It seems my horrifying (yet otherwise normal life) has had certain aspects of Faith introduced to it. Angels. Several in particular. From the best I can make sense of all this, my identity is tied in with the Bible, specifically, Genesis, Enoch, Jubillee, and Revelations. A smattering of other places i'd imagine as well. Not only am I finding out things about my close friends that no one could ever hope to understand fully, but i'm also figuring out who I am on multiple levels. I'm not sure if my feeble mortal mind can handle it all. I feel I should go to church, but which one?!? If what these angels and channelled books are saying is all adding up with ancient history from millenia ago, which is in turn mirroring my life up to this point, I don't know. I think there is a bit too much to this mess that people refer to as reality for any one person to really understand. Anyone ever feel similar?

Well what it seems to look like from my Point of View, is that I am destined to be the host for the first Angel created, so he can finally spend time here on Earth. Of course, this may involve giving up some of my identity, or not as I may already be him. Apparently, Earth here is the start of heading back down the really big spiral of all possible universes. Each choice made splits off another realm where the opposite choice was made. Being that people have been making many choices for a long time, it's fairly complicated to describe. There aren't really numbers big enough to do so. At the end of this spiral of existence is the Source (God) that created and is all that is and isn't. And this will eventually lead to my murder by one of the other Archangels. That death will bring Samael's soul back to the source, and that will change everything.

or maybe the stress of the divorce and the recession and everything finally snapped something important in my noggin.

I kind of feel that way right now

Well if there is a part of you that is considering that you noggin needs fixin, I would go see someone and talk it over. I would if it were me under the obvious stress your under.

Of course I would never suggest a church that will probably confirm the angels, but you might want to talk to somebody. Good luck, Casualty.

Is this catching?

well who am i supposed to go to when even the church would turn their back or even try to murder me?

yes

breath, meditate, pray

Oh, please. You can not be serious. Most biblical scholars agree that angels are sexless & normally without physical form unless given the right to "appear" physical in our world.

Why would someone in a church want to murder you? More likely they would help you find some much needed therapy. Nice ploy.

I'd answer that one, but fear I may have already said too much.

wonder how much them same scholars actually understood bout that book...

Says in it somewhere, a warning actually... Bout BELEIF in angels being a bad sign

If the roles were reversed, and someone came to me (when i was a priest) and was convinced that Angels known as the Watchers were talking to them, and babbling about bringing about the end of existence, having read Revelations, I'd probably kill them. Or try to. If I were a priest, which I'm not.

Biblical scholars? I find that strange. How can one be a scholar of something they never experienced first hand, and can only go by the bits an pieces of other people's prejudiced individual accounts, that can't even be proved. I can understand being a scholar of a subject we have already proved. But not of one we can never prove.

I seriously would never suggest you go to the church to seek help, considering that the church itself started the whole mess to begin with. I would seek help with a shrink..... I think we could all benefit from a bit of shrinkage now and then.

in the bible only Michael is refered to as an Archangel

Well I could try explaining how I know, but then I would sound even crazier. I'll say this much, it has a lot to do with the Watchers and the Nephilim. Also, reality isn't just one level of reality. I'm thinking it's much closer to an infinite number of realities, all equally valid and real. To anthroposophists, Samael is known as one of the seven archangels: Saint Gregory gives the seven archangels as Anael, Gabriel , Michael, Oriphiel, Raphael, Samael and Zachariel. I also think that given how complicated this is, unless the shrink happens to be a sorceror too, they would not be able to aid me one iota. As a regular shrink would never be able to experience the Spiral of existence in a way that would enable them to see the information that could help me figure this mess out. And in the Bible Jesus jumps from 12 to 30. Not to mention the other missing pieces of it, depending on which version you are talking about.

Bible Breaking a Curse?

Psalm 91,
James4:7
Romans 12:21
Luke 10:18

dood, whatever you're smoking, STOP. Or share. One of the 2...