Worn down, tired, disheartened,&beatin bloody,
By life and human cruelty.
I'm like a pencil that has been sharpened to much..
Nothing left but a nub.....and darkness..........
Does anybody else ever feel this? This pit..this darkness?..
God! I'm usual the most optimistic person you'd ever
meet..anybody?

Standing alone in the rain,
With nothing 4 shelter except my pain.
The icy water chills my bones,
And lets me know I'm all alone,
A foggy haze of fear and grief,
Comes to offer no relief,
My broken heart has turned to mush,
Then misery gives the final push,
I fall into the dark abyss,
& in defiance i blow a goodbye kiss,...kinda like that

Can you get clinically depressed for no reason?
This really is not like me..its kinda freaking me out..
Is it just me? Do any of u ever feel that darkness.?

Can you get clinically depressed for no reason?
This really is not like me..its kinda freaking me out..
Is it just me? Do any of u ever feel that darkness.?

hi hun ty

((((((((JEFF)))))))

When I get in these kinda places it seems like life life sucks,
it always has sucked and it always will suck. This is it-suckville!

BUT


I know in my mind that this is not true.
I have had love in my life before, and I will again.
I have a career, so I will be employed.
I have a roof, food, plenty of clothes.
If I seem not to have a friend, then I need to be a friend.

My attitude and response to life is my responsibility and I have the power to change both.

Yes and 'tis the season for seasonal depression! I am feeling it today too & have absolutely no reason to be sad either! It will pass. Go for a nice long walk if possible, always helps me!

If it makes you feel any better, you are one hella good lookin' man...

well i sure do... sometimes seems no way to pull out of it.. then for no reason at all i do... hope u feel better soon.. hugs!

Long time no see bedlum :-)

Anyone who says they have never been
depressed is cuckoo.
It is Nature's way of slapping us upside the head.
The good times are gooder though, after the darkness.

It is also how we get good poetry :-)

heartfelt I think we all go through it.

This is very deep..the very weight of it is crushing my
soul like being covered in a haze of despair...

Thanx for the kind words

Really..thanx..i mean it..I'm try ing

I know exactly where you coming from dude i had my heart broken and lost love ones and a lot of friends that past away and also been going through tough times with health too but then i look at the people worst off then me and try to fight my way through it its tough dude keep strong hold your head up and say at least i not that guy that just past away of cancer or that person who is crippled all their life in a chair i try and look to the possitive but dam its soooooo hard to sometimes your not alone dude theres so many out there but i keep to my self alot my probs and try to make others feel better check the movie patch adams out cause suppose to be based partly on a true story how laughter and friends can help but what makes me feel better when i can make 1 of my friends or someone else feel better all the best , i had friends that lived on the street and friends that were rich and i treat all the same life is to dam short and even if you believe in God pray for help he will listen Cheers buddy hope you feel better oh you can look up patch adams the real 1 on you tube or the movie too:) it helped a lot of dif people but stay strong and never give up dam if you know what i been through in past couple years but hey i a fighter for life and to help people i love helping people when i am well enough cheers :))))))) hope you feel better dude

((Bedlum))
This, too, shall pass.

being down hits everyone. Some harder than others. Writing it out is a good vent but dont really change anything. Crappy weather sure dont help. If part of the problem is seeing the same pattern at the start of this year compared to last year....change the pattern.

Just talked my sister through a depression not long ago and wasforced to point out the obvious....sitting alone and staring at the walls while second guessing your choices is the worst thing a person can do to themselves.

Call up a friend just to catch up. Jump on a bicycle or just take off on a walk. Change the scenery up ya know? If the weather is suckin, go to a mall and just people watch....sneer at the punks who dont know how to dress, eye the gorgeous ones and wish you were a teenager again, smile at the old couple that is still holding hands. You might even accidentally bump into an old acquaintance.

I do know this...you realize there is a problem....try changing your situation. Doesnt have to be one big magic thing like naked sky diving. Try small and doable things....it wont snap you out of it over night but, at least try to change things up will give you a fighting shot.

It WILL pass....but, it will take longer if you just sit there and wait for someone to change your life for you. Some things you just need to do for yourself.

Chin up trooper....bad times fall away just like the good times do.

Thats why im on lots of medication.lol.

I loved your poem....

Kudos for the excellent writing.XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together...

Lots of good advise here but...and only you can answer this...if it is this bad, do you think you might want to talk to a professional therapist? Just saying sometimes it is the best thing to do, to seek help.

I wish you well and hope you feel much better soon.

Technically, there is a reason. Simplest answer .... chemical imbalance. If you have ever been depressed, you are more likely to relapse into a depression at some point.

If you are concerned about your feelings being depression there are many online screening tests/tools. Seeking professional help when concerned is always a good thing.



I have within the last year have come to the insight that I have been suffering from chronic depression most of my life. I am just now attempting to learn how to recognize it on its onset, then in the middle of the depression.