Yeah, that's right. But not off of here. And all I mean by that is I want to find someone I feel the same about. Unfortunately the two guys who like me, I'm just not attracted to...and there's no connection on my part.

well u cant use what u been through.


what u been through is nothing compared to what most of the world has been through.

Thanks for the kind/thoughtful words Andy...but I'm not messed up! I've been through a lot, and I've learned a lot. You want to see messed up, meet my siblings. I'm actually the normal one. Let's not get into psychology here. Because if you only knew what I've been through...and I'm far from being messed up because of it.

My family fell apart, My father became a Born Again Christian and not one of the nice ones, one of the weird freaky ones, and on top pf that he was the most manipulative bastards I ever knew. I could tell you abuse stories that would make you probably cry but that was in the past. The toughest thing about wisdom is the cost it comes to us sometimes. I agree about leaving out the psychology because my last GF was a MFT. I really got human nature down pretty good. I did really good in that subject in college. One of my friends has two sisters and both are HARD core tweakers. She is the normal on in her family as well. I got another friend who is in his Fear and Loathing stage and his family is dysfunction incarnate.

I am not assuming you are messed up, just off course. I think what has people here so riled up is your presentation of your argument. Trust me. I wish to GOD I still had friends who would go with me to Dockweiler Beach and have a bon fire at night roasting hot dogs in the sand or pick around in the tide pools at Palos Verdes. Everything changes and sometimes the changes work against us. Some of us are likewise in my same boat where our social lives evaporated and now we adapt as best we can. Online is not exactly as exciting as meeting people up front immediately but it is better than going crazy in loneliness.

Nothing is sane, normal is not normal, and people are people, good bad, and otherwise.

And what's with attacking?
Can't you simply add in helpful information or not comment at all?

every ones had some kind of a rough life



I was stood up at the alter on my wedding day,I held my grandma as she died in the hospital,I have been to 15 funerals,my step brother was killed.

I was stabbed 4 times,almost shot.


tons more went wrong in my life





whats your point??

I started out by saying SOME PEOPLE on here. NOT EVERYONE. SO for anyone on this thread to get made at me for stating my opinion, that's their fault. I'm not a mean person, I was just getting my thought out there. For what it's worth, I'm sorry for making you or anyone else mad. I'm a writer. I like writing. And I like good debates. But honestly, I just stated my opinion, not expecting it to really be noticed. I've only posted 180 or so times. And usually when I do, not much is said back. So I didn't expect this time to be any different.