Yeah! They won't suspect a thing, as they won't expect Prncs to be around! Then she'll bamboozle them with the very folding chairs they were gonna use on you, OC!

And then Rare can mop up by strangling them with his magic dualie beards!

I can see it now


we can make our own show

Yeah. The Prncs-beating-pro-wrestlers-upside-the-head-with-folding-chairs-while-Rare-strangles-them-with-his-dualie-beards-while-OrangeCat-hides-in-his-dressing-room-in-his-day-glo-pro-wrestling-geddup-to-defend-his-pro-wrestling-championship-show!

It'll be a guaranteed reality TV show hit! If it doesn't get canceled after the first episode, that is.

well I ma gonna watch the number 23

see how stupid it is

Gonna watch "The Numbah 23"? Just be prepared to see rubberman Jim Carrey writing "23" all over the walls and stuff... just like a tagger from L.A.!

already weird and it just started lol

I am lost.

losing Myth has made my world fall to pieces around my feet.

the only thing I have left in this world is Nicole.

So I am going to do my best to raise the money and just move.

F*ck everything.

I have had too much heartbreak here.

First the drama with E_I, now losing Myth. Myth I actually truly loved.

He was my world, my everything.

I just can't go on.

I am done searching.

I am giving up on my dreams of continuing my family.

Nicole is the greatest thing to ever happen to me.

I had hopes and dreams of a future with Myth, my beloved Myth, but that is gone now.

I really did love him, (((Princess)))

I am lost without him.


I never knew I would love him this much.

I am devastated.

Crushed.

I don't want to love again.

Just Nicole.

I can't stay here in America anymore.

It has nothing for me.

My life as an American has been a life of pain.

Being abandoned as a child, going from home to home. Finding my birth family after 26 years only to realise they could give a sh*t less. Having a marriage crumble around me as I fought to hold on. Saying good bye to my father in law, the only father I really had. Saying good bye to Nicole, not knowing when I would hold her again.

Losing the greatest love I ever had when I lost Myth.

I just can't go on.

I am so lost.

I felt my soul break today.

I just hope I can still be as good a mother to my little princess as I was before Myth came into my life.

I just feel so shattered.

((((((((HE)))))))))) I'm so sorry for your pain... Please don't let it change all you feel about everything else... Things don't always work out in love and family often lets us down.. BELIEVE ME I know... But our heart is what drives us and one day you will find the right person... sometimes we don't get what we want b/c God knows it's not right for us... He knows what's right and it will happen and be true when it's time... Be patient my friend...

I can't Princess.

I can't.

I can't go through this again.

It hurts too much.


I am going to turn 29 on Wednesday alone.


I just want to go to Israel now. Today. Leave everything behind.

I just don't care anymore.

Hun you're hurt and upset, it's understandable... I'm not sure if I have to work a long day we're having think tank meetings Mon-Wed but if I don't I'll be here for you...

Don't let a person other than your child take your happiness or love for yourself away... No one is worth that and even with our children we have to draw a healthy line...

Exactly. You can't let some dolt whiz in your beer like that. It's not worth having to go through the drama and the stress.

Just pick yourself up and dust yourself off. There'll be someone else out there.

I don't wanna.

I have friends coming over to catalog my stuff. I am going to sell my china and crystal and my computers and all the stuff that won't fit into one human sized suitcase and one little suitcase and one carry on and my purse.

I am done with this.

I just want to be with my daughter and no one else.

I am a good person.

I am a good partner.

I was a good wife.

Yaniv can definitely vouch for me there.

I was there for Myth when he needed me, through the chemo, through the recovery, I was there for him through it all.

But when I had my life start stressing me out and had to slow down us, he left.

My heart is shattered.

I am done with love.

I just want my daughter.

That's all I want.

HE I wouldn't go to any extremes just yet... It hurts I know but just give it a few days, weeks and you'll see you feel differently.. You're a very peppy person and you'll be happy again....

meh. I don't really want to be here, ((Princess))

I stopped wanting to be here after only a month of Nicole being overseas.

I had never really wanted to come back form Israel when I went for Hanukkah last Dec. I only came back because I have to sell my stuff.

Then when my father-in-law passed, I REALLY didn't want to leave.

but I came back.

I have never really wanted to come back to America. Once I saw the beauty of Israel, and met the people there, I just felt at home.

I love America, don't get me wrong. I was born here. It's kind of like that familial love. Where you love them cause their your family, but if they weren't you could give 2 craps less? Ya know?

Anyway, I belong there. I belong at my daughter's side. I belong with the rest of the Jews. (Not very many here in KS).

When I landed at Ben Gurion the first time, I felt like I was home.

Maybe this is how my life is supposed to be.

Maybe this is what was supposed to happen.

I know that Yaniv and I had discussed Myth and he had become a part of both our lives and Yaniv was waiting for me to get back to New York so he could video conference with Myth and introduce him to Nicole, but Myth's unwavering refusal to come to Israel for a visit bothered the both of us. I mean, my life is there. My WHOLE life is there.

Anyway, only time will tell.

But I know I do need to go back.

I can't bear another minute without my princess Nicole.

It will be one year today that we got on that final flight. The flight that was heavy hearted and hard for me to take, knowing I was saying good bye to 2 people I loved very much. One for forever, and one until I could see her again.

I need to do this.

I will still keep in touch though.

Well I wish you the best of luck and truly hope you find the happiness you deserve...

(((((((Prncs))))))