Green Beret

it has been a year since i have been out of the Army
still having the mentality that i am still in
i crave it, i miss it so much but being out because
of a medical discharge, i cannot come back in
but i receive a great disability check
i would join the army all over again

i miss being a green beret in special forces
so much that i cannot help but cry
it has always been a dream on mine
that in combat, i would die
so i can go to heaven with my brothers and sisters
and my grand mom because i miss her

i cannot adapt to the civilian life
all i ever did was deploy to the middle east
forming bonds with my soldiers, having eachothers backs
ready for anything if we are ever attacked

every morning i wake up, look at my uniform
i try to smile with pride, i miss being in uniform
since i have been out, i have not been able
to make any friends, civilians are different from military
yes this world can be pretty scary

as i sit on the beach of Cocoa, thinking
of what i done for this country
hoping that someday to someone i can tell my stories
with smiles and sadness, and no worries

reminds me of 'the hurt locker', that guy couldn't deal with civilian life either.

*salute*

This is common with people who have experience combat first hand. You feel like you let the others on the teams down by returning home without the full team. Some feel they should of died with the others members of the team. I feel some live to tell the stories of the others who gave their lives. Honoring their memories. To die in combat is a accepted out come, when you do some missions.

Thank you sir for living, to honor those that have indeed given their all. Thank you for serving.

I do in fact respect your feelings. Blessed are the fallen. Blessed are the ones that return to remember their lives.

Adjusting back to civie life can be a real biotch.

But if you made it through Special Forces training you can make it through this.

Thank you for all you have done. And God bless all the ones still serving