Sorry everyone is biting the depression bullet too. Hoped it was only me. Think it is partly the time of the year, the holidays always get me down, the anniversary of my grandpa's death, he was my "special parent" and I miss him dearly. All the stress of the season. Money is so tight this year, gas prices outrageous, grocery prices, the war, things are just sucky in general, I take too much personally, I know. I miss my grandbabies so much, haven't seen them since about February, and won't see them at Christmas either now, no money. My car was broken into on Monday night, but they didn't get anything other than some small change. I know the seasonal affective disorder affects us too, especially those of us up north, lack of sunshine, and we get more rain and cloudy days. I am trying to refinance the house, the first bank said yes and then no, now the second bank is saying yes, but I have to get it past an appraiser, and it needs a new roof and has rotting wood on the big window sill in the front of the house and need to try to camouflage that, so am looking for some Christmas decorations, that may work, hide it best I can, and pray the roof squeaks by. Once it is refinanced, I will fix a few small things and then the sucker goes on the market and I get out from under this damn headache - am selling it as is, fixer-upper in the true form of the phrase. Daughter just found out she has a tumor in her uterus and needs a hysterectomy, so hope it is a simple cancer and surgery. Just seems to keep raining on my head.

Cutts - glad you are feeling better. Good to see you back.

Karen - you sound good, glad you are doing well and surviving finals.

Amber - glad your doing better. Hope things are going well for you.

Hill - you are a kick in the pants.

Jeff - keep working at it.

Sweet - welcome, join in whenever, we usually check this thread fairly often and someone will talk to you. Hope you are doing well.

Shenadra - have you tried counseling?? I find that talking to someone helps, like groups too, that has helped me. Feel free to write to one of us, same as I told Sweet above, someone is usually checking this thread and responding to people.

MB - hope things perk up for you.

Take care everyone, hope the rest of your week goes well.

Hello everyone. So far, today is going ok. I'm at work. Things are slow right now. I am really trying hard to not be depressed about how things are in my life right now, but it is really hard. It's funny though, I'm the one who usually gives everyone else advice when they are down in the dumps. Guess, I'm a good advice giver and should take some of my own. HUH????? Just trying to keep my head up and make it through another day. Never let others know how bad things really are for me. I keep telling myself, there are so many other ppl in the world with problems worse than mine. Hope everyone has a good day, and hope to talk to you guys this evening. I'm glad this topic was posted. I'm going to write to Mike and Van and see if we can get it permanent. It would be nice. Bye
Barb

Hey Barb....sorry you are feeling depressed. Maybe it is because Christmas is coming up. People who's life are not going great get a heightened emotional feeling during the holidays. You just have to realize this and work on not letting it get to you. Keeping busy is a great way to help during this time of year. Good luck to you and keep posting!!

Hey Marie...you said it, when it rains it pours. Sounds like you are having a real tough time. I am sorry and I will say prayers for your daughter. Good luck with the house and the appraisal.

Hi Ken, thanks for your support. Christmas is part of it, but, there is other stuff tooo. I am really trying to stay busy and get my mind off of things. I just wish I had all the answers. Why is it that good ppl have to go through so many bad things???? I am not an over religous person, but i do beleive in God. I beleive he has a plan for all of us. I keep asking myself, " Is this what God has planned for me", to live the way I do and keep struggling????????????????? I guess there is a good reason for it. Things happen for a reason right??????????????? Well, I could just go on and on, but, I'm at work, and have to get some things done. Thanks for listening. Have a good one.
Barb

wow...thought i was alone on this...havin a real rough time lately...even went n saw a therapist for the first time yesterday..

Hi Barb...I have a strong faith in God also. I gave up trying to deal with alot of past pain in my life and handed it over to Him. That is very difficult to do, but it has helped.

I believe you have to help yourself. I have taken drastic steps to try and improve the quality of my life. It has worked to a degree, but the bipolar depression I live with is unbearable some days.

I just think if you kept busy with things that interested you, that might be a way out of the depressed mode you are in. Think outside the box...maybe sign up for a college course, join a literary group, whatever you are interested in. Getting out of the house helps with depression also.

Good luck and keep posting!!

Hi MariJane...welcome. I hope your session with the therapist helped you. Anytime you want to talk about something, there are alot of good people here that want to help. Justy leave a post here on this thread...usually someone will respond in the same day, but be patient if it takes more time.

If you feel uncomfortable posting here, come here anyway and read the thread.... that might help you also. Take care and good luck!!

Ken

thanks Ken.. i have always been a happy go lucky type person..just feelin alot of emptiness right now..but good to know I'm not alone out there..

Hi, I'am Cindy. I'am new here. I'am clinically depressed. Will be for the rest of my life. I have to take 3 different kinds of meds...It has took me 5 years to get back to where I am now....Around this time of year, I tend to get depressed more...I wish I didn't. I have a 12 year old daughter. I want this to be a wonderfull time for her.

Hi Cindy...welcome. The holidays are tough on people with depression. I think if you focus on your daughter it will be easier depression-wise. If you read some previous posts, others have a condition called SAD...related to seasonal changes and the amount of sunlight you get during the day. Keep posting here if things are rough...take care and nice to meet you.

Ken

Thanks everyone...I read all of the posts after mine. Alot of them helped. I am feeling better today, but the sun was out,so that did help alot.
I stayed out all day, and hopefully I can stay happy for a few days.
Thanks Jeff..I will keep that in mind...
I plan on getting some Broad Spectrum Light Bulbs. That should help alot.

Hi everyone. Wow, Ken, I can't beleive you said something about taking a college course. My oldest daughter is starting college next month and I told her I should go back. I just filled out my admission papers. I'm going back to finish my nursing. I should have done it a long time ago. I thank you for all your inspiration. You are truly a big help to ppl. I think I will nominate you for " THE JUST SAY HI COUNSELOR". Is that ok with you?????????????? Thanks again and God bless you for helping ppl. Have a wonderful night. And yes, keep posting.
Barb

Hey Barb...great news! Glad to hear you are going back to school. You can study psychiatric nursing and come here to help us all out!! just kidding. Thank you for your kind words. I am no expert...just a guy trying to be an ear for people. Thanks to everyone for helping me also. Amber, Marie, Karen and others have been on this thread longer and help alot more than I do. I nominate them as JSH people of the year!!

Take care Barb and good luck with school!!!

anyone know a quick cure for loneliness?

Just come here and you have instant friends!! You are not alone Amber. Everything will be ok. Hang in there...one day your turn will come!!

Got the good news, today. I can have all the overtime I want during the holidays. God, I need a real life.

Welcome MariJane and Wildchic. Feel free to post anytime, as Ken said. Someone is usually around and watching the thread. I tend to do the "night" shift as I work days. Feel free to write us in e-mail if you want to talk privately.

Glad to hear you are going back to school Sweet, cool idea Ken had, psychiatric nursing. There certainly is a shortage of nurses out there.

Amber, sorry you are lonely, I am sure the holiday season isn't helping, makes things worse for everyone I think. Can you volunteer somewhere to help out, food bank or nursing home, to make some friends and feel less lonely?? Just a thought.

Ken - you do a great job, have you thought of going into counseling??

Shenadra - glad you are feeling better. This thread does help, having input and support from the other people is helpful. Broad spectrum lighting is helpful, I know of people who use it. Let us know how it works.


Have you heard Brooks & Dunn's new song??? Is "God Busy" or something like that - wow. Really interesting, only heard part of it, but wow talk about truth. Have a good day tomorrow - hope you all feel better.

Got a tooth extraction planned for Monday. A bit nippy this morning. So far no snow. Got to see to new ones start where I work this morning as I was getting off work. They changed my days off, again to accommodate for the no call-no shows. Got to work on a different wing the other night because we were so shorthanded. I was given a letter like others that I could sell back my sick time and vacation time hours for half price. Some are doing this for Christmas money. I thought about doing it because I am always at work anyways but the time does carry forward. I actually was able to still have a $100 dollars till today which is payday. I am really proud of that because I didn't have to borrow from my mom or any one else. Still glad I got out of the checkbook and credit card schemes and have learned how to operate with cash only. Been keeping my bills paid and no shut off notices for a few months now. I am finding how to communicate better is really helping me since a lot of people I have worked with are like transits and meet new people a lot.

Depression is hard, especially around this time of year when many people are with their loved ones and those who aren't single.

I have been already diagnosed my illness and been on social security disability since 2005. I've been noticing more and more people looking for someone who has a job.

I am wondering if having depression or a disability from depression has made it harder for you to find someone that is understanding and worth dating or it has become easier.

I wouldn't normally put myself out here like this. But upon seeing all the posts. I know I am not the only one in this site like this.