dont we all?

haha. nice. i think i shall.

lol thanks. I might say the same to you, if i could see your face lol

I have changed a bit..hair, weight...demeanor lol
Its nice to see a few familiar faces tonight, I must admit.

Thank you, Indigo.
I have always appreciated your input on my writings and posts. Its nice to hear from you again.

So after six months I finally have my license, I am in school and doing reasonably well and I am almost on my way to having everything i really want in life.

So whats my problem?

Everyday I go into work I deal with people who have never had any training in how to deal with people. They are rude, inconsiderate spiteful people, and after 8 months I have finally had enough.

I have dealt with sexual harassment, not feeling safe in my environment, constant rumors, and endless backstabbing, not to mention seeing constant safety and health code violations broken.

It is a horrible, stifling environment.

After a couple of months of putting in applications I finally have a job interview with Enterprise. And now I'm at the point where I am almost in tears each time I have to go into my job.

If I had the support of my family, I would quit, but the minute I need to vent I get criticism and judgment.
"Your going to end up just like so and so"
"Well what are you going to do in life?"

Like everything I have accomplished means nothing.

For once I would just like to have people step into my shoes and deal with the circumstances I deal with and see what they have to say!

I have reamained silent for long enough and i just need to vent!

Hello Dt, Pleasant dreams

it would interesting.

but then you would have to be stuck inside a cave with me.

this morning i found three dollars on the ground.
i thought it was a omen of the fortune that was to come, and so despite this hideous cold you have smote me with, i forbore my urge to skip classes and carried on in high hopes, certain that the day would be good.
i was confident that i would pass my driving test and that by the morrow i would be a licensed driver, on my way to owning a car.
little did i know that you, oh powerful powers that be, had used that three dollars as ploy to deceive me.
the day was short and somewhat pleasant, i must concede, yet i coughed and i hacked and finally came home to have my dreams of said car smashed to smithereens.
yes, oh dear powers that be, i know we have had our small disagreements, i being of the belief i should have at least ONE thing in my life come without a struggle, and you being of the belief that things should happen only to amuse you, but i have to know, ohmightygods,
WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DISPLEASE YOU
??????
i can find no virgins to sacrifice and im fresh out of lambs, but one would think that after so many years together we might come to an understanding!
unlike the emotional and and unstable muses, i would think there would be some reason to your whims.

im going to start worshipping logos.
you have fun with your drama.
oh wicked powers that be.

same to you hun, and crazy busy.
my best friend is getting married, i started school and i work constantly...CRAZY! but happy. for the most part

hey pats, how have you been? long time no speak

not so much angry as indignant.
im about to monologue with said powers and try to reason...i hope the invisible thing isnt too much of a problem

haha too bad i dont have one

gah!!!!

HOW DOES THIS ALWAYS FREAKING HAPPEN?!?!?!?
For the like three months i have been trying to get my license so that A: I can get a freaking car and B: so that i can be a manager.
I have studied for MONTHS! I think i have the whole damn book memorized by now!
gah!
and what should happen? my uncle goes out of town, i study from the wrong book(happened the first time) some holiday that noone but the post office has ever heard of magically happens the day i go up there...WHAT THE F PEOPLE?
does my driving not please the gods?
should i sacrifice my cat? any goats around? what about virgins??????any of them want to meet the gods?????
lord have mercy i dont think ill ever get a license!

of things we write in flesh and stone
carved in the white of healthy bones,
of things which scar and things which bleed
of things we desire not to leave,
of all of these but one is sure
pen and paper are a better cure

i always come out when its rainy and gray,
when the sun turns it back on any old day,
i never see color, it's always the same
in fact i don't think i even know their names!

people spin me and twirl me, making me sick
and laugh cause my skin is shiny and slick
and oh i am sad that i cant see the sun!
being an umbrella is not any fun!

mud splashes all over and im left in the cold
people grip me too tightly, afraid theyll lose hold.
and sometimes it happens, yes even to me,
they place me to dry and forget so completely!

being an umbrella is not any fun
i never see color or even the sun
but i guess its ok, since i keep people dry
but im always left wondering why the sky has to cry

you too, dear, long time no see.

I created you a monster, ravaged by the hands of love

Broken by the violence of trying to let you go.

A tempestuous rage building in the fire of your voice

Every moment tainted with the apparition of your soul

The yearning to hold on takes over all I am

Going through the motions so the demons don’t take hold

I don’t know how to let you go, fate has led me to you,

And its desire has left me damned