Of course,I am ALWAYS ready! Please proceed!! And Thnxs!

give yourself time,and patience.God knows thats what I have been doing for al my life,and am not through yet!!
If I can do it(somehow),so can you my friend!




FIGHT HARD!

want to email but your age requirements are ages 0 to 0,and apreciate your moral support as well as anyones as well cause this is indeed a bruising battle,but somehow I will either win,or may be on my way to see God if I dont!
Thanks again!

I would welcome your help with all my heart,and I Thankyou!

I invite you to send me a message on my profile site,would love to know more as I am dealing with being without my meds which I cant afford and seems to be bringing all my internal demons to the surface!




Thanks!



Rodster

And how long can one keep battling with internal demons who literally want to take you and your soul away to HELL,and is all you can do to maintain your strength,in the midst of possible doom?
I sometimes wonder if God has an 800 number that maybe I can call to ask if he can call my number early,instead of later,becuase battling what I am currently battling is quite a battle and am afraid of losing eventually?
But,,I am strong,or as strong as I have to be,in order to defeat those demons! Even though I cannot afford my med,that alone will not be the one ting that brings me down! I have maintained before and must continue to maintain as long as I can,and somehow will!
Has anyone else ever gone or is going through this,kinda wish I could find someone who I can relate to,would make this fight alot easier to handle.
Just venting,please forgive?





Thsnkyou for reading,




Rodster

actually 104 and congrats!

HELP,HOW????????

Same back at you sweetie! Thanks!

Thats beautiful Suz! Very good!

Thanks Buddy!

Memories are what YOU make of them,they can either be painful,or cherishable.Some memories one has no control over,but other memories are quite controllable,all depends on ones point of view or mood at the time of the memory.
My deepest,most cherishable memory is 2 sided.One side is a warm and fuzzy feeling,deep tenderness,deep intimacy,and most precious of all,and will always remember that part of it,but also must remember the other side of the coin,the ending of a memory,as painful as it may be,one has to be strong and be able to cope with it as well.
There are good times and bad times and we all must be able to balance each side equally,or the whole memory as a whole means literally nothing and can end up being a waste of time and effort.
This is a very hard lesson to learn,but is learnable if one is strong enough and willing to set aside good,from bad,and choose which he or she chooses to give more power to.
I hope I have made some sense out of a confusing situation!





Thanks for reading,



Rodster

Thankyou for your opinion,very much appreciated!

I appreciate your insight and opinons,Thankyou!

As we grow,we all create memories,some of them are quickly forgotten,such as being a part of a crime,killing sprees,rapes,and murdering of others,while the most precious of memories have to be when 2 people form a precious union,and join as one in the act of matrimony. And those are the most precous memories of all,next to creating a new life,which becomes a miniclone of ourselves.
But as one gets very old,we tend to grab onto memories so hard and so strong becuase we become very fearful of what lies ahead for us as we know our time here is now growing short,and finally ALL those past memories finally consume the rest of our entities and probably the last and fina memory is of what is most precious to us,whether it be a Mother,Father,or loved one,before we close our eyes for all eternity.
The answer to the first question is obvious,Why do memories eat away at us? Becuase memories are a big part of what makes us alive,living,and finally dieing.
My memory that is eating away at me is my shame at being such an A-Hole and realizing my actions have taken away a once precious Love in which I will never have again,and it breaks my heart and causes me much pain,and that pain is,indeed killing me slowly,as if I were actually crucified as Jesus once was! And I am deeply sorry for having caused so much heartache for the one that was so precious to me!




Thankyou for reading this,




Rodster

Thankyou my friend! Is nice to know there are people out there who can offer assistance when needed!

Need some assistance if someone could be so kind as to offer some?
I have an Acer Aspire 3610 and want to be able to turn the internal fan on and have it running all the time,anyone know how to accomplish this task?




Thanks for your assistance,
much appreciated!

Very true and I would do the same,but I would have the decency to let them know in no uncertain terms that they pissed me off,or f(ed) me over,and no more communications would be done.At least have the decency to answer their writings!

Thankyou! Have a good night my friend!

and honest,caring and completely caring and sympathetic about anothers troubles that one may be going through.
Peoples lives in general they are too involved within themselves and sometimes cant see the forst for the trees! But once you find an exception to the rule,then cherish that person,or persons as I have done!
I despise ones who lead you to believe they are very much nterested then once you have spilled your guts about your past history,rather than be courteous,honest and verbally say,I am no longer interested,but Thankyou,most people find it easier just to be silent,and I dont know about you all,but SILENCE is the one emoton that rips me apart in more ways than one. I would rather be told via a message,rather than to experience the silent treatment.
Complete honesty in ALL respects,is always the best way to go,even if it hurts the other party.Shows respect for others,which very few of us possess.






Thankyou for reading,



Rodster