I missed cuddling and kisses, sharing with him everything on one plate and one spoon feeding each other I missed laying down in his chest, I misses his arm as my pillow, I missed his lap as it was my everyday's chair to sit on.

I missed him giving me a rub and show me every day, a lot to miss from my past relationship including hands holding I hope to find someone who will give me the same as he will be given same back from me.

Is better you try and see what is out there than wondering. I loved once and he was my first lover and end up heart broken, I gave him 100% we had a good time with crazy love that was 3yrs ago but I still love him any time I try to love someone I always see his picture in my face, whenever I try to think about someone he stack in my thoughts, when I try to kiss someone he comes in my mind and stop before my lips goes, when I try to touch or someone else to touch me I stop before my fingers or his fingers touch. He is stuck in my life what can for him to get him out of my mind? we have a little girl together and I am like I live with him. He lives in me without being with me.