Live or die, make your choice
To you this is a game, to you this is a lesson; to me this is my life
Rip the flesh and crack the bone, peek inside and see what I hide
Tear my limbs and dismember me, bit by bit you see the secrets I adore
Burn the entrails and twist me in agony; wring out the answers you seek
The key to this wicked sin is buried within the hollowness within me
Spill out my innards and see that I was always empty
This beating heart is blackened and charred
But it has stopped beating long before I played this game of yours
My blood on your hands, what do you feel?
The coldness in my veins, the fires of passion burned away long ago
Can you feel the darkness in my soul, entangling yourself on what was me
Do the secrets still agonize you? Will you play the necromancer?
Would you rip them from my carcass? Bore my eyes from my skull
Enticed by your desire would you violate sanctity and shred me to pieces?
Your lust for knowledge; there are secrets this earth was never meant to know
Toss down the remnants of who I am; leave this place with my blood singed on your memory
I am cold, I am frail; needle and thread I'll stitch myself back together
Just leave me for the crows

It was normal for what this day should become
Never did I think I would end up so numb
A simple phone call, his voice sounded dread
Then he told me...my best friend was dead
An immense torrent that this river throws down
Two young boys and a man...they drowned
His body was the only one that they found
The others it took..another whole day
The tears wouldn't stop, was this a blood price to pay?
The pain it grew worse with each day I woke
Always hoping that it was just some bad joke
But there I stood, saying my last goodbye
And once again, I started to cry
Forever and always I remember the pain
But never forget that his death wasn't in vain
A sense of comfort something I wanted to get
You'll never be forgotten, my brother, Justin Paul Witt

6-26-89 to 4-1-07

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*Note*
This poems is based on something real.
What I write isn't false
My best friend drowned in a river last year
Saving the life of his best friends mother and sister
He died a hero
And shall be forever remembered as a hero
To me, to his family, to all his friends
His memory is forever in our hears

Most likely to chase a pizza delivery guy with a crossbow armed with kittens due to canadian bacon instead of pepperoni

Almost Easy by Avenged Sevenfold

I feel insane
Every single time I'm asked to compromise
'Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance?
By the look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy

Shame pulses through my heart from the things I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains that this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin but deep inside I'm not insane

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, I'm not... not insane

(Mother)

Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But first you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I've tried to hold on as you've slowly slipped away
I'm losing the fight, I've treated you so wrong now let me make it right
(Make it alright)

I'm not insane, I'm not insane
(Ha ha ha ha ha)
I'm not insane, I'm not... Not insane

(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You'll learn your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy

Thank you

I wrote this poem mostly as fiction
But a lot of it comes from my own experiences
Now I'm still here and not dead..
I know what it's like to not be loved by a parent
And that's a feeling that inspired that poem
No matter how hard I tried
I was always knocked down
Rejected by this parent
And by others
But I persisted
And here I am stronger than ever
Though it does bother me that I have never been loved by that parent..
I still have the other one
And I have found happiness in that.

This is the story about a sad little boy,
where all his life he was treated like a toy.
He was used, and abused, because no one cared,
But he always stood back up, that much he dared.
Hated by his family, stressed by his life,
He always found comfort in a sharp metal knife.
Minute by minute he'd bleed out his sorrow,
Never knowing if he would see tomorrow.
His life, he knew, couldn't get worse from here,
so he always snuck out, drank liquor and beer.
With every little hit that he would take,
His life grew shorter, there's no mistake.
When people would ask he'd just say, "I'm fine"
He sounded so fake, like reading from a line.
Constantly rejected, he was soon casted out,
He then turned to drugs, a new addiction no doubt.
Day by day, his end soon drew near,
Carved on his arms were, "Go Die" and "Fear."
Then one day after smoking some pot,
He pulled the trigger and it ended with one shot.
Now as we stand here with this boy gone and dead,
He lives in a world without feeling so dread.
All because he never knew,
The power of those words, "I love you."

OMG THANK YOU!!
You know I do respect everyone and what they believe in.
It's their choice and if it works for them, awesome.
But people who go around shoving their views down everyone's throats are just way ignorant...

That and those people who I guess were raised to hate everyone who doesn't believe what they do...
I don't understand that...
Christianity is about being open and kind and loving everyone so why completely bash and slander someone because they don't share your views.. I sense a bit of a contradiction there >.<

Well you do have an extremely valid point there.
I honestly can't answer that question...and I'm glad that you mentioned that...
Why should I label myself as a "Satanist" and conform with all the other non-conformers?

Hmm
What a conundrum :P

I myself don't follow the path(s) that believe in a Satan as a deity. If you have heard of the man, Anton Szandor LaVey, then you may know of his works, but I follow his the path he created.

I believe in an inner expression of my personality and my own self indulgences. Those said "7 Deadly Sins" - Pride, Anger, Lust, Greed, Sloth, Envy, Gluttony - are all part of human nature. Now while we should all know by common sense how to control and limit these "sins", I find a balance in controlling/indulging in these, the very principles of human nature. Sure maybe I like to have things for myself or maybe I like what other people have, but that doesn't mean I won't help others out or compliment them on what they own either. All of us express anger in some form of another, again its human nature, why shun that as a sin? Now granted I'm not the guy that's going to fuel my anger and take it out on everything, I know my own limits on these.

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Male
Hagerstown, MD

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Love the youth

And I highly mean that. The following post may not exactly agree with your beliefs but I urge you to keep an open mind and hear me out. I'm not here to preach or convert, just discuss. If you feel that this page is a bit extreme, please leave, please don't slam what I have to say.

-Satanism-

It's a bit of a touch subject but I try to get the information out because when so many people hate me for what I believe in...it's frustrating.

First of all.. Satanism isn't about sacrificing animals, people, or anything of that nature. Satanism focuses on individualism and avoiding herd conformity. It's not about complete anger and hatred and being mean to everyone and everything. I understand that the name itself is something not many talk about, only because they believe that the name itself invokes the worship of a Satan or a Devil. While in some cases this is true, there are many paths of Satanism that believe that "Satan" is just an expression of your inner personality and carnal desires. Satanism is about our natural human instincts in which a lot of religions try to shun us away from. It's about indulgence instead of abstinence.

I myself am a Satanist and I bear no shame in sharing with you. I hope that what little I have said will not affect how you see me as a person.

I totally agree with you.
I will admit I used to be like that.
I was very pessimistic about dating after past relationships and it really screwed me over.

I think over the time I've spent being single I've come to terms with myself and no longer am like that. My previous relationships are done and over with, so no reason to bring them back up. Time to move on and keep my spirits up and find that special someone.

I'm not giving up now, because I've come a long way over the past 10 months.

Or a curse?
I'm not asking you to tell me if I'm your type, because more than likely I'm probably not...
I'd like to know just how well I got things together on my profile.

Constructive criticism is greatly appreciated.

Thanks :]]
I hope so too

And I'm sure I'll have loads of fun ^_^

Just dropping by to say hello.
Hoping to meet some cool people and maybe even someone special in my area.
I'm always open for a good talk so send me a message sometime :]