why should it matter anymore what someone thinks.people want honesty. people want the truth. when you give it to em, they throw it back at you. and they say you dont know what your talking about. how could you not know what you want in your heart. so why do people even ask the questions? ever wondered that? i do everyday now. someone says they want whats best for you. but who knows whats best for someone? wouldnt that be you?

apparently im not the nice guy everyone thinks i am. i have darkness to me. i have a dirty soul. i try to be good, but apparently it gets me no where, so why even bother anymore?

I don't believe that Thumper, you are not a bad person, I have seen the good side of you. Don't let someone put you down and make you feel bad about yourself. There are people who go around hurting people by projecting their bad feelings on someone else, ignore them and move on. Don't let them drag you down with them.

apparently not. im no good,, dont matter, so why should i care anymore. thats all i get anymore

That's not true. Remember you aren't feeling well with your broken ribs and all and that will make you feel bad too. Don't let other people project their bad feelings on you. You are better than them.

i belive in my heart the only innocents are the children. i know for a fact im not innocent.

Hey Thumper,,THIS PACE HERE, brings ALOT of HAPPINESS and PROBLEMS with just coping with EVERYONES ISSUES.
But we all just DO....

And in LIFE,,we have times that seem like NO OTHERS, JUST BAD,,,,

BUT DAMM IT DUDE,,YOU BIG "HEALTHY" OX,,,Think about life for ONE MOMENT if "YOU" just found out YOU ONLY HAVE 6 MONTHS TO "LIVE"???????
THINK about if "YOU" had to GASP and SUCK your lips off, just for ONE GOOD DEEP "BREATH"?????

LOOK "ALL" AROUND "YOU" AND SEE "ALL" THE PAIN THAT "SOME" """HAVE TO""" "LIVE" EACH DAY JUST TO "BE"!!

LIFE is "NOT" HARD TO LIVE WHEN "YOU" HAVE SO MUCH "MORE" GOING FOR "YOUR" HEALTH THAN "MOST".....LIVE "HAPPY", inSIDE "YOU"..

well see heres the thing, yeah im "healthy" and have broken ribs and bruised liver and other things going right now. but see, when its a broken heart, what do you take for that. nothing i know of, unless its illegal, and i quit that along time ago. im sick of being good to people and they throw it back at me twisted and not what i intended. my point is why even bother anymore?

You bother because that is who you are, you are a good person and that is what good people do. You get knocked down and you get back up and go on. Just like in your football games, you get tackled, you get up and shake it off and go on.

Whoever did this to you is not the only person out there. There are lots of good people out here, they must not have been the right person for you, or they would not have hurt you. So you move on and hopefully the next one will be the right one. Don't throw in the towel because this one went sour. You didn't quit football because you got tackled the first time, so don't quit now because someone hurt you. Just take your time, go slow, make sure you know the person before you let them in your heart, that way it is harder for them to hurt you.

Hey Thumper,

I have felt that way many times.. I figure what is the point.. why keep trying.. for me it is Faith.. that keeps me going...

Other have no real idea what another is going through as well all go through things differently... We as humans try to have compassion for one another and we try to share our own experiences to help each other through this life... as for me I pray for others...

Yet it is not in my nature to give up some people are just cruel...

Because YOU have to freakin LIVE with "YOU" and if YOUR compassion pushes YOU forward to help and to TRY to find LOVE,,,then "YOU" cannot "CHANGE" who or "HOW" YOUR HEART
MAKES YOU ACT.....
EXCEPT IT,,and LET "IT" SHINE...THEN "THROUGH" THAT "LOVE" WILL RELEASE "YOU" AND "NEW" LOVE WILL FIND "YOU!!!!

Time will SHOW YOU,,and PROVE TO YOU,,,THAT "EVERYBODY" can SURVIVE,,,,MISSING ANOTHER,,,,,just love the people in your life that YOU KNOW LOVE YOU and show them YOUR LOVE MAN,,LIVE TO FEEL "THEIR" LOVE and through them and their LOVE YOU will find YOUR "PEACE"....SOLID MAN..... I DON'T LIE...

Thumper you know who you are. You know what is in your heart. Do not change because of the actions of others.

We are all the colours, all the textures, light and shadow. All of it...it is nothing to fear.

When I say I want the best for people ... I truly do. Not MY best for them... I want what is in their highest good. That is not for me to decide. But I can focus my intention of their highest good.

Taking something to numb the pain just numbs the pain ... it doesn't process it ... you just store it for dealing with later. Allow yourself to feel what you feel. Feel it but don't be indulgent with it. Allow it to move through and shift.

You have friends who care!

Thumper:

No matter how hard you try not to see the good in you. It is in there. You have it. You try to be mean. You try not to care. But your nature have more power. Your nature is good.
Believe me I know how u are feeling. No matter how much I try, this life hits me back worse than before.
But I'm still there standing firm against the canyon. It will hit me over and over again, I don't care everytime it hits me, I'll come back with more power. The more life hits, the stronger I become.
Therefore, my brother keep it up. open your eyes, and see how many people love you and care for you here.
We may never see each other ever, but the love and caring feelings are here.
BY GOD KEEP IT UP, AND GET IT DONE.

Damn it Thumper! Its called life! Jesus! Com'on! Thats why you have friends! People to talk to to get throu it! Don't tell me one girl is going to sideline you! (other than your daughter) Life ain't a friggin party and you know it!

((((((((((((Thumper)))))))))))))What's going on bro....Talk to us...You know WE are here for YOU whenever YOU need US

i think its time to go into full hiding,,

what the hell
hiding from what
what r u scare of?

NOOOOOOOOOOO...don't leave us hun

ahhh come on MAN,,****tt we all been there and we will ALL be there again,,,,BUT "THAT" IS JUST LIFE.. YOUR GOOD....

Ya BETTER NOT GO HIDIN or I will call out the GAURD ta find your AZZZ,lol,lol,

it aint that im scared,, im sick, sick of people being f'ing retarded. stupid people. so ima hide. the ones that know me well enough can get ahold of me. and kater,, you know you can reach me, but i know i have not a chance at what i want. so i give up on people here, the ones that mean something to me know how to get me.