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Sat 01/15/11 05:32 PM
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Last night I was like this grumpy old man at work. And it was so cool. My learning about venting has evolved. It is helping my communication skills with those over me, Those under me and even the residents that I deal with. It is something about honesty that I wasn't even aware of before. It is an actual sharing that I can do with people who are not trying to manipulate me.:smile:
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Fri 01/14/11 11:22 AM

Thank you and you are too amberdee


Well ty, sweetie......just don't feel it half the time anymore. But I can honestly say I look better now than when I joined this site back in 2007. I look ten years younger than I did back then! LOL...rofl

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Thu 01/13/11 10:13 AM

No one knows this in my family but every day I wake I wish I was dead I have tired to kill myself and just don't want live anymore because I get picked on because I am big so I think if I am dead no one will care if I am gone


Honey...you are beautiful!!

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Tue 01/11/11 09:10 PM
if we owe just the one fine/offense for all repeats...800

if we owe for each and every repeat....at well over 15000 i'm screwed pitchfork

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Tue 01/11/11 12:40 PM
Well sweetie, the holidays have been hard for me since I lost custody of Eileen. What really got my dad tore up was that Fay (stepmama) wanted a white Christmas sooooo bad and it started snowing Christmas night. It was mostly gone by the day of Fay's funeral tho, and that was the hardest day I've ever had. When we were leaving the cemetery I nearly fell to my knees I was so distraught. I was in a daze until then, thinking that she wasn't really gone. And when the reality of it hit me, it hit me hard.ohwell

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Mon 01/10/11 10:56 PM
Nice, I love it!rofl rofl rofl rofl rofl rofl

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Mon 01/10/11 10:40 PM
My dad has a few on his truck:

"And on the eighth day, God created the Marines"
"Not as mean, not as lean, but still a Marine"
"US Marines, America's 911"

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Mon 01/10/11 10:36 PM
Ok......who let this thread slide while i was in and out of the psych hopsital last year?????

I know I hit a level of depression during the holiday season...and I came close to attempting suicide again Christmas night. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that my dad and I found that my stepmom passed in her sleep the night I came down to see them for Christmas. It was hard as hell for me to see my dad cry like that. I didn't want to put him through that crap again.

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Sat 01/08/11 09:09 PM

I have learned never to open my heart up again unless it is deserving. So tired of being trampled on and thrown away. I won't allow that to happen and if it means I am a colder more guarded person, so be it.


Yep, yep, I almost reconsidered this though, but yeah, I'm back to this.


Yeah I'm back to that too. Then I'll end right back up to letting people in my bubble and get hurt again....then I'll ask myself why the heck do I even care anymorefrustrated frustrated frustrated

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Fri 09/03/10 01:05 AM
I hope to make this an ongoing thread. Just want to invite those are students whether still in high school or in college and dealing with mental health issues, or even if you know someone going through this to get to know each other.

I'm a student at the Art Institute of Raleigh-Durham (for now), but I'm about to transfer to Wake Technical Community College for the Spring 2011 semester. I have several MH issues myself, rapid cycling bipolar disorder being one of them.

I've found it's very tough to be a student with this stuff. We need a support group guys. C'mon and chat it up!!!!

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Wed 06/30/10 04:56 PM


Don't give up, Ken. I know many people diagnosed with bipolar disorder who are married or in relationships and they are making it work. It is really hard, of course. It is hard for everyone.

I haven't been on much in the past months, just check in now and then. Was thinking about this thread and all of you just the other day.

I hope you are all well.

Stay around Ken and talk to people, don't isolate yourself.
Take care of yourself and hope you all have a great weekend.


Good to see you Marie...I don't know how long I'll be here. Just catching up with old friends for the most part.

It's difficult sometimes to accept the bipolar because it has stripped me of having any kind of life and happiness. But I know I have to keep fighting.

Hope you are well....drinker


well I'll be a monkey's uncle....hey Ken!!!! the bipolar is gettin the better of me too hon. Me and my fiance are fighting all the time and he doesn't get it that dealing with it is soooooo friggin hard. It also sucks when it messes with your concentration and you're trying to take your final exam.....lol

I guess you and I both need our butts whooped for losing touch with this thread and all the wonderful friends we've made on here.tongue2

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Fri 06/25/10 06:39 AM
Oh, the Carolinas make ya pay a deposit too. I had to drop one class, failed another, and made a "D" in yet another class this past quarter. This coming quarter tho, two of my four classes are online. This was a suggestion of my advisor (also head of the Culinary Department) so that I can recover from all of my surgeries. He also "ordered" me NOT to even sign up for a "kitchen class" until at least the fall quarter.

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Sun 06/20/10 07:45 AM
Roy, I've been extremely sick. I had to have two emergency surgeries for kidney stone removal back in May. My fiancee and I (who I met on here) have been going through a lot with a pregnancy loss and my mom being diagnosed with colon cancer, having that cancer removed and now going through recovery.

I started school 2 weeks after I lost the baby, just finished my first quarter. I'm studying Culinary Arts at the Art Institute of Raleigh-Durham (thankfully it's only 30 miles from home....lol).

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Sat 06/19/10 10:59 PM

I sorry to hear about the break up. You seemed so happy before when you were with him. If that was him. I guess we all have to learn our limitations. I think that will make us stronger. It is good to hear you are still trying, Karen.


He was a jacka$$......I know i haven't been on here in forever!!!! I've started school and right around midterms i got real sick....:cry: hope y'all been doin ok!

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Sat 06/19/10 10:52 PM
Hi y'all, I haven't online in a good while. I just had a makeover (chopped off my hair) and changed my info.....need some feedback please!!! Greatly Appreciated.

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Fri 03/19/10 10:02 PM
Thank you all so much. When we can, we're both going to take a pic together and pop it up here. I can't leave this site, I have all you great guys I consider good friends!

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Thu 03/18/10 04:59 PM
Hi y'all,

I just wanted to thank Mingle2!!!!! I found my soulmate on this site. We have been dating seriously for nearly 6 months now, recently became engaged, and may even have a baby on the way already!!!! We started talking on here nearly two years ago!!!!! Thanks again!!!

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Sat 07/25/09 05:27 PM
Haven't been in here for a long time, things are goin good, finally got those rotten teeth OUT......that was nearly 3 weeks ago.....miss you guys a ton

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Sat 06/13/09 12:43 AM
Hey everyone, I need some advice, besides going to the DR. I go see him on the 17th.....


I had a nasty fall a week before Mother's Day, and landed on my hip. Of course I didn't fell any pain right then because I was way too embarassed. Starting just after Mother's Day, the hip pain started. I don't mean typical soreness, I'm talking about crippling pain that has only gotten worse over the weeks. I finally went to the ER two weeks ago, and was told that it's just bruised since the ER Dr couldn't find anything on the x-ray.

I am at my wit's end now. I'm in so much pain that I'm unable to do anything, and my hip gives out when I walk. Anything I can do until I see my regular Dr on the 17th???

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Sat 06/13/09 12:34 AM
um....wow

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