as I sit with the tv blaring
they report I am supposed to be caring
Instead I sit frustrated drenched from the rain
adjust how I sit to briefly relieve the pain
I wish I could believe in a love that true
Many believe in love just not love with you
the mirror I speak to get harsher everyday
but it's the only person I have to listen to what I have to say

and the only thing cold to drink is left over beer from a better time
Memories of happiness, good luck when the stars aligned
Now it's just walking under ladders and cursed by 13
I'll probably fall for a black cat bringing false hopes of love to me

The mildew smell is so intoxicating
or more likely I'm just asphyxiating
intelligence gives way to loneliness and jealousy
when I sit alone I think of you because you hurt me
what else am I supposed to do when the blood loses meaning
and the only reason that cry is to know that I'm still breathing
No money food but thats ok I can stand to lose the weight
I may be ugly but I'll at least look better during my lonely fate

As I throw away another rag that I wish was a woman
the porn is starting to get old and so is the runnin
I miss the touch of another person but I'm afraid of getting too close
Because when a woman shows her teeth she can bite off more than your nose
I've been kicked but like a loyal dog I go back for love and get more punishment
Why I want something that has always abandoned me and left me to lament
I don't understand why in the rain, body hurting, and my heart demolished
Why all I want is to be loved, but no one could love someone so unpolished

I think it's pretty darn good.:)