lol.....i know you'd enjoy that.....

I just ended a friendship with a former good friend of mine....

Called her up to find out who won the race and for no reason, she started screaming and cussin me out. she was messed up on booze, weed, and cocaine....i just can't deal with her crap anymore.

i backslid bad with the emotion regulation.....got a new whole in my wall

Oh, be careful, Amber. I know that kind of thing hurts. Pass some tater tots this way. This makes twice that my son has said, "You know dad; You can come see us." That is like an open invitation. It gives me another reason to get my old van fixed so I can do some do some traveling.

In my opinion she is not even worth calling a friend.. Real friends do not treat one another like that. I would sorround my self with positive people and cut her off. Its not that you are being a bad friend by cutting her off but sometime people can drag you down with them. And why carry that type of negative friendship around. Cut off the negative so called friendship in my opinion.

well dealing with someone with a drug issue isent stupid

i had a ex bf that is a alocholic, and did cocaine
he never did the drug infront of me in fact i didnt even know he was using it. untill one night we were having a party and a old bf of mine that i had known sense i was 16, he came over and he told me the next day over the phone that my bf at the time and his cousin were doing the cocaine in the bathroom. and of course the bf lied for much later down the road we had gone to a state park with his sister and i cought him using it.. that really explain his actions of being paranoid...

That is a hard thing to accept. We just had an inservice on it payday. My son and daughter just left to go back home. My daughter brought her boyfriend. Didn't get to see the grand daughter. Son is still going through the divorce so she is with her mom. I took them all out to dinner at the buffet. Daughter spent a lot of time going through pictures and organizing them in folders. Pictures of my son when they were little. My son spent some time outside with his chainsaw. I lost some pictures because they took some with them. My daughter likes cleaning houses and putting collectibles like pictures and the like into scrap books. She said she would be coming back, again. She told me not to tell my son I gave her twenty dollars to help them get back home. I had my friend, Robin take pictures of us at her house. I took my daughter to where I work and showed the picture of my grand daughter on my locker at work. The time just went too fast because we were enjoying each others' company. She wanted to get my son home soon though so that he could take his epilepsy pills. I miss them already.

Thanks, Amber. At tonight's AA meeting we got to read from our Daily Reflections book and it helped. April 3rd entry's was about dealing with your humanity. I felt good because I didn't stuff the anger like I used to do and just blow up. Yeah, like you said I was able to control it.

Glad that is working out for you, Amber. I lost my temper last night at work. The nurse told me if I ever need help while I am in a room to use the call light to get another aide just like a resident is suppose to do if the resident is in a room and needs an aide. It is considered okay to ask for help this way. So I am in a room at the end of the hall where a resident is in isolation. As you know when you go into a room where a resident is in isolation you have to glove, gown and mask up. It was last wet check so I asked the resident if she needed changing. This resident is a former nurse of the facility when the nursing home was a hospital before it became just a nursing home. So I ask her and she says I have to brush my teeth first. So I am asking her where her tooth brush is and she says she doesn't know. So I ask her where her emesis basin is and she says she doesn't know. She I search and eventually find both. I have told by my charge nurse to orientate this new aide I am in the room with at the time and to show her the ropes and how to chart the asl. So she brushes her teeth and I ask her when she is done if she is ready to be changed and she says I need to be pulled up in the bed first. So we pull her up in the bed and I check her and she needs to be changed. So I am go to get a brief to change her with and guess what there isn't any. I am starting to get really pissed at this point but remembering what my charge nurse told me to do I turn on the call light. Only nobody comes to my rescue and my patience and tolerance is really low by now. So I take off the gloves, gown and mask and go storming out to get a packet of briefs and return to the new oriented aide in training and change the resident. And the new aide asks the resident if she needs anything else and of course she needs a drink of water and for us to turn the room light off. And we ask if there is anything else that she needs and she says she wants her blanket pulled up. So finally we get out of there and I come to the nurses station and I say I am glad I remember to use the fning call light so I could get help and the nurse just leaves laughing. But I get a lot of apologies and I had to apologize myself but I did get my point across.

U go gurl!! Don't u dare feel a bit of guilt about it neither. Even if it turned out to be nuthing, better to be sure than to have the child become yet another static.

I am glad things are going smoother for you, Amber. My daughter has moved a lot closer to where I am. And she wants to see me. That makes me happy. My daughter, son and grand daughter are coming to see me this Saturday. I was telling my mom about it and she wants them to go see her, too. Mom lives three miles away from me. The nurse even slipped a not under our boss's door that I need the day off.

Call the Humane Society. And think, if he's doing that to his dog, what's he doing to his kid?

Just stopping in to send some Love & Light to all.

hey, at least you got the car..... ....got group today....my ride's extremely late