Dry your eyes little one
I hear this whispered right before my eyes close
Snapping open like a shade pulled too far my eyes now alert
Looking around in the darkened room, seeing nothing but knowing she is there
Snuggling and nestling down deep into the quilt she made for me long ago
A feeling of comfort and security envelopes me as I now drift off to sleep
Much needed sleep, awake far too many days, too much coffee consumed, not enough food eaten, tears continuously shed and tissues that were shred
Her hand upon my cheek, caressing it softly as only an angel can
No more words are spoken there is no need, for I know everything she will say
I have said it to myself over and over again in the last few days
In those moments of clarity before the sadness would overcome
Breathing softly with the occasional wheeze from too many cigarettes smoked
Eyes fluttering open one last time hoping to catch a glimpse but knowing it won't be
Eyes closing as sleep takes over, knowing it won't hurt like this forever

Not gone..just very distant...need to mend & heal..I will survive

I Don't Wanna Be - Gavin DeGraw


*nods* ya'll have a good day time to get to gettin and all that crap

Hurt - Nine Inch Nails

Down By The Water - PJ Harvey

I Don't Care - Apocolyptica

Diet of Lies... have you been peeking into my world again??

Thought I Knew - Weezer


*nods to DTH *

Never Enough - Five Finger Death Punch

Cavatica...Charlottes last name from Charlotte's Web..it suits me

You Make Me Sick - Egypt Central

To whisper those words to me
Hiding behind them, filling my head with lies
My entire world crashing and shattering at my feet
Tired and weary, nothing left to do now but admit defeat
Anger hits hard, first emotion to slam into me
Slipping quickly from anger to devastation, sadness and pain are all I know
Up and down on this whirlwind of emotion anger to sadness
Sadness to anger, plotting my revenge, giving up on revenge knowing it serves no purpose
I will not allow you to break me, I am strong, stronger than you even know or understand
I will survive when the darkness comes as it always does
I will stand once again in the light I will survive

Her voice echoes in everything I do
From advice to jokes, tips and hints
Do this, don't do that, mind your manners
Wash your hands, you will know it when it comes
Live for yourself screw the world, love with your entire being
Hate is a waste of emotion, cry when you must, laugh often
I look down at my hands, they are her hands, small and pudgy yet oh so strong
The crinkles and wrinkles around my my mouth and eyes, they are hers too
My own voice , sounds just like hers now, giving me pause at certain moments when I speak
I stop, look around hoping it is her I will see
Knowing logically that it will not be
Her photos line my walls, my dresser, my memory
Broken and lost with out her once I was
Still shed a tear every now and then when those feelings of grief come
I look in the mirror and it is her I see, super imposed over me
Her voice echoes in everything I do
Caress the keys, gently pluck the strings, dab softly don't smash it all around
Open your heart and mind and let your words flow, fear not your thoughts and feelings, they matter if only to you
Don't stretch yourself to thin because it is then you snap
Always find time for a nap....

Vividly intense!! Perhaps it is time to learn a new variation of the same old language

Frozen solid, nothing could penetrate
Shutting out all that was pure and true
Nothing could get past my cold dead stare
Fingers of ice gripped me ,held me in check
Like watching a deadly car wreck
From the twisted metal and shattered glass I rose
Spreading my wings, flying towards home
Wrapped in ice, naked and alone
I faltered, stumbled and crawled
Unable to attain flight, unable to see past the night
My time had not yet come, heaven was just a lie
Hell was the past, stumbling over stones and broken glass
Burning brightly yet never seeing the light for what it was
I tried to run and hide, chase you away, my feelings of unworthiness built up inside
Acting like I didn't care, trying to control my cold dead stare
You ...you saw past it all, the illusion I had created
Knew the ice was but a falsehood, the frozen state I had been in nothing more than suspended animation
You looked at me, touched me and it all melted away
Clothed me with your cloak of love, warmed my frozen heart
Heaven no longer a lie, hell just the past
No longer stumbling over stones and broken glass
Cold dead stare replaced with warm tender glances of you

Lines drawn on paper, in the sand, across the maps of the land
Lines lines lines.....in every direction they go
Thin ones, bold ones, red ones, blue ones
Lines etched in faces, etched in glass
Standing one by one waiting to be processed....lines lines lines
Written lines, spoken lines...lines..where does it end
Ones beginning, ones ending, in the middle is where they met
Where do they lead, where do they go...lines lines lines
One line led to you another to me, somewhere in between they joined
Now our lines are one and on and on we go...lines

Your lips, full and soft as they gently touch upon mine
Your scent, heady and intoxicating as it fills my nose
Your cheek rubbing against mine, the stubble rough and scratchy
Your arms, wrapped tightly around me holding me as close as you can
Here, my love, here is where I find home, with you, next to you
It matters not where we are, with you ,my love, by my side it is home
Home, where I find safety and comfort within your arms, within your eyes
Home, my love is not always four walls and a roof, my home is within you
You, my love, are my world, my life, I have finally come home

Tossing turning restlessly mumbling
Conversations from the past run through my head
Bits and pieces falling away like broken glass
Lying safe in bed it was all a bad dream
Thoughts form and splinter, Body weary mind so very awake
Listening to his soft breathing , sitting up watching him sleep
Too early to rise, too early for work, too early for intelligent thoughts
Walls long ago built of concrete and steel, now lay at my feet
Smashed apart with his fists,torn away with his love
My breath catches in my throat, heart pounding still
In his world and his world alone I exist, this simple man into my heart he fits
Sliding back down, snuggling close, his hand closes over mine
Bad dreams now erased....

Simplistically beautiful

Moonlight streaming in through the window
Calling to me, beckoning me
The urge fills me once again
As I rise and slip soundlessly from our bed
Pad silently across the room and out the door
Through the kitchen, across the living room floor
Slipping out through the screen door
Gliding across the porch and down the stairs
Quickly over the dew kissed grass, around the corner
Raising my arms over my head, my hips swaying back and forth
I slowly dance into the moonlight once again
Dancing to a tune only heard by my soul
Feet moving in small intricate steps
My long red hair hanging down my back
The gentle breeze moving it to and fro
Night dress swirling fluidly around my ankles
The moonlight washes over my face, caressing my shoulders
Softly dancing across my breasts, flowing over my belly
Moonlight kissing, touching, caressing me
Cleansing my spirit, renewing my energy
Into the moonlight I go as I look up and see you
Silently watching me from the window
A small smile forms upon your lips
As you gently blow me a kiss
Watching and adoring me as I dance the night away
Into the moonlight I go