Quite some time ago I met this girl on a dating site. It started out slow, flirting getting to know one another. She was only looking for friends at the time but not long after we strated flirting it became alot more.

Things were wonderful between us and we were so in love. I finally went to meet her in person, I drove 800.00 miles just to be with her. Things went well and then I had to come back. a few months went by and I finally went to be with her for good. After getting back we were so happy to be togther. Time went by and still all was great. Then my mother died on Feb 5th of this year.

I took it very hard and I must have changed. In the process of that I didn't know how I was becomming. it finally tore us apart. She never told me and never tried to work anything out, never gave me a chance to change things. She tore my world apart. So now it is over. I left all to be with her. Gave up everything. Now my dad's health is failing. I spent most of my time with him, and I am not sure what to do.

I have already lost so much, my mom, my fiancee, and now possibly my dad. I don't know what to do. I just don't. Life doesn't mean much right now. I just don't know what to do.

hey I've lost alot to !!! it gangs up on you ask your doc to see a greivance councilor.. and after you meet with that send you mate a kind word of what she meant and that you are learnin and want to deal with it all

im so sorry hun , just take one day at a time , if you want you can email me sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry to hear that.I'm sure the pain of this is awful.Thanking you for sharing that and your in my prayers.

My prayers are with you ,,, Just know sometimes in life thier are no real answers to our questions,, The What, why, When, Where and how come at times seems to overwhelm us,, Just know that we are all here for you if and when you need to talk,,, Hugs

I am sorry this happened to you, loss of a parent is hard to go through. I don't know why she would abandon you during a time when you needed her support.

Spend as much time as you can with your dad during this time. Also spend time with friends, they can support you now and help you through this process. Counseling can help you work through these feelings and give you support too, if you want to check into it.

Write me if you want to talk.

Thank you all for the kind words. Talking to her wopuld do no good, and I am not going to try. When I left for work this morning I went to tell my dad I was going and I didn't have the heart to wake him, but I made sure he was ok before I left. Soon he will be in the hospital in Mississippi and I will have to be here to take care of the animals. I don't want to loose my dad, he is all I have left. I don't think I can take another loss.

She should've stayed by your side in your time of need.
Soo sorry for your loss!

I cant really say anything... I havnt went threw that... All I can say is keep your head up and things get better

Thank you erinestrella, Like i said I must have changed and she didn't understand, instead of making me awere of the problem she let it build up and then that was it. But the problem now is hoping my dad will be ok. He will be in the base hospital im Mississippi soon. But things are not looking good.

Hang in there, it's bound to get better. In the meantime just smack the Buckethead next time you see him, you'll feel better and I'm sure he needs it.

Oh, I'm sorry! I agree w/the others. What was she expecting for you just to get over it like that? The loss of your mother is a huge deal and a lot to go through. Take some time for you just to relax and clear your head. & be there for your father because it sounds like he needs you. I hope everything works out for you,

Thank you, I will remember that if I ever meet him. I don't post here much.

Prayers being sent for your dad.

I will do all I can beachbabe. He's all I have left now. When I got home from work I stayed with him and got him all he needed untill he fell asleep. I just had to talk to somebody.

Thank you pkh

my friend I am truly sorry my prayers are with you and will continue to be . please do not hesitate to message, email or contact me in any way if there is anything I can do.
if you don't mind me asking; what's your fathers name - so when I pray I'll know

much love bro' -Robert

I sent you an email Robert. Thank you

I'm sorry to hear that. I also went through a really rough time accepting my brothers death. My friends on line really helped me out. And I'm so greatfull for them. Life is full of hard and wild surprises and we have to accept it like it or not. This makes us stronger in life even though we don't see it that way but just hang in there and better things will come along. It's all within time.
You look like a toughy, You can do it. Stay by your father and keep hanging on to your friends here on this site.
your new friend cudels

Thank you so much cudels. I fear though that because of another member I won't be able to be here much. But tonight I just couldn't help it. My dad has been getting worse and with everything else that has happened I had to break the silence