Thanks for the advice Marie about at home jobs. My last girlfriend worked from home as a medical transcriptionist. I heard large companies are looking for telecommuters now, so maybe that is where to look.

Great news y'all.....I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today and he's put me back on one of my meds and trying me out on Lamictal......if anyone who has taken could give me some feedback on it, i'd great appreciate it

yes amber. I have been taking lamictal for a couple of years.I has worked wonders for me and it didn't make me gain wieght either. You just have to keep your eyes out for the rash. I haven't known anyone that got the rash. I haven't ever taken anything like Lamictal before and after over 23 yrs of different cocktails, I was damned glad to find something that works for my Bi Polar. I take other meds for other MI's, but the Lamictal works the best for my BP. I hope it wirks as well for you. The only thing I have trouble with isthat it makes it hard for me to sleep and since I already have insomnia, I just take a smaller dose at night. Any questions, just post or email.

Karen

thanks Karen, my doc said it might make me a little hyper so i'm to take it in the moring and the first thing he did was warn bout the possible rash.....i'm taking it in conjunction with Abilify and it knocks me out at bedtime

well, this is gonna be a baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad day............i already see it.......some of y'all might know i started a cancer family support forum just after finding out my mother has lung cancer............i was just told she's dying..........why do things always get worse just when you start to perk up a little?

life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.... there is good in everything.. just keep your chin up

well, my mom seems to have given up...........she's been in a depression for a few months.............it was just made a lot worse in the past couple of weeks........last week she was begging me to see her grandbaby

((((Amber)))) Sorry to hear about your Mom.

One of the ways the nursing home and the forums has helped me is with my own anger. According to what the rehab counselors tried to explain to me with my depression is that depression can be anger not expressed but held within. I have found out that with the ability to vent that I can be aware of others venting, too. It helped me this morning with my mom. I found out that my mom confided with me about anger she had with my siblings. It wasn't anger with me for a change. Since it wasn't totally directed at me except that she told me that she didn't have money to give me to fix her dryer in my house. I offered to fix the dryer. She told me that I could ask the repairman about how to fix it. He asked me if I had checked to see if there was 220 at the receptacle and if I had 110 from both hots to common. He told me many times just ordering a heater coil and thermostat is not needed because the receptacle could become loose. He told me also to check the other end of the power cord in case the screws were loose. He then told me to stay where I was and he would get his meter and reshow me how to use one. I wasn't really paying attention and he told m when he told me not to come back to his work area that he meant it. Ouch. I found out that both my mom and the repairman were having a bad day since he has a funeral to go to this evening. It was a good case of we will intuitively know what to do with situations which used to baffle us. Before I would just get pissed off and think that the whole world was picking on me. It makes sense if I get angry then others get angry too at at times. It has really been helping me with the verse of get angry but sin not. Getting angry is not a sin. Getting angry is natural part of life.

Hanging out fine lines of clothes seemed to help me with my agraphobia and gave me a break from my claustaphobia. Luckily it was daylight outside so I didn't have deal with my nictaphobia. Oddly, enough I am not afraid of daylight. Hmmm.

Sorry about your mom Amber...maybe you should get her out of the house more to ease her (and your) depression. Spend time with her.

Bad day today....can't seem to shake it.....does anybody else ever get like that? I mean... when ya just feel all alone in the world..no one around cares...people step on ya like your just not there....or maybe they think they are just kiddin, but you take it differntly.....i just feel so rotton.. cant sleep at night, slept most of the day.... Holiday season sucks!!

going through that myself.....hope you feel better soon

thanks Amber... I hope you do too

Mommy & Amber -- wish I could make things better for you. Holidays are hard. Try to find something special for yourself, go to a movie, get your hair done. Try to get out with friends, don't isolate yourself, that is the worst thing to do right now.

Today sucked for me too. I sent my granddaughter a big box of presents and other things out for her birthday on Sunday, via UPS on Tuesday, had about $250 worth of things in it, DVDs, toys, snacks, all kinds of things for her and Alex and their mom, it weighed 24 pounds, and found out today that UPS LOST IT --- NOT ONLY LOST IT, but they never scanned it into their computer system, so I don't know if they will ever find it, and I was so smart I didn't insure it. I told Maddy (she turns 8 on Sunday) it got lost and they were looking for it and she started crying and it broke my heart. Damn people anyway. I worked on that box for weeks, buying things and picking up things over the past few months. Made me cry too.

oh Marie.. I'm sooo sorry that happend!! Friggin UPS!!! That box has to be somewhere.. do you have the reciept? oh wait you said they didnt scan it in thier system...I'd be callin someone higher up in the chain on that one!!!

I have the receipt with the tracking number from Mail Plus. But it didn't get scanned into the UPS system, but I am going to sit down tomorrow and try to remember everything I had in the box, make a detailed list, and I am going to write a letter of complaint to UPS. I am sure it won't do me any good, but may make me feel better if nothing else. I spent a couple of months buying that stuff for the kids. I am going to try to redo a few things, but there is no Fed Ex tomorrow, not till Monday, so she wouldn't get it until Tuesday now, but will buy a few things tomorrow and get her a smaller box for Tuesday. Can't recreate the big one, but will get her some things. I am just sick about it, and angry, and UPS will hear about it, you can believe that.

Sorry for the rant, but all that money and time. I can't afford to lose that money, don't know many who can. Thanks for caring.

oh marie that sucks but i would go to mail plus.they may have some sort of proof ups picked it up or know the ups driver or agent for that store.that sucks big time.

sorry to hear that Marie, the same thing happened to my dad and stepmom two years ago, they sent a box full to their great grandson who's the same age as my daughter via UPS, they didn't just lose it......the driver took it a house he knew was abandoned (probably so he snatch it later we think), since then, noone in my family has used UPS's services, everything's shipped FedEx or DHL

Really sorry to hear that Marie. I'm sorry that happened. I know you've been having it rough, and to have this happen sucks! I do hope they can track it down.