i wonder if he is out and having fun,
i wonder if he ever even misses me at all.
i wonder if he thinks about his infant son,
and if he does then why cant he ever call.

i wonder if he misses the look in my eyes,
when i told him i loved him before we went to sleep.
i wonder if he regrets any of his stupid lies,
or if he even cares that all i do is weep.

i wonder if he wishes there was something he could change,
if he could erase the bruise thats on my face.
i wonder if he feels life without me is strange,
or is he happy that he's in another place.

i wonder why it happened, did i do something wrong?
but i gave it my all i know that without a doubt.
so i must hold my head up for my son and be strong,
but i still wonder if he wonders what im wondering about.

i wrote this not to long after me and my husband got into a fight and he hit me... it kinda helped... but at the same ime the hurt will always be there, im sure there is plenty of women who can relate..... i used to think that that would never happen to me that i would always be loved... no matter how drunk he got, or how many drugs he did... no matter how much he yelled he would never hit me... well guess what... he did. so to all females in the world... if a man who says he loves you can raise his voice to you on a daily basis, make you cry every night, and lower rate you to the point were you dont care about your self anymore.... ladies thats not love... thats control. please get away from it or the same thing could happen to you...



Niki W. poem wrote july 24th 2007

i think physically... think about it when you see someone you are attracted to... aint that physical? i think it is... but i aint the brightest bulb in the hallway so i may be wrong!

When i first saw you i was afraid to talk to you,
When i first talked to you i was afraid to like you,
When i first liked you i was afraid to hold you,
When i first held you i was afraid to kiss you,
When i first kissed you i was afraid to Love you,
Now that i love you Im afraid to lose you.
*Niki a.k.a Luscious*

When i first saw you i was afraid to talk to you,
When i first talked to you i was afraid to like you,
When i first liked you i was afraid to hold you,
When i first held you i was afraid to kiss you,
When i first kissed you i was afraid to Love you,
Now that i love you Im afraid to lose you.
*Niki a.k.a Luscious*

wow... that almost brought tears to my eyes!! you have a beautiful way of putting words!!

WOW!! thanks yall! i havent had this many people talk to me since 9th grade! lol im glad there are nice people on here and not a bunch of a** holes like half the guys i dated... hopefully that can change, has anyone on here had a successful hook up and it land in a good relationship? if so please give me details!

wow... this is my first time doing the whole internet dating thing, so i dont know exactly what to say. so maybe one of you sweeties on here can kinda help me out and give me a good idea of what to do?¿? lol someone help! thank you! Niki a.k.a Lil-Naughty