expect
so when I, a nomad, unwittingly entered your domain
you wanted much more
than to know just my name
through many a mask
and as many weeks went by
I chatted so much
I must have met a hundred guys
but
very few of them interested me
beyond a hello and goodbye
don’t get me wrong
I will tell you no lie
there have been several
I’ve enjoyed giving of my time
being new to the dating scene
yes
I was green
but
just like in the real world
we do what comes naturally
so
eventually I relaxed and let down my hair
it was finally then I had my only cyber affair
it was the most intense experience I’ve ever known
I wouldn’t change a thing
and like ET… I phoned home
telling my family about the new people I’d met
about the fun I was having
without leaving my desk
and they were happy
knowing I am finally free
and can experience my life
however it pleases me
I soon discovered though
that dating online isn’t enough
no matter how good words feel
we all still need real love
and a warm body to snuggle up
so
where does today bring you and me
bring us
after each and every online line has been crossed
and marked off
I’m still just as single
with nothing ventured
and nothing lost
and I’m pretty sure tomorrow will be like yesterday and today
I’ll write and I’ll post and I’ll talk the time away
but
most importantly I’ll keep uppermost in my mind
there’s no such thing as a man
who’s Mr. Right
so
whether on the internet
or
in my real life
if I meet a man who likes me
and I like him too
we’ll take it one step at a time
until we decide what to do

how does this sound to you

AR©01/27/13

Motives Are Hard To Hide
*******************************

us vs. them
how do we comprehend
women vs. men
enemy vs. friend
literate vs. illiterate
who really gets it
we divide to soothe our pride
then we think others should choose a side
and motives are hard to hide
they give us away
like beacons in the sky
while light exposes what’s too dark to believe
with the naked eye we see the polarity

AR©01/27/13

We Keep Moving Forward
*******************************

I feel the world it’s under my feet
The firm foundation of its concrete
I hear the sounds of music to my ear
So many voices perceiving them clear
In this time and space I choose to relate
We all need love and can do without hate
If only our hearts could learn to play along
Imagine the beauty we’d see with each song
Erasing the ugly we could right all the wrong
Looking inside we will explore each possibility
Life can be hard without the support we need
And we control directions to a certain degree
If we crave love we must first learn to give
The more that we share the better we live
When feelings sense hurt walls we erect
Reality of pain we don’t easily forget
Mistakes are the lessons we’ll learn
Most foolish patterns we'll discern
Keep moving past all negativity
To see if you can know happy

AR©01/28/13

One's Goodbye is Another's Hi
**************************************

do you feel it too
change is coming soon
who knows how lives collide
why strangers can see eye to eye
when ones goodbye is another’s hi
cause and effect
is karma’s true vibe
be careful what you wish for
I hear my subconscious warn
then she nudges me to unlock my door
you’ve been down this road before
she whispers
while trying to implore
love is… and can be real
and it’s what you need
you really need to heal
how long will you keep waiting
patiently
as each memory fades
there’s another
ready and willing
to take its place
life is a foot race
between time
and the empty space
voids only deepen
the longer we hesitate
if we have love
we should keep it
if we sow love
we will reap it
for now
I lay my old life on each line
releasing my soul
in music and rhyme
as my future reaches back
to take my hand
it guides me to the new me that I am
nothing
and no one
can change my path
with each step forward
I’ll forget to look back
and yesterdays story
will be the remains of the past

AR©01/28/13

Reality's Bell Rang
***************************

We’re moving on
just like you want
we can’t look back
or be each other’s haunt
We had a nice time
lots of laughs and intimate talks
sharing our dreams and daily jaunts
looking forward to meeting
even being together one day
it was exciting to think of the future
in this and every way
You and me were planning so many things
until I heard reality’s bell ring
all of a sudden your feelings changed for me
okay, no problem, now I see we were a fantasy
Life goes on, even when relationships turn off
when there’s nowhere to go, our feelings have to stop
I won’t ever forget you, you’re in my brain to stay
but I’ll get over you, my thoughts will quiet one day
until then, I wish the best for both of us
we’ll experience love again too
we’ll both be happy campers
and we’ll forget about me and you

AR©01/29/13

You Know My # and My Name
*********************************

When you had me exactly where I wanted to be
You thought you could take advantage of me easily
Like a weak minded female you could just intimidate
You never expected me to turn, daring you to retaliate

I knew from that moment when you first withdrew
There wouldn’t be much in common between us two
You see, a strong woman needs an even stronger man
One that can formulate, and carry out his master plan

Haven’t you ever heard, that you can’t outrun a fox
It’s the thrill of the chase that spurs the action on
Backing down from a challenge is the same as suicide
There’s more than just a win at stake, it’s a matter of pride

I laid my cards on the table, and held some close to my vest
When it comes to a battle of wits, I’ve learned from the best
There’s not much in this life that can be done to break my will
And I was hoping to meet my match, who has some real skill

Too bad the various difficulties in the situation made you run
If only you’d have hung around, we could have had some fun
Instead, I’m on the prowl for some new blood in this sport
But, you’re the only one that understands what I’m doing it for

Regardless, we had our day, now we’ll go our separate ways
Unless you change your mind about the hand you want to play
If that’s the case, you know my number, my email, and my name
Hesitate using it, and they’ll be many more players in this game

AR©01/29/13

Aboard a Different Train
**********************************

When I set out on my walk yesterday
there were black & white clouds,
some even gray,
and their thick overcast
kept the sun at bay
all day.
The air was enigmatic
and I breathed it in deep,
as I reveled in fresh oxygen
it filled my lungs to capacity.
Then
suddenly and unexpectedly
the wind picked herself up,
I heard a roar in my ears
and felt a very strong gust.
Powerfully
this wind’s noise blew into my soul,
I felt earth’s pulling energy
and didn’t want her to let me go…
Just for a minute
I imagined having her force,
to push past the boundaries
that keep me off course.
Normally
during my daily exercise
it’s just the wild animals
and me,
they’re in the surrounding woods,
and we keep each other company.
Occasionally
a few neighbors drive by,
some slow down
and ask if I need a ride.
Just once
but never again
I’d like to say yes,
then climb onboard a different train
that’s going anywhere fast.
Mostly
it’s just me and my thoughts
talking like friends,
as they give me ideas
I grab a pad and pen.
You might not understand
the connection
between my thoughts and me
hell, sometimes I even see them
as my own worst enemy.
But
when intuition puts her face in my business,
she aggravates my feelings
until she makes them bare witness.
Once my feelings and thoughts
have been swayed by intuition,
I’m left with no other choice
it’s to her voice I listen.
Whatever she reveals
my mind’s eye detects,
and as I trust in her instinct
she’s never let me down yet.
Well
with everything going on
from stormy weather,
to some health
and financial issues,
to my ex,
it’s difficult to decide
what I should do next.
So
I’m kinda in limbo
as I move forward in life,
my motivation is waning
now that I’m nobodies wife.
It’s like I’m on autopilot
in a steady nose dive,
where nothing I do matters
if I can’t get anything right.
And the faster I walk
the harder my pulse beats,
as it rushes through my veins
it’s out of step with my feet.
So annoying is the noise
of my shoes on the road,
as it clearly reminds me
that I’m always walking alone.
But
I have to keep smiling,
refusing to let sadness
creep in,
or else it might be
my story’s end.

AR©01/29/13

What Are We Willing To Do For Love?
*********************************************

how do I express what I really feel
if I direct it straight at you
will it make you react too
or
are you like me
just taking a wait and see
attitude
that could lose the race for me
or even lose it for you

we know our writing isn’t a competition
for the winner to take home first prize
it’s about opening our books
so we can get a closer look
into the mirrors of our souls
as we search for the love that makes us whole
the one other heart we truly recognize
when we can see ourselves in another’s eyes
and there’s no pretense
no kind of disguise
but rather being hypnotized by the one who makes us feel alive
and compels us to strive
to get and keep them by our side
because without them
we feel
and understand that we might survive
but we’ll never thrive
as long as there’s a divide
between our hearts and minds

my feminine ways vs. your masculinity

two sides of different stories

when we come together
will we create one novel
that others will want to follow
reading one chapter after the other
in the hopes that they’ll discover
how we found love
and what works for us
or will we join the rush
getting to the finish line is an eventual must
as running in place
gets us nowhere but here
year after year
with destinations unclear

you know what I’m saying’s for real

so if I can’t win it
is your heart ready for me to steal

is it insured against a loss
have you already decided I’m worth the cost
of losing your life to me
knowing together we’ll live happily
for an eternity

when you read my pages
do they compel you to keep turning
one after the other
hoping you’ll uncover
the key to my heart
so you can unlock my defenses
that bar the door to your entrance
because like me
you too realize
we are meant to be
part of each others destiny

are you a man
that goes after what’s yours
refusing to stop
no matter what obstacles may impede
until you finally succeed

even if I’m the hindrance

does this make any sense

or, are you like me
such a criminal for love
you’ll become a thief
who’s willing to steal
the heart that we need
so we can keep breathing

hey, don’t judge

others have done worse for love

AR©01/31/13