You already know how I feel about my tummy, and probably commitment..

Fear of commitment. I am not against it.. it just scares the hell out of me, and Ive been screwed so many times, I am insecure about making that decision, because I know if I have a wall up, I wont be hurt.


Bad.. Im working on this.. every step in a relationship, I hold my breath a little. *gulp*

Keep on keepin on, just saw that, and wanted to say that I think tahts awesome, and brave of your for admittance, and working on yourself. BRAVO!!!

After my experience with the system I wasn't about to trust anyone and unfortuneately depending on their birthfather was never and option. Thankfully I never really had any serious problems with credible outsiders saying I was a bad parent; not even their birthfather or the hords of Professionals involved with my special needs child.

But having a family, young with minimal education, and with no back up does not give you a lot of options. I know at times it was tough on my kids. Missing out on the whole grandma grandpa thing. My Dad did not come back on line until my kids were well away from home.

My insecurities were created and forced down my throat for years by my ex. 2 yrs away from him and I was doing really good to build myself up and find that most of things he said were just untrue.

I had a meeting with him last week and wasn't feeling well at the time. My guard was down and he pointed out things that were "wrong" with me and I was starting to doubt myself again. I really don't like the person I had become when I was with him. The anger, bitterness, resentment and lack of trust was so overwhelming that that alone in itself was a source of insecurity.

That very same night I was able to go out and meet two of the Wichita Minglers. We talked, laughed, danced and had a great time and I left thinking . . . you know I have come a long way, Baby and am looking forward to where I am headed . . . at this point destination unknown. But, I know the outcome is gonna be great.

Insecurities...I think we all have them. I am working on a few. Some are buried deep, some I am overcoming with each new day. But, I truly believe for me and whoever I am lucky enough to find - our insecurities won't matter because we will compliment each other and learn what we can become as one. Together we can conquer all. Living on hope and a dream here.

@snarky that's a really cute pic of your kids

I'm secure. The world around me is going insecure.

good man

My right side is not good. One tooth is shorter, eyebrow is a little lower, cowlick in my hair. People say they don't notice but maybe they're standing on my left side.

Cant see how this is important.

You are standing inside... Which is where you are... Reckon you'r essence is much more than those things you listed.