"I walk down this street one last time- searching for a sign- something to keep me from losing my mind. But what am I really looking for? My 'complex self' is hidden. And if approached, you'll find a 'beware' sign outside my unlocked, but invisible door." Ummm...I have to be honest first off and say that I REALLY want to be a stay home mom! Not because I am lazy...but because I am great at being a homemaker, and I'm equally great at teaching children...and I'd just really love to be an amazing wife and mother for someone who is deserving. If that appeals to you, then continue reading. Lol If not...well I don't know what to tell ya. This is a dating site, and I feel I'm allowed to be as picky as I want. :) I have nothing to lose. It seems I can't trust most guys. I've been in and out of relationships for a long time. Right now I just want to find that "special someone" who I can share my life with. Not looking for just another fling. Someone who gets me. Who understands what I've been through, and believes in the person I've become because of it. I can't describe my "perfect guy" because everyone is different in their own way, and chemistry is a funny thing! I have a very big heart, and some would say I care too much...which I suppose will always be my biggest weakness, but also my biggest strength. I will admit that I yze everything, and sometimes I wish I didn't. When nervous I tend to say stupid things...but it's only when I'm really interested in someone. After the first date I tend to be 100% nervous free. That is why I believe in second chances. People often tell me that I live in a fairy tale world. Guess my dreams are just too big, and I'm too stubborn to let anyone crush them. When it comes to relationships, I build up the story in my head...and if something is written out of context, I toss the first draft out the window. If I can't rewrite it, the book is left unfinished. I'm by no means desperate. And when I talk to people, it's very hard to find someone I can connect with. Apparently keeping that person is even harder. I'll continue searching for my "dream come true", and strongly believe that I'll get my happy ending- which in reality will be the beginning of a life long, AMAZING adventure! A little more about me- Music is my pion! I love all types, but lately hard rock has found a semi-permanent home on my radio dial. The two most precious things to me would have to be children and animals! They're both so adorable, and this world would be a very sad place without them! The other day I saw a mother deer with her fawn. SO CUTE! They were both drinking water from a little creek. It was a picture perfect moment- except I was on a busy road with cars behind me. Lol. I'm a big kid. Kids love me because I enjoy playing games, and I'm very patient. But I'm also very mature. I've experienced a lot in life, and have become a lot wiser in the process. I see the best in everyone. That, combined with my tendency to over yze= Trouble. But I'm proud of my big heart...and won't change just because the world doesn't approve. I couldn't live without art. I see everything through the eyes of an artist. This world is a big, beautiful canvas painted with all the colors of the rainbow. I can't help but want to take a picture of it, or draw outlines of all the extroadinary shapes spread out around me. Writing is something I love to do, and have been trying to do more of lately. I plan on writing a few children's books in the near future. I enjoy reading! Especially mystery novels. Michael Connelly and Lee Child are my favorite authors. One thing I know to be true- I'm going to be the best wife and mom EVER! No doubt. I've believed that since I was 5. Lol. People who lack common sense annoy me! I find guys who know how to spell and use proper punctuation/grammar to be VERY attractive! Three words that I very rarely see spelled right- 1. RESTAURANT- not resturant 2. DEFINITELY- not definetly 3. HEY (no joke)- not hay (unless you really are talking about what horses eat...)