Green Beret

it has been a year since i have been out of the Army
still having the mentality that i am still in
i crave it, i miss it so much but being out because
of a medical discharge, i cannot come back in
but i receive a great disability check
i would join the army all over again

i miss being a green beret in special forces
so much that i cannot help but cry
it has always been a dream on mine
that in combat, i would die
so i can go to heaven with my brothers and sisters
and my grand mom because i miss her

i cannot adapt to the civilian life
all i ever did was deploy to the middle east
forming bonds with my soldiers, having eachothers backs
ready for anything if we are ever attacked

every morning i wake up, look at my uniform
i try to smile with pride, i miss being in uniform
since i have been out, i have not been able
to make any friends, civilians are different from military
yes this world can be pretty scary

as i sit on the beach of Cocoa, thinking
of what i done for this country
hoping that someday to someone i can tell my stories
with smiles and sadness, and no worries

Ugly(Masked)

in the mornings i would wake up
and see my sister staring in the mirror
embracing her beauty, loving herself more each day
but for myself, i could never feel that way

i have been fat my whole life, until i recently
lost 200 pounds within a year
still i feel the same as before, i still
feel that i am ugly
i may be a lot slimmer, but my confidence has gone
and i stand here alone to the earth
until my time is done

i spent an hour in my room making a mask
to hide my face and the ugliness
i feel in my heart if i take my mask from my face
that i am showing my ugliness to the world
i would not know what to say

i dont feel like a handsome man because
still i am alone, rejected by people
maybe i am ugly because of my almond shaped eyes
because i have japanese blood in me
the mask on my face is a beautiful disguise

to know what it is like to smile but be a beautiful thing
if i could fly far away, then i could be happy and sing
but still, i will be remembered as the ugly man
with wounds on his face and broken glass stuck on his wing

thank you guys. that means a lot to me. i love everything about being a dad and even though i live on the other side of the country, it doesnt stop me from seeing her. cant wait to take her to disney in a few days.

Disney World

When you were born, when I were in Iraq
I thought of when I would take you to Disney
just me and you, it never slipped my mind
I just knew that it would happen in time

4 years later, 2 months before your birthday
you begged and cried to me to take you
I talked to your mom and stepfather and they said yes
the smile on your face was priceless

i know that i do not see you everyday but i never
stopped loving you Emma, i dont ever want you to think
that i will forget about you, i made my share of mistakes
i written you letters in all of my deploymens, everyday

when you called me and said you loved me, i smiled
i cant wait to take you to disney world, read your bedtime stories
as long as you are with me, there are no worries

20 years later, i pray our relationship will
always be strong, my little girl
we can go to Brazil together, my home country
see our family and smile, Emma, I love you
little princess, my world is happier each day
no more feeling blue

when we go to disney world
smile, we will run around together
because that day will be yours

Emma

My beautiful daughter just beginning life
4 years old, i know that as she gets older
she will want to know why me and her mom
are not together
i know id get nervous to talk about it
feeling as though i am under pressure

every time we talk on the phone i smile with pride
looking forward to her visit here
her by my side
she tells me i am the best dad in the world to her
more than a million dollars her words are worth

whether i die single, alone in my bed
my daughter will always know i love her
even when i were in combat over seas
in afghanistan and iraq
in my heart she was always with me

when we see each other again
and unite with a strong hug
you will always be my daughter
that i will forever love

As I sat on the porch with my girlfriend
talking about our future together we smile
she goes inside getting ready for bed
then came the arrival of my friend
with blood on his hands

He looks at me smiling with pride
he says "I stabbed my girlfriend until she died"
bad boys for life, kill the wife
i fell in a panic to the floor and asked him to leave
too shocking to handle, let him be

He told me, no woman want a good man
that all American women want to be treated like sh--
that is the best you can get

when he first met her, she never paid him attention
until he picked a fight with an old lady
beating her to death and all the girls smiled
the old lady died there in the bloody pile

she fell under his wing, and did everything for him
he stole all of her money, raped her in his sleep
he threatened and spitted on her, she loved it
she love such a wonderful creep

all the good men, there are no such thing
American women, are beautiful hypocrits
bad boys take all, and do not give a sh--

He explained the slaying of all the 666 women he killed
he admit he did it for the thrill
he screams all women want to have spikes in their hearts
because a woman to die at the hands of a handsome badboy
is such a beautiful art

the last thing he said to me before he walked into the dark
was, he tied 333 women together, and pushed them of of the cliff
as they smile, going to Hell for him
he said their deaths was a beautiful gift

Mrs. Contradictor

Hello Mrs. Contradictor, I do not understand you
you say all the wonderful things of yourself
and how you want a man to do this and do that
but when he comes to you, you beat him
to a pulp with your baseball bat

How about sticking to what you want
and be satisfied, I ask myself
when women say one thing and mean another
sometimes I wish I were not here
in my family I am the only single sibling brother

Stop changing your words, why do you like badboys?
do you enjoy being used as a toy?

theres lots of people in the Otown, im one of them too. maybe its because its not too many people on this site.

hello everyone, i got out the army not long ago and liking it here. finally settled here from being all over the country. i am looking to meet people but no luck here in florida so far. im very nice and respectful and i approach people respectfully but i can sense when someone is shy to talk to me or im not their type, oh well. i dont let it bug me. but if anyone wants to get to know a great person then feel free to write me.

Invisible

to be such a loving and respectful man
is such an honor, but i live in an empty home
the sad single man who comes home alone

still i smile to make it through the day
i ask god "why is such a great handsome man like me is single?"
sometimes i pout and then i cry
especially when i see couples holding hands passing by

i smile because i have alot to offer
traveling the world, many things to see
money can buy you things you want
but not the things you need

i pray the day she walks into my life
and dreams came come true and unite as one
then my search for finding love is done

i ask god at times "why am i invisible"
sadly i feel cursed, with a broken sobbing heart
that i will be a sad old man
shedding tears at the shining stars

until i find her, i will wait here
at the shores of the beach, until she is
within my distance, near

well honestly i do not mind, but go for it if you think it needs improvement. i love hearing thoughts so i can be a better writer.

hey everyone im new to the area and i want to share a poem i written over 10 years ago and i am a great song writer and poem so please be honest and open to share me thoughts of this, thank you. maybe one day if i were taken i could actually write my love and heart out for a woman.



Seashell

as i wake up to the sounds of the water
splashing against eachother, i wish that
she was here with me, but instead i am here alone
standing here in the cool breeze
no one to hold within my reach
this is such a beautiful beach

a single tear of pain fall from my eyes
no one here to hear my sweet cries
i think of love in my deepest thoughts
sometimes in my heart
it feels like a teasing mirage

the day she comes into my life
my pain of sadness will fade away
to rid me of my horid days

as the birds sing together
i fall in love with their melody
i wish she was here with me

but i feel like a lonely seashell
trapped on the bottom of the ocean floor
love is the most beautiful thing ever
that i could always adore









A Million Miles Away

(verse 1)

I think of you, all the time
you are so precious and so kind
a woman like you is hard to find
i only wish that you could be mine
why do people say that, finding love is blind?

(chorus)
i love your smile and your beautiful face
it feels like youre a million miles away
youre so far away, youre like a star in space
but it feels like youre a million miles away

(verse 2)
have i been in love before? no i have not
a chance with you is all i got
i need someone to hold my heart
to walk me out of this scary dark
lets take this love and turn it
into a piece of art

(chorus)

(bridge)
only your love could hold me
as my wounds of sadness are molding
for you love wont stop showing
kissing you with passion so slowly

(chorus)

hey everyone im new here and just moved here. i got out the army. did 8 years. i came back because i was injured in combat in afghanistan. im alive and have my limbs so im happy. i moved into my new house and going to school in the fall and trying to make friends on here. i hope everyone enjoyed the weekend as well.