Papa Roach-Done with you

north west pa here

What, tell me what are you feeling
As you lay there breathing
Breath... do memories keep
Flashing through your mind
I watch you...watch you
as you lay there breathing
Are you dreaming...am i dreaming
Cuz you're not there
You never were never here
I long to hear oh long to hear
Your steady breathing as you lay near
Once again just one more time
Our breathing in tume with time
Way back when.....
When you were mine

Thank you for reading!

I am so sorry t hear of this. It's so not fair and hurts to be played with like that.

Oh what wicked thoughts twist about
Fill my mind with hope and doubt
Whither away with every fray i grab onto
Not sure where if here or maybe even there
Not sure where to find what i am looking for
A stray thought that drifts away before it's caught
A memory of what could be but never was or would it be
These such things confusing me, abusing me
Wonder deep within the mess that is my memory
The doubt of what this is confusing me
I look away so not to see the hope of what i wish this to be
Look away quickly before my thoughts start drowning me
Forget the want the wish the need...but then again
The want i need but wish it to be more.....
Than just the want and need of you and me
Oh what wicked thoughts twist about

Now as the night creeps in
I can feel it all around me
Fall is falling into place
Summer has now been erased
The evening air brings a chill
As i sit here looking at the world so still
The night grows dark at an early hour
Makes me somewhat bitter and sour
Won't be long, the leaves will change
The grass wont grow, no summer flowers remain
Yes....
Fall is falling into place

Your touch.....
The feel of your hands
Gliding across my skin
Your gaze....
Such fire in you eyes
Inviting me in
Into an evening of passion
Of sin
Your kiss....
So warm so wet...so hungry
And yet so tender
Soft lips carressing my skin
As we lay bodies intertwined
Drowning in passion blind



(9/19/09)

A time not so long ago
Night had fallen
Softly upon the earth
Filled with stars so bright
Hard to believe it was deep
Within the darkened night
Walking this path i go on
Led by the stars above
The evening air thick and sweet
Sound of gravel beneath my feet
A light evening breeze
Catching my dress
Whisping my hair
Away from my face
Softly i sing as i walk along
Each step i take
Leads me closer to your place
Where you wait for me
With a sweet kiss to greet
Wrap me in your arms
Fingers in my hair
Deep kiss, passionate complete
Hands caressing everywhere
Hearts beating,racing faster
As sweat drips from our bodies
Our night embrace we ache in wait
Hot sweet intimate pleasure
Time has stopped,forget the clock
This night shall go on forever
Warm wet lips kissing my body
My body aches with every touch
Kiss you softly here and there
Run my hands across your chest
As my tongue explores the rest
Our burning fever desire so hot
Bodies arching and aching
There'll be no more waiting
Take me and fill me
So deeply, completely
We ride the wave of passion
Again and again
Left breathless and endless
This night shall never end

Its sad how society and hollywood view weight.
My daughter is 6" tall and 147 shes a size 3 but very muscular and she thinks shes fat!
Im a bit over weight...im 5'7 and 168 a size 10...but am told i look like a size 7 cuz i carry my weight well and am muscular.
the way i look at it is, i'm happy with myself. Anmd if someone else dosent like how i look.....then dont look at me!

The first things i notice are their eyes and smile!

Today this day
As i sit here
My thoughts drift away
And i think of you
A smile so warm
And eyes bright with shine
I think of you
And wish you were mine
Tonite this night
As i lay here
My dreams carry me away
And i think of you
A heart so loving
And a soul so sweet and kind
I think of you
And wish you were mine
Today this morning
I wake in mourning
My mind realizing
I was only dreaming of you
Of the love i so long to find
And i wish u were were mine

As the night falls
Slowly covering me
In a blanket of stars
I drift off to dream
Oh yes, a dream it must be
For you are right here beside me
Wrapped in my arms and i in yours
I can't see your face
Don't know who you are
Yet here in my dreams
I feel so complete
So contented completely
As you hold me so sweetly
If only to know....
Who you are
Where you are
When you will find me

Thanks for readin and your kind words

Oh and now has come the time
Yes the time....
To invade my mind
To take the time
To slowly unravel,unwind
The pain i find
Hidden deep inside
When life gets hard
And i hit the ground
I fake a smile
To hide my frown
When in reality...
Within my own tears
I just may drown
For oh so long
I've done just that
Turned my cheek, so to speak
And shown my pain my back
There comes a time
I must unwind
Unravel all the tightly coiled pain
So that i may live again
So that i may breath again
So that i may love again

Happiness is nothing more
Than a bitter pill that slowly klls
Going down so smoothy C
reating a false soothing
Euphoria kicks in
Feeling no pain...happiness in vain
You see now thats how it works
A false hope
Smiling, laughter and love
As if sent from above
Just give it time
As it slowly works and breaking down
Your smile will soon become a frown
Your world will soon turn upsidedown

Can happily say i am taken!!!!!!!!!

Wonder the night
Walking the streets
Wrapped in a blanket of stars
As i sleep
Dreaming of nothing
And everything at once
Of what once was
And is yet to be
Dreaming of you....
And your arms wrapped around me
Dreaming of you....
And wondering if one day
You'll hurt me
My heart has just healed
Just sealed the last crack
Can u blame me for guarding it
Afraid you will take it...
Just to turn and give it back
You're one in a million
So honest and true
You've given me no reason
To ever feel blue
Yet deep inside a part of me
Is afraid to fall in love with you

A summer breeze
Blows through the trees
And somehow i am at ease
No anger no fear no doubt mind clear
So calm and serene
My mind wiped clean
of all the decaying debris
All the hurt
All the hell
As only time could tell
And time could heal
Are gone frome me
And a sumer breeze
Blows through the trees

Promises....all these broken promises
Promises....Empty worthless promises
Promises made everyday
Never held but taken away
Promises to myself...
To change, rearrange
Promises to myself...
All lined upon this shelf
This one i made the day you went away
Promised myself i'd never fall again
Promised to never again give in ...
To a monster behind a grin
This one i made when i fell from grace
Promised myself i'd stand again
Promised to love myself and who i am
Promised made every day
Never held but taken away
Lonleyness creeps in.....
It's not love that finds me...
But evil flashing a grin
Users,abusers,wolves in sheeps clothing
Breakin my heart and bruising my soul
And again i'll make promises
promises to myself.....
Only to line them upon this shelf
All my broken promises