I had a rough Childhood and I know now that God has been there for me all this time. I lived with my step-mother until I was 8 years old. She was teaching me about God durning those years and bless her heart for doing so. I was some what a problem child then but I think I was getting better as time went on. In 1978 is when my step-mother took us two boy to MO. to live with dad and that is when I started to have more problems than I could handle.
My dad was a complete stranger to me and I relied on my brother to show me the way in life. My dad was an alcololic and a womenizer and was hardly at home. then at 12 I was rapped by my brother and that hurt me in more ways than just one. It took me a long time to forgive him but I had to come to The Lord first in order to learn how to forgive him.
I came back to MI. in 1989 and was still screwed up in the head from what took place in MO.. At that time I was a homosexual and a crossdresser. I even smoked for a long time and I quit that habbit and there will be the rest of the story tomarrow.

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Matthew 10:28

"Come to Me,
all ye who labor
and are heavy laden
and I will give you rest..."

Thus saith the Lord Jesus

matthew 10: verse 29 and 30


...and the Lord continued by saying...

29) "Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me,
for I am gentle and lowly in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls...

30) For My yoke is easy and My burden is light. "

sweetlove I hope you find the peace that you have sought. All the best, thanks for not being afraid to expose your pain. All the best.

God bless you my friend.
But most than anybody else you have to forgive yourself because anything that happen to you it's your fault.
God will give you de light.

Forgiveness saves the expense of anger, the cost of hatred, and the waste of money.


God bless you for sharing. May His peace fill you, and His angels protect you.

I'm sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what i meant is "anything that happen to you it is not your fault."

Thankyou all for responding to this and I have the Lord with me. It has bee a fun journey with Him thus for. I have been realizing who and what I am and what the Lord wants of me. I have read John 7:24 and that really helped me out a lot because He really only cares about my heart and what is in it and not my appearance. May GBU all and your failies.

Your sweet, lovable, wonderful, friend,
Sam

I hope you find the healing and peace that you need.

hope this day is better for you
than it was yesterday and so on...

II Chronicles 7 verse 14

"if My people
will humble themselves
and pray and seek My face,
and turn from their wicked ways,
then I Will hear from Heaven,
and will forgive their sins
and heal their land.."

I thankyou all for your wonderful and encouraging word for me. May God bless you all 10 folds.

God came into my life 15yrs ago when I had no place left to go. He carried me through many difficult times, but I never knew He was there. He protected me despite myself and my reckless behavior. God has blessed me -- I am a recovering alcoholic with 15yrs of continuous sobriety One Day At A Time.