Both...

Thanx Everyone ^^


Well, its a bit odd, but I can type and write well enough, but when it comes to literaly opening my mouth, That is when I struggle, I can see/think what I want to say, but in most cases it never comes out

I dont have much experince with doing for myself, I wasnt taught that, I have an idea, but Im still working on it

I aslo enjoy the fall

Nearly everything about it

Always odd conversations here....


Not that mine arent....but still..




Hello to Everyone by the way ^^"

Anyone like the fall season more then the others?
What is it that you like most of Fall?

Hello and Welcome

Thanx Lex ^^


That means a lot to me ^^

Thanx ^^


My mother and brothers are the only ones who havent fallen, but they also have their faults, like everyone else does, but my brother is just starting to well for himself, I would like to catch up to him soon

No, but their drinking has caused much loss
I dont want to blame them
What happened, happened

I will have to just do better than them

I see what you mean, than I Will have to give up on them, I was afraid that would happen, but it will be for my better


It inteferes with everything I do, I cant even stand next to people without my knees shaking, I cant look up, once in a while I will be approached, and I just cant bring myelf to say anything more than half the time, maybe if someone asked me a Yes or No questions I qould nod, but thats really about it, It has hurt me in many ways, it has created a place where oppurtunities seem to be my blind spots, Its fustrating...

Yes, I would like to move on aswell,

It would mean leaving my family behind, nearly all of them
But I still care about them, for reason Im not completly sure, I would like to "Save" them in a sense, That is my goal, or at least was, Im a bit lost on what the biggr picture is and where I fit in it...ut I think that omes in times, much to soon for me I guess

Thanx Soufie ^^



Im glad to have meet many here aswell

Hello Live ^^




Im trying ^^

Hello Venus and Trout ^^




I will look into that, thanx ^^

Thanx ^^

Im glad some enjoy my post...Im always curious f that ^^"




I would like to change the cycle, I really do hate sitting at home and dwelling on the past and damning myself for not being able to make myself motivated to go out and find people....I really do like people, I enjoy company.....more now than every since my family is all split up

Hello
Im sure many already know me as DeathsTreaty, the screen name that you can see, My real name is Matthew Rivera, if you were curious and didnt know. The name DeathsTreaty is a name of that carries part of the burden of my Anti-social behavior. I have trouble speaking to people. I much rather be left alone in a corner till I die, but than there is another part of me that doesnt want that, I call him DeathsTreaty, sometimes Mort. DeathsTreaty wants to be someone and wants to see a change not just for himself but for the few that are around him. The little family that surrond him are important. When I was very young, I was around my family from both my mothers side and fathers side. I cant remeber a day I didnt smile when they were around, not a day I didnt laugh, not a night that I could not sleep well. I felt honored to have such a loving family, one that cares so deeply for each other. I did not have many friends, in fact, I only had one. He lived down the block form me, we knew each other since 2nd grade, and we still see each other once in a while. Today I can not call him a friend, he was lost in the world of drugs and crime. the Friend I made is dead, his body and mind are there, but not him, not the person I knew. This took me time to relize, and even longer to get use to. Part of me died with that, I didnt know how to make friends, still dont. I lived a life with deperession, and anti-social behavior, and a family that lost their way and lied. But I didnt know, I couldnt understand that. I only saw them smile, but later relized that those smiles were from all the alchohol they drank, and the tears were from all the lies they made, and the lives they made, the childeren they had, the family, the next generation that I felt and saw the same as me, we all grew into the lies. but didnt know they were to balme. the time we spent, I still question if any of that was real.

...I wanted to share my story....Thanx for reading if you do...I kind of feel a bit better...

Welcome Fear


Thanx for your answers and participation, for those who did



DeathsTreatys University is no more, andy seems like he can do a good job (much better than I), plz keep the thread alive while Im not around ^^

or not....thats ok too... ^^"

all of mine die out eventually...and quickly...so I would understand

DeathsTreaty does...its not an orange this time...Someone I talked to when I first came to mingle, last I heard from her was her being in a car crash and recovering welland she didnt plan to come back...think that was about two years ago...

Im going to let this one go from now... ^^"

^^"


He should have enough money....


Dont think he will go after you of mingle....but....would be funny to see ^^"






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