((((((byteme))))) come here I'll Bah humbug ya hehehe

For my family, the Holidays have always been a time of joy...and sorrow. My grandmother died on December 5, 1995, and even years later it still is a time of sorrow. But, for my family, we believe the Holidays are also a time of celebration. Plus, we always eat alot of good food, have laughs, and make memories.

My family makes the Holidays special for me. I grew up with a lot of love, and we always appreciative of that. I am thankful for it and I love this time of year.

i have some screwy emotions... like when the family was over i laughed and had fun... they left, i took a nap, woke up, and cried for an hour.....

I've been bummed out by the holidays over the years...not having a significant other to share the festivities with bites, especially when it's year after year after miserable friggen' "Bah humbug" year.

But I also feel very blessed to have family to share the holidays with, and even more so this year with the return of my daughter I gave up for adoption almost 20 years ago. For the first time in a very long time I will be able to thoroughly enjoy the holiday season. What more could I possibly ask for? Good food, friends, and family...I'm so incredibly lucky!!

Heck, maybe this year Santa will even bring me a man for Christmas!

sadly I'm not into family oriented holidays, usually ride the bike through the mountainside or sleep all day. I do however enjoy Christmas eve seeing the anticipation on the neighborhood children's faces, but christmas day I like being alone with my dogs. When one grows up in an alcoholic family environment, the holidays lose their effect, and they become a built in time of depression, so yeah, you're not alone, there are many people who actually dread the holidays, and lately it has gotten worse as the family units throughout society become more and more divided.

I'm sorry you had to deal with that growing up.
I have been single now for yrs and I want someone "special" in my life to create our own memories and traditions and base it on what WE want. I am blessed to have my kids. BUT I am really now starting to feel an ache to be with a signifigant other. My older two kids are not here and its just me and my 5 yr old now. I am not desperate for a man nor need one, but would like a good loving relationship.

wouldn't we all, it's something many of us crave, yearn, burn for, but it can be very dangerous when consumed by it because you might end up settling, think with the mind as well as with your emotions, it will work out a lot better for you. The roads we travel in life are never gold paved or halo'ed by rainbows, however there is bliss with patience, understanding ones self and communicating those needs to another. The best advice I could ever give anyone is "never accept anything less then what you yourself are willing to give".....Have a happy holiday season, and who knows, santa may bring you what you want or he may get stuck in your chimney and you'll have to settle...lol

****I'm not sorry nor do I regret my past, it has molded me into who I am.

1/2 the time i dont know what mood im in any way an the holidays oh ya real fun i might be bipoler or some thing never know what your going to get

you sound like an amazing man!

Oh, I wont settle.....never again.....that is why I have been single for so many yrs....my son's dad left when i was 7 1/2 mo preg(he is now 5) ..dated one man since and that was almost 2 yrs ago and lasted less than a yr. so, no....settling isnt an option...i would rather be alone forever, than unhappy again in a relationship.....been in abusive ones(two) and never again...so, no desperation here..... ;)
maybe Santa will send me someone...lol I have been good, well...kinda..lol

As each new season comes around,,,so do ADDED losses
of the ones you NOW have to only miss,,as they have passed.

I live to ALWAYS REMEMBER THEM, yet keep them in the back of my
still living on processes,,,,,YES, I think of one of them everyday of my life,,I see a look alike, I remember a laugh, I have their voice flash in my ear,,,,day dreaming,,,and its just LIFE, to me
I realize their never share a voice or take a drink with them,,,
but I will die with all their names on my tongue, and my arms open to embrace them in my next life,wink..

well hey, at least it wouldnt be boring...lol ;)
btw, I think many people have such a wrong view of people who are bipolar...in working in the healthcare field for many yrs, i can say that there are many levels and aspects to it, but it doesnt neccessarily make a person "crazy, unstable and weird"....more people have this illness more than we think and manage very well and live very "normal" lives....its stepping up and treating it with whatever options are needed, like medication, counceling ect.....being bipolar is no different than treating high blood pressure, cancer or any other illness....depression, bipolar and so many other mental illnesses are looked at with such a stigma that is so wrong

Wow man,,hate to hear this,,I'm sorry,,but I to had THAT
drunkin time in growing,,,it only made me WANT TO NOT BE HIM,,,
So as I grew and PRAYED to GOD to take my dad,,,,I KNEW,,I
WOULD NEVER BE HIM TO MY KIDS,,,I mean this man would knock me down if I walked between HIS sports on T.V. and screem at me till I left again....so I grew to HATE sports,,all sports,,,lol
BUT,,I lerned them through my kids playing in them all,
And me watching them all,,,,,,so now,,,they STILL SUCK,,,,wink
BUT with my kids,,,any one of them,,,their exceptible to view,lol

yeah, i see the candied yams with the roasted marshmallows on top and i miss my cat. i made the candied yams this year to commemorate the loss of my beloved Luke. he was a big white marshmallow cat with toasted marshmallow points on his ears, cappuccino stains on his back and a caramel swirl tail.

yeah, the holidays suck. i don't have a job. i hate my life.

hey, I'm sorry maaan....dont know if to take you serious or not...lol
you definately are a food man tho...lol

so im not crazy

No mixed feeling about the Holidays...I dont need a S.O. I have my own friends and Family. My child makes the Holidays what they are....That is the best Joy on earth.

Not saying I would not have enjoyed anothers company, but it is not needed.

No - you're not crazy - just human. I, too, have mixed emotions with the holidays. I go to my children's house and watch the grandchildren open their gifts, go to church and truly beleive, but still come home to an empty house. That, too, can be good, but, sometimes, just sometimes, it becomes a very lonesome place. God Bless and Happy Holdays to all of you.. May you all have happy, happy times with pleasant memories..

Just another day to me.

I'm no more alone on a holiday than I am any other day.

take me serious? with respect to what? take me serious in general, as a person, or what i said about missing my cat?

a food man you say... could be i'm associated with food bcos i'm a chef and it's what i kno, mebbe. just mebbe.

i love Luke so much. was calling him marshmallow before i ever named him. and then when he was still little and i had my own place and he was living with me there, i remember one morning i was eating marshmallows in bed, he was in bed with me and i turn around for just a second and when i look back he's munchin on the marshmallow i was holding in my hand. the other cat Darth Vader likes to eat olives. weird. but whatever. all are unique. i miss Luke so much. he was such a good cat. sweetest animal. i don't wanna talk about it anymore, sorry. i'm still very upset about him being killed the way he was.

there's no need to take me serious. i'm a sad miserable waste of life. just visit the forums for entertainment. sm:)e