Because my prince charming tripped over and hit his head. He forgot where he was going .

oh

There is no simple answer to that question.

Because I always fall for the crazy ones and end up on trouble

Matt Foley isn't the only one in a VAN down by the river!!!

A year ago I was married, but guess because I wasn't tatted up or rode a Hardly, I wasn't that much fun to be married too. Guess providing a home, financial security and cuddle time isn't enough for a woman today.

Is that the same van that Krieger's living in, or a different one??

(Wondering if anyone will catch that reference...)

bah, girls are *******!

Because I want a woman that I cannot have.

because me n my ex were sexually incompatible (backdoor, or nothing!) because she was a leech, and because that particular lady was completely bonkers.

Sent her back to her parents before she pushed me into marriage.

ever since, i have been taking the back seat and am observing the sex/relationship/going out/marriage thing...

and boy am i better off in my "FWB Setup" or "sports relationship" that´s been going on almost 4 years now.

all the essentials, and none of the annoying extras, plus i get to keep my independence :D

Being single?
Yayyy!

I haven't found the right man.

I am cleaning up the mess I made by marrying a woman for all the wrong reasons. ... Now I am taking my time.

Probably many reasons.

Because of my being me.

I cannot prove this yet in Mingle,
maybe after a year?
but in the real world,
I always have a different way of seeing things.
I always have different perspective on things.
I always have different understanding of things.

And it always works at my disadvantage.
If I can only see things thru like everyone
else maybe..perhaps maybe I wont be this alone.

& the sad part is, not because of lack of trying,
in fairness, I really tried seeing things on others
perspective, but I end up short.

I do not like to conform, just because everybody is
doing it, the more I will not do it.

I do not like being cornered or being compelled to do it
just because, everybody is doing it because it is okay-
the more I will do my best to not to do it.

The first time I have heard that if "I will not change my
way of seeing things I will end up an old maid" is
from my older brother.


I was so focused back then in maintaining my scholarship in
High School because I do not want to study in a public school
Yes even back then, I am already like this,I am different
instead of just doing what everybody else is doing.

Every girl in my age group in my immediate neighborhood at that time,
either get pregnant,elope, get married to a foreigner thrice
their age, live with their boyfriends, swap boyfriends, and others
go to college.
Yup! I choose scholarship & college.
My math professor said if "I will not change my
way of seeing things I will end up an old maid"

Even in college I failed.
Even if it means so much to me,
I cannot conform.I cannot give in, just because everybody is doing it.
I always find a reason to say, I dont see the need to be like them.

Until I met my ex, I dont see the need to want someone that bad
to change who I am.
Sad thing is, I have realize that even if I changed, my ex family
can never accept me, I will never be good enough.
No matter what I will do, the casualty, will be my ex in the long run,so I walked away.
There are always things that we are not worthy of.

I am such a bad judge of character, one in my long list
of shortcomings,that a La Sallian Brother actually told me
several years ago, that "with the way u see things,
U will enjoy life more in single blessedness,
rather than marriage."
And to think at that time I am already Godless.

See?
And so far, my brothers, math professor & the La Sallian Brother
are right, the men who stimulates my mind & imagination:

-when in private, does not want to hold hands, they want something else.
-when in private they do not want to answer questions,
they rush things, and when I get rushed,
I feel belittled, I feel being looked down as a woman.
I feel disrespected with my views in life.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that is gentle, considerate & a gentleman,
& who does not take offense when I said,
"lets take it slow, one day at a time"
& who do not connect my every statement with sex.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that is not abusive, when they are rebuff.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that has the mind set, that stimulating one's mind is not
even about sex.
It is about encouraging me to think,
challenging me to be enthusiastic in a different perspective
than what I have.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
who say "look here- why wont you think of it this way"-
and mean it,
they always just pretend that they understand me,
then offer something so insulting & demeaning.
As if I do not have those.
As if I do not have more than those.

The sad thing is, I cant even blame them.
The sad thing is, it is wishful thinking to say they are the ones
wrong and I am right.

Reality check wise-

why then it happen all the time?
I can understand if it only happen once or
twice, but it happens all the time.

I think it is really the way
I see & reacted to things.
It is my perspective that makes me not compatible
with anyone.
It is my perspective that always get me into trouble.

Should I change?
Another wishful thinking.
Even if I wanted to, can I really change?
this is who I am.

I might as well accept the fact that there is a big
probability that maybe there are just
people like me destined to die say after another 25 years,
withered, old & wallowing in heavy metal music & pop rock.
Because we are built this way.

Single is not that bad anyway as long as, I am not
force to conform, what everyone else is doing.
As long as I can still be myself,
be proud of what I have become,
I would not mind, very much being different.

I'm not at the right place at the right time i'll get there but idk where i'm going

Portland hipsters. ‘Nuff said.

or maybe you are single cos you refuse to see the real you in them?

It might also be because I insist people write actual sentences, and use capital letters.

Still searching for my soulmate,i hope am gonna find one here.....?