So I tried dating, went out a few time, had some fun times, then all contact cut off. She says it's due to my Bi-polar disorder and that I need help, (well duh!) So if I am stuck with always having to be who I am, which a part of it is this Bi-polar ****, does that mean I will always scare women off? Am I doomed to be alone? If so how do I get used to it?
The thing is I've always been like this to a degree, but it just got a lot worse after my ex-wife left and I ate a lot of mushrooms and slaughtered her lover in a lawn mower free for all. sorry, that last part was just fantasy.
I have tried to clean up a lot, in the past year I've lost 85 pounds, I'm still fat and need to lose about 40 more, but I cut back on drinking, am going back to school and am trying to get my life straightened out. It's just hard to do it on my own, sober and with out the violent collegiate activities I am used to(football) and not knowing anyone there. I guess I feel despair, loneliness and that I have no one to talk to just message boards to post my persistent whining and deep seeded self hatred.
I don't even know what I would expect anyone to reply to this posting or even expect anyone to post on this. I guess this is like me *****ing at the moon. I don't expect a reply, just sending out a signal thinking maybe someone will receive it. I am just putting it out there, hello, my name is JT, do you read me Houston?

Ok that's all I have to say about this

One word...medication.

Just what I was going to ask...are you on medication? Please get some help and live a full and happy life. It's possible!

You are not the only one with a problem. I suggest you go see a doctor about it and be honest with him. Good luck.

b*tch / vent whatever you have to do
i'll listen and have some jello and hugs waiting for you when youre all done

Sorry, this is off topic, but that dog looks like he's going for the goods. You weren't eating peanutbutter at that time were you?

LOL!

I love the see a doctor suggestion, like it's this cure all. Doctors don't know much more than you and me, they just get to give drugs to people, where I am from we called that Joey Miller, "hey joey, I feel tired" Joey would reply "Here try some methamphetamines"
Yeah I know I should be on Anti Depressants, I can't afford them, the doctor, or really anything but A little bit of food and gasoline and my OWI fines. God Bless America.

And that is why you are awesome

jt they do have progams to help with the costs of meds and dr fees.

but i agree that it is not a cure all...meds dont work for everyone.

i think jello and hugs will work best.

good luck to you

JT I'm here too if ya wanna vent, whine, whatever. I dated a guy for a year that was bi-polar. Ultimately he couldn't change what needed to change to allow him to be with me. Anyway, not everyone is afraid of it. Some understand and will work with what you are, do, have etc if you really mean something to them.

Smells like teen spirit

i get meds are good for somethings but why it is when people hear like bi polar or ADD do people right away say time for meds?

Lithium

If you're on medication, it may be time for the doc to change it to something else, because it doesn't sound like it's really working for you...
For my 2 cents on your situation: I think it is EXTREMELY important for you to succeed in all you're trying to do for yourself, ON YOUR OWN. It's unfair to put your salvation on someone else's shoulders. I'm not saying that's what you're consciously looking to do, just that if you depend too much on someone else's support for your success, you may be setting them up to fail in your eyes (and their's, if they're trying to "save" you). Depending on someone else's strength may make you lazy...and give you someone else to blame if you don't accomplish your goals. (low hurdles are easier to jump, by the way)
Ultimately, think about the sense of accomplishment you'll have to do this for your SELF. It sounds like you've come a long way, baby! Keep it goin'!

Money for one, and control too. That's the ultimate goal of the powers that be, to take us for all we are worth, and to control us as well. With all these different drugs for so called diseases, they have us eating out of the palm of their hand.

mostly it is lack of education on mental disorders. with all the comercials now days for them its just an automatic answer. jmo

like how many kids do you see that have ADD have parents that just dont care what they do or show them no attention at all

~i am not saying all are like this but the ones i know that have it this is true~

you do have a point, ive seen that myself.

what bothers me most about add in children is that often it isnt even add.


ah but the medical world is whacked most of the time...lol