i love it and hate it...if that makes sense...it gives me this ugh feeling in the pit of my stomache..breathless, sick, tears flowing....i cant imagine

aww thanks..so are you

be honest and suggestions on improvements are welcome


thanks

thanks 2kidsmom

...thanks everyone for the comments...sometimes this is the only way to get it out...ya know?

She remains
Lingers within the air that surrounds
Bodies left hungry for each breath
In which she is consumed

She remains in endless corners
Of remorseful hearts
Left frozen in the memory
Of her once heated stare

Her words echo through pale minds
That denied the colors of their truth

She remains
In intangible places
As scars upon stubborn souls

The only beauty they had ever known

An aroma once filled the rooms
In which they need now dream to inhale

She remains in only memories
She cannot sleep to avoid

Love not in vain
She does remain
In memories
Even if they are hers alone

pt-1

He closed the door behind him
Changed my life forever

Broken hearted

The current
Love of my life
Recently gone

College

Bar hopping


He was gorgeous
He pointed at me
Everyone was jealous

No


Not interested
Too depressed
Too in love

He persisted
Then
I remembered
Good guy
Met him
Years back

Then a student
Now an alumni



He was 25
I'd be 20 soon
Birthday dinner

Excited and
Happy
In a time of desperate pain



He was so confident
Cocky really
I wasn't

He ordered shots

Too nervous to say no
Too drunk to walk
We walked

Outside his home
Ready to go

No

Must put the food inside
Really fast
Then I'll take you home

Inside
He kissed me
I tensed up
Ready to go


No


Car keys upstairs
Really fast
Then I'll take you home

He walked in his room after me


Closed the door behind him
Changed my life forever

No

pt-2

After he closed the door...

The door shut
Turned to protest
To speak
His tongue
Disallowed that
Hands pressed me
Onto his bed
I fought

He was strong
I was little
Insignificant
Begging
Pleading
Reasoning
Until I saw
His face
Emotionless
Eyes blank
A robot
I gave up
Helpless
Hopeless
Knowing
I'd already lost


Next
I stared
All night
At the wall
It was black
Until the sun's light
Shown it's true color
Blue


He slept
Peacefully

I didn't
Dare to

Move
Too

Scared
Guilty
Empty
Soulless
Dirty
Stupid


Finally
He awoke
Smiling
He drove me home


Once inside

I hid
My face

Shame
Tears
Fear
Under blankets
My Innocence gone
Strength dissolved
Confidence ruined
Smile forever faded

I saw him

Senior year
He approached me



"Hello beautiful. Do you remember when we went out? We had fun, didn't we?"


I stared
Scared
Finally
I replied

"It was a long time ago"



His ego kicked
He turned away from me
Stared at the wall
As I had done
So many nights prior


"Yeah, it was a long time ago. I sure hope you've learned some skills since then"



I never really
Came out
From under the blankets
I still hide
Ache
A wall
In every
Relationship
A pain
In every
Love

Fear
Suffocates me
Every day



He closed the door behind him
Changed my life forever

pretty good...

1. How old are you? 28


2. How many children do you have? 1


3. What do you think of me? i dont know you well enough ...


4. What do you think of your last partner? good guy--not for me


5. Are you a liar? no

david beckam

very good!

Yours to create...

Offer statement of mission
Personal teller position
Provide now transcription
Of assumed job description

To give and receive spills
Liquid, though not in bills...

Sequence of buttons pressed
Define desired request
Provide pin by desire
Wish and you shall acquire

No interest dismissed
It is why I exist...

Key code now entered
Mid-body, face centered
My tongue now your mentor
Instructed by motion
I seek out your potion
Funds received in the juices
That my mouth produces

Routine to esteem
Must be a machine...

Deposits been made
Next stage, now prepaid
Positions now switched
Your turn to enrich
Withdrawal buttons pressed
Laid out, you molest
Insert your card
Long, thick and hard

Keep pressing my button
Without, she don't function...

Slow, fast, pace now steady
Sweet, rough and then ready
To disperse a portion
Of your saved up fortune


Wages spent in salary
With a lifetime guarantee...

Continued education planned
Lessons to be learned first hand
Degree sought from your college
Just provide me with knowledge

Teach me how and I'll be
Your complete fantasy...

wonderful..like you

you were right 4 emails all wondering what happened...i said nothing he was just writing..they said oh ok we were worried..lol

Maleah's Cheese ball

2 8oz. package(s) cream cheese (soften)


1 pkg of Esskay dried chipped beef (cut into thin, small strips)


1 bunch of scallions (cut the green parts into small pieces)

Combine all ingredients until mixed together, then round the mixture with your hands until you form a ball. Place the "ball" on a platter & chill until you are ready to use. You can serve it will any type of crackers. I use Triscuts, Wheat thins, Ritz, etc.. Serve on a nice platter with the white part of the scallions left whole (like a stick) for garnish.

I promise this cheese ball will not be something left over at the end of the day!

beautiful..like you

thanks

at work today on a guys shirt who came an applied for a job


good guys finish last...because they make sure their women come first

i was like hmm..nice shirt

Generic was your carefree stare

The noble morals that we shared

The way you touched me in the night
But just in dreams, out of your sight


Generic was the smell that stayed

Upon a heart that was betrayed

Believing a truth left unknown
A realness that was never shown




Generic was your too tight hold

As if I just fit in a mold

That was determined by the width
Of every woman you laid with


Generic was the way I felt

Each time within my soul you dwelt

Each time you pushed my kisses off
With words as cold as was your scoff





I've dreamed too long of just a dream

That never became what it seemed

Generic is this endless tear
That sheds for what was never here

maleah here