From Dorksville, really?
hahaha good thread for you.

I have been in your shoes. He didn't cheat that I know of but he gambled. He was verbally abusive but not physically although there were times I did fear that might happen. I know now that I should have ended it long before I did. For years we lived in the same house but separate lives. I concentrated on raising my boys. It has been 2 years since we separated and 8 months that we have been divorced. It took awhile until I was able to realize that his behavior was his problem and not mine. Although my friends felt I should jump back into the dating pool, I knew myself well enough to know that I was not ready. I had spent so much time taking care of my family that I didn't even remember who I once was. I am getting to know the real me again.

Everyone is different. You know what you need better than anyone else. Put the past behind you and be happy that you are free to make new choices for yourself. Get over the bitterness. Instead look at him as the fool who threw away the gift of your love. He may never know what a fool he was but you do and that is all that you need to move forward. He didn't deserve your heart. I hope in time that you find someone who appreciates you and cherishes you. In the meantime enjoy getting to know yourself again. I did and I found that I really do like the person I am. Good Luck in your new life

i recently left my husband, im not going back. im sure i will hear that 1001 times, "please stay away, dont go back", that isnt even an issue here. ive been thru complete hell with this man, there is no going back. ive endured the mental and verbal abuse for a few months now, not to mention the repeated cheating... i just cant do it anymore. he is a classic sociopath, me being a psychology major should have been the first one to see this coming. im not perfect by any means, but i was a good, faithful and loyal wife. i tolerated things that not many if any woman would. i even took in and cared for his ex wife who was ill. im so bitter right now ad i know that i have to get over this anger and bitterness, if i dont then he still controls me thru my emotions. i dont lvoe easy but i love hard... i gave my whole heart and soul, i think once you give a person that, a part of you never returns when its over. its not that i fell outta love... i grew tired. he isnt the man i met and married. idk... im just rambling i reckon....

thinking what no goat tee lol

thinking a shave where i see no beard in that picture lol

The baby emerging from her mother. The doctor suctioning her lungs. Her first cry, makes her skin turn from purple to pink. The doctor clamps the umbilical cord, and hands me the scissors. I cut the cord freeing my grand daughter from her mother. A precious new life.

wow...well done...sounds like you have been replaying that scene in your minds eye...for a long time.

Have you ever used a computer?

One minute it is overcast the next the wind had whipped round and bedraggled my hair, adding to that a circular wall of water and of course the sound of 100 overladen trains coming at you, or so you think. To make matters worse I have an appointment, so almost crawling to the car,I make it, get in and drive down my long dusty driveway and see trees strewn all over the highway and debris from barns and houses all over the paddocks that I realise ****, tornado..

Sounds painful. Get well soon.