AS THE ROUGH WATERS SETTLE AND AGAIN BECOME CALM AND TRANQUIL, AS THE HEAVY WINDS BEGIN TO LIGHTEN TO A GENTLE FLOWING BREEZE, AND THE STORMY GREY CLOUDS PART TO REVEAL A GLISTENING BLUE SKY WITH BRIGHT RAYS OF LIGHT, EVERYTHING COMES INTO FOCUS AGAIN...
YOU ARE AGAIN ABLE TO SEE WHERE WATER RUNS INTO LAND, AND WHERE THE SKY SEPERATES FROM THE OCEAN, EVERYTHING IS CLEAR AND FAMILIAR AGAIN WITH A HINT OF BEAUTY FROM SOME MYSTERIOUS FACE PRESENT, THAT IS NOT ALARMING BUT REFRESHING, AND A MOMENT OF CLARITY PLACES ITSELF WITHIN YOU, IT FALLS INTO YOUR GRASP AND SIGHT GRACEFULLY, AND IT AWAKENS YOUR ABILITY TO CONCIEVE THE REALIZATION THAT YOU HAVE SURVIVED THE STORM, AND THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT...
THEN AN OVERWHELMING SENSE OF RELIEF AND PEACEFULNESS IS AROUSED IN YOUR HEART...AND JUST LIKE A RAY OF LIGHT THAT SHINES THROUGH, THAT IS THE FEELING I GOT THE MOMENT I MET YOU...

Once again with the coming of night
The air cools with the dying of the light.
soon again i’ll fight
The memories that still fill my sight.
No longer caring for wrong or right
All i seek is an end to this flight.

Once i was the hero for a day.
Eyes of evil followed me into dismay.

With my strength i kept the devil away.

Until i decided to deceive and betray.
Soon after i was lost and found no way
To ever again be able to fight another day.

Another empty day bleeds into something.
Another empty night bleeds into nothing.
anger and hate cannot ever bring
Peace to my soul. help me end the trembling
i feel. still at the point of no return.

i carry this burden so eternity i shall burn.....

im alone again..stuck in this dark corner of my mind..i hear the devil whispering telling me its ok to end my life..i pray to god to help me thru this..but i get no answer so to me he is useless...there is no solution to my state of confusion..but..the pills will ease my pain..yes the pills will ease my pain..i remember when times were simple and carefree..when nothing else existed but you and me..im stuck in the past i can never leave this place for as long as i hear your voice and see your face..but..the pills will ease my pain..yes the pills will ease my pain..i'v lost my love, friends all that a man can lose..so you see its getting that much easier for me to choose..hell...hell is where i will go if i choose this oneway ride..guns, blades and pills straight thoughts of suicide..i lay on the pillow..i will cry no more... as the last tear hits the pillow..the bottle hits the floor..the pills will ease my pain..yes..the pills will ease my pain..as you stand over my grave dont you shed a tear..my body may be gone but my spirit is still here..so have a few drinks on me and remember the past..when you think about me may you smile and have a few laughs..i see now that all who loved me gave and all i did was take..i realize now that this was a big mistake..the pills didnt ease my pain...no..the pills didnt ease my pain...i talk to you but you dont hear me...i lay with you but you dont feel me...this pain i feel will never be undone...now i know my hell has just begun..this endless pain and suffering i can not bare...now i must walk alone in the sands of despair..no..the pills didnt ease my pain...no..the pills didnt ease my pain

I wish there was someone out there,
Someone, for me;
But that can never be,
Love does not know my name;
I wish there was some way
to forget
you,
And all that comes with you;
But each time I step outside. I hear your soft whisper;
And my heart aches to try
again
to introduce myself to Love;
And even though I know
you
don't feel
the same,
I still dream that
you do,
And secretly cry and pray
that
one day,
I won't need to dream any more.

So I build my castle each day,
And see it wash away;
And yet I know in my heart,
that I will never be
what
you
want;
I've known it forever---
That, you---
don't love, me---
But isn't it funny,
How we can see things so easiley,
but yet be so blind?

You've got a lot of nerve to look
me in the eye,
When you've done what you've did
And made me cry.
You wanted the upper hand,
By hitting me in the only spot
I couldn't defend;
The hope of love,
For I still believe it'll fly high like a dove.
And you still think I don't know it,
Well if knowledge is power you're losin' it;
But here's the question What am I going to do about you?
Hear me, hear me now--
While my piece of mind screams out loud;
How could you?
When I was so good to you?
You really did fool me
And led me astray,
But now I'm going to make you pay.
Attention ***** this is your test,
You've caused me a lot of distress;
But now I'm coming back,
Like a linebacker about to make his
sack;
But some day--
you are going to pay;
It may or may not be me,
But I want to be there and see;
See that you get what you deserve,
For it'll be like a perfect dessert,
After a horrible meal,
And that's my question to you,
Should I forgive and forget
you or let you be you? Or be patient and trust
that you'll get it in
the end,
Whatever the answer it'll be from within;
And believe me ***** I'll eventually
get my revenge.

As I held you in my arms
I felt my heart lose itself
Thinking of the plans of forever
Breathing the hopes of us.

But you have slipped from my finger tips
You have found me wanting
Not to your expections.

I'm a dreamer
And I regret my life
And who I am

With my last breath
I apologize to all I have loved

I am sorry I have let you down
Not been the dream you wished
The reality you desired

I tried
I failed
I accept my punishment

And in my last moment
My thoughts turn to you
They always have

I love you

As I take your hand I feel a trembling in my heart
Never have I been more scared than at this moment

What can I possible offer you?
Do you even realize who I am?
Imperfect, jealous, flaws of a man and
So far to go to be what you dreamed of
But who has already traveled so far

I believe in romance
My heart exists to "try"for you
I have loved you before I met you
I will love you even if you ever leave me

My life has been a good one
I cannot complain
But I am incomplete without you.
Only you can fulfill a dream.

I offer each day as a chance to make you smile
From roses to wine
From snowball fights to summer nights.
A love for all seasons
A man who would swear to thank God each day
For you in my life

I can not offer you a perfect man
Just a man who perfectly wants you

I need you
I love you
And I adore you

"Will you?"

Love is always the hardest thing to say

No one knows what it really means

Maybe an expression to show that you care

Or maybe a word that people use

Just to be using it

But when I say it to you

Its from the heart

So it means that much more

I say it to you

Because I do

I do love you

No one has ever made me feel like this

I feel like Im back in high school

With an 9th grade crush

You make me happy

Full of joy, Full of love How do you feel about this?

Do you feel something special inside?

Im hoping you do

Because I do

I do love you

It hurts when Im away from you

When I dont talk to you

I feel my world has ended

My heart has shattered

My blood flows no more

My brain stops

My body shuts down

Its so much I wanna tell you

But dont know how

But then again I do

I do love you...

I stare into the eyes of someone unknown
Someone who's lost without a home..stuck in a world where i dont belong..i cant shed no tears cause i have to stay strong..
I realize the man before me is no longer a man but a certainty..

My personality has disappointed me
I cant do anything for myself..but sit and dream of fame,fortune and wealth..
My reality was appointed to me
And im sorry
Im sorry for who I am
Who've Ive been
And who I'll be
Im sorry Ive never been
What you wanted to see
And that I cannot be anything
Other than me..
There is some power that controls me..
something won't let me be me..
My fear of life
Caused by a blurred sight
Only hurts me....
My silence no longer protects me
The world does nothing but reject me..
My heart has never felt anything
Worth feeling..
Loves hands have never touched me..
Never hugged me..
Love never grabbed me by the hand..Love has never lived in me..
My heart has a hole
which may never be full
Because love looks beyond me..
Beyond my body
A man lies weeping..
Beyond my soul
i see darkness..
Beyond
My existence
A man is scared to be..
Scared to see..
Scared to believe..That someone is out there who could love me..
Im scared to share with others what love would mean to me..
What a best friend could do for me..
Im scared to confess my reality..
maybe Im lonely
Because of something about me..
Maybe Im not loved because of something thats inside of me..
Maybe Im not understood because I have chosen to be Utouched, Unhurt
Because I have felt unloved..
And so Ive lived
Without a word
Of who I am to me...
Mostly because Im still unsure of who I want to be..
or maybe you've never been sure of who you want to see..
Who you wish I could be..
you're not to blame
Because I myself do no believe.. that my goals in life i will achieve..
i must move foward...on the past i cannot dwell..on the path to heaven but i must fight to get out of this hell.....I BELIEVE IN ME!!!