hi great guy and welcome, I di the clothes 3 months after randy passed. Had to the grand children wore his suit to his funeral as they are all most all boys and both our son=in=laws wore his suits. I sat up there ...druged to the max and helped them pick out what looked the best.. randy hated suits.... and had enought to suit up 6 gr son and 2 sons that day. but after they left everything out and i had major surgery... and went up when i was allowed to climb stairs and they it was all over... used the better living thru chemistry and called my gal friend and I gave it all to people who where starting jobs and need dress clothes,, his bibles from work went to workers there..his tools at the plant to a first responder who worked on him 40 minutes..
FOr me and only me i felt i had lost him months before... and today I found out he had been driving his jeep last year with expired plates... he forgot to get them.. chemo brain.. he had had 7 years of high dose chemo. epoct+r.. dhap+r. all toxic and the stem cell transplant to be honest it has not been a year for me yet, but he started letting go of us over a year ago. and forcing me to let go. as i move thru the building and sheds and his tools nothing was put away out there however inside the house it was all in order... will I ever forget him no, i was the lucky one I had him. now I have had to decide to live in the past with him or move on to the light of a new day.. So I await a new day..with cancer you lose them in peaces... till there is not much left.

Carol, I'm so sorry for your loss, both of them..I know that had to be tough. I'm doing pretty good now, thanks for asking. I still have a few rough spots here and there and will expect too for awhile yet. But, that's only because there was no closure so to speak..But, I will be fine cause I'm a tough old bird...


Greatguy, I'm so sorry for your loss also. It's hard when they pass, especialy if we didn't get the chance to say goodbye. I've talked with some that was with their spouse when they passed, and people like me who wasn't with them..and any way is hard to go through I believe. But, I know they are watching over us and understand.

Connie how are doing tonight? I just got back home yesterday and so glad to be back home, think that road gets longer each time I travel it.lol

Hi Rose Bless your heart, you've been through the wringer too. But, I'm like you, I'm ready to just move on, and hopefully I will find another Mr. perfect out there, whenever it's time..

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Hello how is everyone doing tonight? Carol

hi all your right it hsrd to let go when they go before good bye... randy dropped dead at his machine at work on midnights and our gr grandaughter 2 birthday.... when they called i asked how bad and they said bad... when i got here they had just called the code as done..
I said good bye a thousand ways since then, and every day it easier to let him go and rest. i have to day the lack of some one to share the days success's and failures with is hard... had to break out he drill press to night for the carport i'm build ing... had to laught as my grandson came down and watch em use it and shake his head. I learned how to from the master..lol we did all that work to gether.. that's hard.. in one way easier in the other.. his thinking was off toward the end, was taking 120 mg of oxycotin a day.. plus break thru meds.. he is sooo much better off where he is... who i buried was not who i married.. cancer killed that step by step and treatment... funny the chemo worked the patient died any way..

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