I lay alone in silence and dark
a tear off my cheek,
wondering where went the spark?
His words cut deep, as he gives me
a stare...
But nothing loving, only a hard cold
glare.
His hands make me flinch, as he
shows me a fist
as I close my eyes,thinking...
I'll get through this.
He leaves me alone for days at a time
but I know he's with another,
I thought forever he would be mine.
I ache for his love, yet wanting to
be free
Trying hard to remember what it's like
just to be me.
I have my kids, my blessings,
my life
but I also wanted to be his true love
and wife.
Time goes by and I seem to exist
how many more years
can I take of this?
My kids are my focus, they bring me
a smile,
but soon they will be grown
on their own in a short while.
I put on a mask, fake and unreal
trying hard to hold on
being as tough as steal.
The final day he left,
I was set free,
but still searching for pieces
to be the real me.

11-12-09

When you remove all the masks you have had to wear, YOU will appear...I can never fathom what it would be like to live the life that is in your write...You are taking back your power, writing what you did...Awesome....

beautiful. when words invite a person into your life and give you a taste of your pain , your joy , your hope leaving the reader breathless feeling that in some way.. he/she has known you intimately...then you really know youve read something good.

bravo

Very heartfelt write and very sad as well. But once one learns to take charge of their own life and get out from under the thumb of the one that is holding them back and they start living their own life those mask will never be lifted....

Thank you for the kind words, that seems like a lifetime ago, yet the memory is still so there....Life has taught me so much and I have become a stronger better person though because of it and only because I have allowed it to. I have such a more sence of who I am now and who and what I want to be. :)

very heartfelt

wow yes very1

very heartfelt

So brave and so strong, yet the tenderness,
such beauty.