Thankyou for your response! Have a good day,Ok?

If only one could understand
the emptiness and blankness
that I posess within my heart
which could be rectified
by a willing touch,carass,or kiss.

If only one could picture
a lost and lonely man,
as life has been an overwheming challenge
to which I have tried to cope
and roll over this heavy load
before its contents completely roll over me
crushing my framework,my conciousness,
and my soul,but of course my soul will quickly depart this cobwebbed house of doom,before doom could destroy it.

If only one could understand the role that fate plays in ones life,whether it be for good,bad,or indifferent?

If only I had known what I know now,I would of asked to stay within those sheltered walls of creativity,to redo my creation only at the precise time that I would know that fate would be kinder to me,or at least tolerable,but unfortunately no one can ever know that,for fate is either for you,or against you and all depends on how the dice falls either heads,or tails at the moment of conception.

If only I could understand my inner thoughts and knew whether I was totally off base with those thoughts,or whether I had some sort of insight into what reality is truly all about?

If only,my friends,if ONLY,I were cherished not only by myself,but deeply by another,how precisely happy and overjoyed,I truly,would be!!


If ONLY,,God knew??? I hope so VERY much,that there is such a thing as a second chance,for I would try so VERY much to hope events would evolve to producing a cherished offspring,who would not only carry on my name,but in this process,I would be united with a precious woman,of whom I could,and would deeply care for,for all time!




Thank you so much for Reading,




Rod

Thanks for your time and reply! Much appreciated,have a good day!

will try that,Thanks for the reply!

Thanks for your suggestion! Have a good one!

Yahoo Messenger and how to get to see both sides of a conversation on the screen? Is there something one needs to do in order to see the words?
Dont know if anyone else has had this problem or not,but just need a suggestion.


Thankyou for reading

Thanks,hope you have a good day and dont overdue,but do what you can and Take it easy!

My tiny bundle of Love
with a grin so bubbly,
and little tiny fingers
so warm and so cuddly.

My little bundle of joy
scampering to my side,
with laughter within
and a sparkling grin
arms outstretched
saying catch me please
before I fall
and skin my tiny knees!

Tears well suddenly
cannot hold back my joy,
as she jumps into my arms
and drops her prized toy.

This is Daddies little Girl
Love her while I can,
becuase before I know it
she'll be married to a man.

They stay young for a short time
and time flows so fast,
moments like these
can never ever last.

We walked through the meadow,
birds chirping overhead,
but we were concentrating
on each other instead.

Even though we heard the sound
of a nearby babbling creek,
we were preoccupied
by carassing each others cheek.

We smiled at each others wonder
as tears filled our eyes,
and all our most tenderest moments
never took us by surprise.

We cherished each other deeply
we were nothing without the other,
when death took one of us
was like losing a cherished brother.

No one can ever understand
how deeply we felt as one,
and put each other on pedestals
as each day became done!
Dedicated to my unknown,significent other,
whomever that may be)

Thankyou for your precious comment,Have a great day!

Thankyou sweets. Maybe as times get harder,words get more meaningful from deeper within myself! Does tend to bring out the best in all of us!
Hope you have a good day and is nice to chat with you again!

Many Thanks for your response!

Pick up the pieces
and put them away,
keep them safe
to look at some day.

Recall your pain
for thats how you learn,
so you'll know better next time
and wont get so burned.

By God you must do this
not for anyones sake,but yours,
even though it seems
to be one of many difficult chores.

And you know that God is watching
from his kingdom in the sky,
he will have all your answers
when you start to wonder why!

Dedicated to my heart( R.F.Cutler)

Hey Mrs Indian,how are you?

Go ahead.

Bits and Pieces
fragments of you,
memories are fading
I know not what to do!!

Like petals from the roses
dropping one by one to die,
I seem to forget your beauty
it makes me want to cry!

Its been said Life keeps going
i must keep struggling on,
for when I meet another
will know where I belong.

Bits and Pieces
the buildingblocks of life,
when God knows I'm ready
thats the day I'll take a wife.

Bits and Pieces
take it one step at a time,
no matter how far down you get
some happiness you'll find.

Now if you dont believe me
open your eyes and look around,
and capture all the wonders
of each and every sound.

Every heart may heal
from lifes devastating blows,
when will things get better
only God really knows.

Bits and Pieces
thats how life evolved,
if you put some faith in yourself
every problem can be solved.

Thankyou for reading,


Rod

She's my baby! ALmost human in alot of ways too! Thanks for the comment!

Thankyou for yor suggestion! Have been through the Oregon Prescription Assistance Program,but now I work and make to much money to qualify,but appreciate your moral support!

For there is an answer somewhere,and as hard as this battle is,I cannot give up,I must continue for becoming trimphful over demons is possible,with enough fighting and scars,so I shall continue the fight,until I am called home!

And I will be triumphant,somehow!



Rod

No more fighting,no more battles,no more love,no more breathing,or seeing Mother nature in all her beauty and splendor,with precious butterflies fluttering about,and bees buzzing zipping and zapping in and out of flower stamins!

God,I am truly ready,I am ready for judgement,and I am truly ready for your swift hand of punishment,for I am not deserving of either lieninecy,nor Love.

I have little worthiness except for 3 kitties of whom I adore with all my heart,but as for a woman human being,this is no longer in your plans for me,I realize this and therefore I ask that you Take me to your judgement chambers,where I will recieve my penalty,willingly!

I know you will take care of my kitties,and even though I know they will miss me,and I them,I shouldnt of had them in the first place.

But my heart,being as soft and tender as it is,did appreciate that little taste of love,which I will remember for all eternity!

This is not a suicide note,but just a wish for all this to be over,as soon as humanly possible!




Thankyou for reading,



Rodster


PS.This is just being without a medication talking,and my mind at work,as I am searching for an answer,somewhere,somehow,and dont have one as of yet.