Could be worse
could be a curse,
maybe a dream
mysterious at best
a possible ,lingering
am put to the test.

Could be worse
as it always can be,
so I should be Thankful
for what little I have it seems?

Could be worse
and of course it can be better,
but I know I must continue
to go out there and getter!
Dedicated to my relentless search
for my one and only Angel,whomever she may be)

you go to their site,scroll down to testimonial,and click on it!
Should be that simple,hope that answered your question.

NO reason to be a smarty pants,is there? She was just asking a simple question.

Yes,I did.I had to change my email address becuase I was getting emails supposedly from Nigeria saying I had some money left by someone and blah blah.
Got tired of it.

WISHFUL THINKING ON YOUR PART!

normally that wouldnt be a bad idea,but at my age and only having had 2 in my whole life,makes it hard to just give up trying.
I do see your point about it dropping in your lap,and I know there are no guarantees in life either,but becuase having once felt the true and deep emotion of loving unconditionally(on my part) and the giving on her part,and having lost all that after 11 yrs,makes it hard to stop craving and stop looking but I do apreciate very much your input,and I Thankyou very much for it too!

Thankyou for your reply,and Yes it is deeply painful,some of us can cope,some of us can be patient,and still others are not strong enough,nor have the will to endure.
Love for alot of us,me especialy is too important an emotion to give up the ship,becuase somewhere out there,there is a deep,tender,sensitive,longlasting LOVE in which I must stay dtrong,or die in trying!

My heart is slwoly choking on Pain,the pain of desertion,by fate,a desertion of chance,for true romance.Dont think I can wait too much longer,the searing pain is becoming unbearable.While those of you go along your merry way,enjoying your betterhalf,and frolicking in your sometimes dirty subject matter,this lonely man cries out for LOVE and has none(as quoted by Queens Bohemian Raphsody)
Although I am known as a survivor,I wonder,some survivors live out their lives without ever succeeding in finding any tender Loving of any consequence,while still others take LOVE for granted,divorcing and or playing around with others and it so amazes me how we can take a deep seeded LOVE for granted and think we can get it anywhere? Some dont mind sinning,but this is not realy winning either,as God knows all,but fortunately doesnt tell all neither!
But still I keep trying,searching,coping,thinking this man must be a dunce,but even dunces get loved once throughout their lives,,dont they?




Thanks for reading,



Rodster

dont like sitcoms like that,too phony.But as long as you like it,to eachtheir own I guess,eh?

Same to you sweets!

Thanks! Keep praying with me if you would,maybe the strength of enough close friends may do the trick?
Anyway sweetie,have a wonderful one,Ok?

Come out Come out
whereever you are,
I know youre near
and I know youre far.

Will you come by car
or will you come by chance,
I do know you will make
my heart start to dance.

It is now dormant
and full of dust,
I know I must birng it out
and clean it if I must.

But if I knew
when you would show,
then I could polish it
for you only,you know!!

Then my heart would be shown
the true meaning of Love,
could be bathed in tears of joy
or could be baked in tremendous heat
either way I know
my one and only I will meet,
SOMEDAY SOON,I ASSUME!

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thankyou Peccy! Have a good one!

I need a brain replacement part
it is called a Motherboard,
where all my twisted memories
are tangled up and stored.

My brain was created
when computers were once DOS,
but now it is shortcircuiting
and gathering lots of moss.

Maybe it needs to be vaccummed out
to get rid of all its goo,
guess I may just give that a try
dont know what else to do?

I was becuase I wanted to
join forces with you,
and support your battles
to help to do it too.

I was becuase I care
about what happens in life,
and know I can never ever
take you as my wife.

I did,amid the glory
of the neverending story,
of life's many challenges
which can leave one feeling sorry.

I was becuase you are dear to me
that I said goodbye so tender,
I held your hand,and cried onto your heart
knew your soul you did surrender.
" Dedicated to the one I love"

Same to you my dear friend! Am deeply honored to know you!
Have a great nights sleep,and talk tomorrow I hope!




Fondly



Rod

Is easy to truly tell when someone turns out to be a true blue friend!
They are someone who talks to you first,and is concerned about your welfare,by providing a nourishing voice behind their concerns,by furishing services that may help you out,by truly listening,not only with their ears,but with their heart as well!
They are someone who tearfully calls you out of concern for you,and you actually hear their sobs and feels their tears over you.
THAT,my friend,IS a TRUE,BLUE FRIEND,worht their weight in gold!




Thankyou for reading,



Rodster

Yes,15 yrs old is way too early to be really dating,wait until they reach maturity first.Theres so much of life to be exerienced,why waste it by starting that early?