Have you ever done something so out of character because someone hurt you so badly? I did something so unforgivable so unlike me because someone l loved played with my for so long and it's something I can never fix or make amends for. I feel like my soul is literally ripping in two. I know that sounds so dramatic but this person let me down and hurt me so much that I just snapped. Still im responsible for my own actions and even though he hurt me and I totally feel played with I kept allowing it to happen. So in the end isn't it my fault?! This will haunt me for a very long time. Pain and love are powerful emotions, I just wish I didn't let my simmer become a boil and there is nothing I can do. In the end no matter the cruel or hurtful things done I am responsible for me. 🥺

So, what did you do, what happened and what is the reason for your post? Just to see whether others have done unreasonable things?

We all have a breaking point, your's was breached by the actions of another. It matters not what you did, as you had valid reasons for such actions. You have a conscience and that is why you feel the way you do.

Whatever it was that you did is now in the past, do not let it be your judge. How you carry yourself forward is what matters most. Your character will speak for you more that you realize.

Flatline ... thank you so much for your response. This was hard to post and to realize that even though someone hurt me, pull me in push me away, I do have to take some responsibility in allowing that to happen. I'm just hurting because I did something so out of character for me and it bothers me so much that I just kinda snapped. I didn't physically hurt him but I did post something very personal about his life even though it was public record. In the end I have finally come to the conclusion that I need to let him go and I have. It's time to move forward and find someone who loves and cares about me for me.
European import... I was just feeling guilty for posting something personal but public info about him. It's a very long story and honestly I was just sharing my pain of hurting someone no matter how awful and hurtful they've been to me. And asking if others have felt that same feeling of guilt and shame hurting someone. But talking to a few friends lately and explaining the whole situation, no one is commending me for what I did just understanding why I did it and to stop beating myself up. He certainly wasn't an innocent party in any of what happened. Moving forward time and it feels great!!

Time heals lots of things.
But only if you are being stronger an making yourself ready for getting out of it.
Until pain no gain.
Every aspect of life is having different characters.. depends what role you are performing in your life from the outcome or still carrying it back rewinding ahead..

Just can say you.
Come out of it as soon as possible and think of the people who really cares for You...

Everyone's life has/is gone with some kind of pain.

All The Best
Cheer Up
Tc.

If its personal it is not public.
If it is public it is not personal.

Retailiation is rooted in revenge.
Revenge is seldomly equal.
The vengeful heart often has problems finding contentment.
There are many people living with a vengeful heart.

While many people have the capacity for revenge, most have a greater capacity for forgiveness.

Few seeking romance-vengeance realize their own part in the offending conditions.

It is important to make wise choices when choosing that potential lover. Too often the signs of their nature is evident from the start but we choose to pay them no heed, instead favoring the specific qualities we think we want.

If you cuddle up to a tiger because it looks warm and fuzzy, it should be no surprise when it claws and bites you. The tiger does what the tiger does, why seek revenge on the tiger for being a tiger.
You're failure to make a wise choice is not the tiger's fault.

Forgiveness doesn't condone their offensive words or actions. It doesn't mean you want that type of person in your life anymore. It merely acknowledges your own capacity to realize you made a poor decision when selecting them to be in your life.
The next step is to gain wisdom from your experiences so your future choices better align with your needs. You forgive yourself and move on to better choices.

Too many times people seek the romantic fantasy in a partner and find misery when the reality of life gets in the way.

"Seeing" the person as they truly are means paying attention to all the details, not just the ones which fall within the fantasy.