If only one could understand
the emptiness and blankness
that I posess within my heart
which could be rectified
by a willing touch,carass,or kiss.

If only one could picture
a lost and lonely man,
as life has been an overwheming challenge
to which I have tried to cope
and roll over this heavy load
before its contents completely roll over me
crushing my framework,my conciousness,
and my soul,but of course my soul will quickly depart this cobwebbed house of doom,before doom could destroy it.

If only one could understand the role that fate plays in ones life,whether it be for good,bad,or indifferent?

If only I had known what I know now,I would of asked to stay within those sheltered walls of creativity,to redo my creation only at the precise time that I would know that fate would be kinder to me,or at least tolerable,but unfortunately no one can ever know that,for fate is either for you,or against you and all depends on how the dice falls either heads,or tails at the moment of conception.

If only I could understand my inner thoughts and knew whether I was totally off base with those thoughts,or whether I had some sort of insight into what reality is truly all about?

If only,my friends,if ONLY,I were cherished not only by myself,but deeply by another,how precisely happy and overjoyed,I truly,would be!!


If ONLY,,God knew??? I hope so VERY much,that there is such a thing as a second chance,for I would try so VERY much to hope events would evolve to producing a cherished offspring,who would not only carry on my name,but in this process,I would be united with a precious woman,of whom I could,and would deeply care for,for all time!




Thank you so much for Reading,




Rod

very nice

Thankyou for your response! Have a good day,Ok?

often ponder if I knew then what I know now,, Would I have
done anything different,,, I've come to the understanding
I may not have gone where I intended to go,, Yet I am where
I need to be,, I live by this daily,, and within all life's miss-Happss I have come to Love the me in me,, and strive always in improving the Life in me,,

One must be happy inside to share happiness with others
Healing takes time,, Its part of a lifetime of learning, listening and just enjoying the surroundings

I wish you beautiful surroundings as your journey continues

Much appreciated and your comforting words do alot to elp me feel at ease from within!
Thanks again!