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It's been a long busy day -- started christmas shopping, spent time with my mom, sister and her kids... - then had my 10 year old nephew call and say he wanted to stay with me, so we went to see a movie then came back home and played yahtzee. The days I stay busy, and I'm grateful for my life, for my family and everything I have...I'm so blessed in many ways... but - There is not a night that comes when it gets any easier to walk towards my bed, to get under the covers, to look and notice he's really not there, and to know he never will be again... It's now been over 16 months since his death, but every single night the same feeling I felt the first night after he was gone is still there. I hold his pillow, sometimes talk to him (just in case he can still hear me somehow) - sometimes cry, hoping and praying one night that pain will disappear. Most nights I find myself doing little things (like posting on here) to just stay awake longer. & still wake up each morning hoping it was all just a dream and he will be there... Then, the next night it happens again... |
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I got tears in my eyes reading your post. I don't have much to say except *BIG HUG* and I hope it get's better for you as time goes by.
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It's been a long busy day -- started christmas shopping, spent time with my mom, sister and her kids... - then had my 10 year old nephew call and say he wanted to stay with me, so we went to see a movie then came back home and played yahtzee. The days I stay busy, and I'm grateful for my life, for my family and everything I have...I'm so blessed in many ways... but - There is not a night that comes when it gets any easier to walk towards my bed, to get under the covers, to look and notice he's really not there, and to know he never will be again... It's now been over 16 months since his death, but every single night the same feeling I felt the first night after he was gone is still there. I hold his pillow, sometimes talk to him (just in case he can still hear me somehow) - sometimes cry, hoping and praying one night that pain will disappear. Most nights I find myself doing little things (like posting on here) to just stay awake longer. & still wake up each morning hoping it was all just a dream and he will be there... Then, the next night it happens again... Sweets it will get easier, I promise, but you can still talk to him, he is listening. Hold on as long as you can but do not let it run your life and interfere with the people in your life who are still living |
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If it helps, keep posting here.
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my heart goes out to you
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Man. Usually I can come up with something to say. Something to make someone smile when things are bad.
For this....I have nothing. I can't even begin to imagine what going through that is like. All I can say is...
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just a constant reminder at how truly lucky I was to have had such a wonderful man to be in love with...it hurts so much that he's gone, but I'll forever feel grateful for the years we were given together. The most special gift ever given to me... how many ever love someone so much that it's literally impossible to not miss them every single day when they're gone... I was so lucky. we were. |
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Missing someone who owns your heart.
Loving them so, still not feeling their depart. Wanting to open a door and speak their name. Holding back all your screams, trying to stay tame Long hours asking GOD why, staring turns to a cry. Knowing their watching over you now, and everyday. But missing their touch, and their smiling way. Time feels so heavy, thinking I have to keep going Then a feeling you will get on lonely night. A feeling so strong, everything feeling so right. Like he was by your side, holding you tight. Feeling his peace and calm, as he shares with you GOD'S light. Time will heal the heart, And never will you both be, very far apart. |
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Missing someone who owns your heart. Loving them so, still not feeling their depart. Wanting to open a door and speak their name. Holding back all your screams, trying to stay tame Long hours asking GOD why, staring turns to a cry. Knowing their watching over you now, and everyday. But missing their touch, and their smiling way. Time feels so heavy, thinking I have to keep going Then a feeling you will get on lonely night. A feeling so strong, everything feeling so right. Like he was by your side, holding you tight. Feeling his peace and calm, as he shares with you GOD'S light. Time will heal the heart, And never will you both be, very far apart. Beautiful.
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wow....very beautiful words. Thank you for them... |
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Our loves always know when we think of them...when we miss them...when we smile for them....when we laugh at the stupid things that they did....honest love always knows....
it transcends time....place...circumstance.... The souls of those that know I loved them...know that I love them still....I gotta believe. |
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The night's keep coming, and it never gets even a tiny bit easier... Doesn't matter how busy or fulfilling any day is, at night the void can not be replaced. -It's a pain that's indescribable..., I truly hope none of you ever have to experience it. Dawn |
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Hugs to you, sweetie.......there is a thread in misc. called widows and widowers, if you need to talk to someone. If you need to I am sure my fiance would offer a shoulder, he lost his wife of 16 years two years ago. His screenname on here is TheCaptain.
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The night's keep coming, and it never gets even a tiny bit easier... Doesn't matter how busy or fulfilling any day is, at night the void can not be replaced. -It's a pain that's indescribable..., I truly hope none of you ever have to experience it. Dawn Darlin, I wish I could say I don't know how you feel but I do. Hang in there. Eventually you will be able to feel him in your dreams and be eager to sleep. If you ever need someone to talk to you are welcome to IM. |
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Our loves always know when we think of them...when we miss them...when we smile for them....when we laugh at the stupid things that they did....honest love always knows.... it transcends time....place...circumstance.... The souls of those that know I loved them...know that I love them still....I gotta believe. 100% agree with this concept. Thanks for expressing it so well. |
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I am sorry for your loss. I have never experienced that, so I can't imagine what you are going through. I know that time is supposed to heal all wounds, but if feels like it takes an eternity to do it. Just try to remember the good times when you are alone, and maybe it won't be so lonely. God bless. |
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