let me tell you just how high i am
and explain in detail what kinda guy i am
I'm red eyed fried my man
and living off pride, I Am
I may have died on the inside, but not my plan
i need revived on the inside, and i strive on the inside
to feel alive, survive this bent ride and stand
even though everyone says i can't
That's why i literally, just smoked that plant
can't even remember when i began to be this man
I paid the cost of losing my Fam
The coin was tossed and i dam sure lost again
And my hearts began to frost again
Because of previous thoughts of sin
These damn drugs have been
The downfall of real good men
I’m back at a place I’ve already been
I’m looking at a face, of an old friend
This is the Joe, I used to know way back when
He was supposed to go, never to return again
But this hole, I’m trying to fill it in
And it’s got my whole world bent
An ounce of peace, would be heaven sent
But it seems to me, my pain is irrelevant
And it seems to be, I relapsed just for the hell of it
My personality, has just been split
Cause half of me, just don’t give a s**t
the other half is regretting it
And I’m betting if
I begin to give a s**t
My heart won’t be able to handle it
It’s completely scandalous
I can’t believe, I can’t handle this
I used to be, a man that’s missed
Used to be a fan of bliss
Now I snort pills, and smoke cannabis
(unfinished)

Nice write... sorry for your pain.

I loved this actually. Sounds like it could be a song, and having a heart felt honestly like this is perfect for that.

[This reminds me of eric, so i am just gonna add what i feel fits for him, you don't have to use it]

......
My heart won’t be able to handle it
It’s completely scandalous
I can’t believe, I can’t handle this
I used to be, a man that’s missed
Used to be a fan of bliss
Now I snort pills, and smoke cannabis
(unfinished)

......
so i won't have to feel the pain im in
just to forget this shi* im in
just for you to realize this
you were half the problems to back then
but im the one that has to deal with the whole if it
your full of shi*
......

{ive got more but i have to go right now.}