words on a space taking up space where better words should be.

Pride

Nickolas
I will always love you and always be there for you.

He entered my life at six months old
with no one to be his father.
As occurs all too much in this world,
someone just didn't bother.

My love for his mother,
grew and grew.
Something else happened,
I fell in love with him too.

Nine years went by too fast

Remembering-
The times I ran when he fell.
Listening to the stories he`d tell.
Watching the world through his eyes.
Hurting every time he cries.

He is a wonderful child,
with a brilliant mind.
Compassionate,
funny,
exceedingly kind.

It cannot be measured all I learned from him.

I was supposed to be the teacher.

Nine years went by too fast.


For his birthday this year,
he asked.

Could we be a family again?
Now, that's heart wrenching stuff,
from a child of ten.

Last night I cried,
when we ended our call.
No, it wasn't for the,
I love you.
You will see.
The tears were a mixture,
of pride and sad.
For the word he chose,
to call me was...

Dad

kc07
Fear
Her eyes,
held me captive,
for years.

They reflected to me,
images of unborn lives.
and showed me,
myself,
As a whole.

I shall never look into
another`s,
the same.

For fear they will show me,
as I am...

kc07
A thought
I drift from conversation to conversation,
always alone,
always an outsider.

I drift and drift until, I become an observer,
watching the crowd of souls before me.
Some hiding from their past, some searching for their future.
My vision is blurred.
A salty droplet finds it`s way to the corner of my mouth.
And I think of you.

I see a couple walking through the crowd.
A baby in her stroller eyes wide open, entranced by the new surroundings.
No worries, no hatred, no fears.
The innocence.
I smile and I think of you.

There is an old woman having trouble loading her bags in the trunk of her car.
She is frail but not helpless, she is proud but week.
I impose on her, my help.
She reluctantly accepts but, gratefully gives thanks.
I walk away and I think of you.

When I am busy,
I think of you.
If ever I have a free moment, it is paid to you.
When I feel lost,
I find myself when I think of you.
At the end of the day,
as the sun completes it`s journey.
The leaves dance on a breeze,
a childs laughter is carried across the amber sky.
As the moon takes it`s turn in the heavens and gently distributes it`s warm soft glow.
I think of you.

kc07

Imaginary Memories
Though, I`ve known your
touch and your taste.
I always look at you with
the eyes of a stranger.
Captured by your beauty and
desperate to discover you....
Again
Last night I stayed awake for hours
caressing the small of your back.
In the event my mind
should ever slip
my fingertips have
memorized all the contours
of your splendor
So soft
So beautiful
As I stir this morning
I realize I imagined the
entire night.
Where are you.
I`m waiting.
I`m ready.

kc07

Madness
Pieces of my broken dreams tumble to the beaten path
quietly,hauntingly,hopelessly love slips through an open door,
as if un- touched by the very lives it once held together.
Darkness fills my once bright eyes.
Now, destiny crams herself down my throat.
Only the bitter taste of sorrow survives where there is no light.
Something inside me cries,
what's left of me slowly dies.
Shattered lives fall softly back to their wombs,
and death comes swiftly to those who can not fight.
Great walls construct themselves around a now occupied one person shell,
where I awake,
alone.
At night, the voices and laughter of my fate keep me awake.
I wonder, as I grow weary, how can a heart in pieces,
still beat.
Loneliness eats my will,
misery accompanies me in your stead.
Still I wonder,
In a world full of people, does anyone else know,
we are all just one mistake, one break-up, one death away,
from,
madness

kc07


The ARCHITECT
I would have loved you...
forever.

My heart is big enough.
Though,
my hands too small to grasp,
all I wanted to give you.

Love.
Life,
and all that means.

I would have loved you forever.

I placed you on a love carved pedestal.
And offered my hand,
that you not fall.

I`m left holding the broken clasp of,
a once strong chain forged,
of good intentions.

Not for lack of effort,
do I satisfy this destiny.
Rather,
lack of success.

For I, am the architect of
failure.
And I have completed
my greatest work..

Still,
I would have loved you...
forever

kc07

Infinite
My infinite sadness is interrupted
only by,
visits from my memories of you.
Through times passages, my mind,
slips.
I open the curtains,
there is nothing to view.

kc07

Grey
With Autumn descending
on the tail of Summer
The north wind
chases the color
from October
the cold world
is forth coming
a life lesson
delivered by
nature
no matter how green
the pasture
life is not
lived only in
Spring
Winter always
returns and
grey will dominate

kc07

The Cracked Vase
The sunlight that once fed my leaves,
in a twist of fate - dehydrates me.
Love is wilting and I`m dying
by degrees.

The drops we cry,
provide the rain.
To a vase that knows it cant sustain.
There's nothing left, save for,
the desert of loves - remains.

Your cracked vase lets the water by,
my roots can`t drink.
And soon will die.
Another love turned to dust.
Another vase consumed by rust.

The crimson light escapes from me,
dripping, falling endlessly.
To a bottom that it never finds,
leaving nothing,
not even a seed behind.

Your cracked vase lets the water by,
my roots can`t drink and soon will die.
Holding on to loves sweet song,
once again to sing alone.

kc07

Neighbors Never Know
The cold steel against my skin,
congers images of pain
or,
is it relief ?

I can not tell the difference,
anymore.

Her silent voice taunts me to push.
Not worth it,
my heart cries out.
Is it worse to die for the wrong reason or,
live for no reason ?
ether way,

alone,

it`s not worth it.

I rest that cold killer,
on the night stand.
Exiting the room
an empty hall,
inside an empty house,
teases my empty heart.

Kicking down the door,
I rush in,
I reach.
I would have stopped there,
but...

From the detectives notebook:

We interviewed the surrounding neighbors the following are some of their comments
" he seemed so normal " " he was a nice guy. what happened? " " he kept up his yard didn't`t get involved with other peoples business " " he looked ok to us, he always waved, he stayed to himself " " what would make someone do such a thing? "...

Its amazing to me how the neighbors never know.

kc07

A nice collective of works my friend.

Here's to another month!

thank you n_pp just making new friends here has made it worth it

Ahhhhhhhhhh yes you put them in a book...

MsTBear

no...just on the shelf

(((( kc ))))

Sighhhhhhhhhhh

Most heavenly my friend,, I have cried and smiled and felt your love and kindness within your words,,, I sit and have re-read
each and every piece,,, Most amazing your mind and soul ohhhhhhhhhh such a delight,,, your heart so pure yet still
yearning ohhhhhhhhhhhhh my friend thank you again for allowing
me to inter into your world,,,,

Hugs and kiss's

mom...you are most welcome in my world


thank you for letting me rest under your wings and basking in the beauty that is your soul

be it a book or just on the shelf your soul and heart shine through...
thanks kc for letting us join you on the journey

thanks u2 i know none of these are new...

thank you two for being friends...

All great writes kc

thanks jb always nice to hear from you

hey kc
have not seen you in a while. hope things have gotten better...
give us a call

There is nothing like a gathering of friends like we have aquired here KC welcome to this group and hope you stay around for a long time it is an awesome group one that is unique and not found just anywhere.

My,my, time sure flies when you're having fun. The fun and enjoyment for us was reading your splendid work, I do hope you like it so much here that you will stay and share more of your tomes. God bless

meandu2...thank you, both of you.

tg3333
bonnymiss

thank you both. the kindness and the warmth that resides here is so touching. like i said, i wish i had found this place long ago...

nice to see such caring and honest people take the time to spread words of encouragement, understanding and acceptance to those who put themselves and their thoughts out to the world.
thank you for taking your time and for sharing with all of us your poems and your thoughts.


kc

I'm so glad you found the words enjoyed them all you are an awesome writter and just a good person...thank you for sharing

pkh

thank you

Alway's a pleasure to read your wonderful work kc, and look forward to many, many more

mom
thank you i hope they come out soon...