Empaths shouldn't see this :( ;1

There is definitely an increase in the sex trafficking business in the prostitution industry. Also organized crime plays a big role too. Law enforcement especially vice uses different techniques and tools and at different times of choice to enforce prostitution laws. I have seen an increase in young men trafficking women from southern states up north for the purposes of prostitution. There are also known massage parlors with women who don't even speak English that also provide additional services that advertise on back page and others. It can't be argued that many innocent women and children are being exploited all over the world. There are other moral issues but they say you can't legislate morality especially in a world where morality is so undefined. Add to that the world wide internet where policing is impossible and well what a hot mess we have. It's all out there for all of us from the minute we have access to an app phone, a tablet or a library card.

The memories of the greatest highs of the short lived romance of late when my heart raced at a we really click moment of conversation and I looked at her face and into her eyes as she smiled back at me and for that moment all was right with the world and I was in heaven as far as I could imagine.
That's what makes me smile!

I personally do desire an imperfect mate. It may be a defect but I have been through so much in my life that I often either subconsciously or consciously seek out damaged or even handicapped individuals as it has been pointed out to me on various occasions. It has been said in a recent conversation that men like to feel needed by their women. Maybe that's it or I don't know but I am drawn to women who I see as needing me whom I feel want to advance but if only they had the right person in their corner. Unfortunately that policy usually blows up in my face and leaves me crushed and maybe that's what lead me to sites like this but what can I say? I'm still learning myself and what's best for me at this late in the game.

I am bipolar and although I don't proudly proclaim it as an opening statement, I make no attempt to hide it. There are several types and degrees of bipolar. I myself in my worst case have never lashed out at others and have only been dangerous to myself. The thing about some bipolars, myself included is we often are quite creative and artsy and in my case an extreme empath. On the manic side we can often get so much done and have such energy and creativity while on the depressive side we feel the weight of all the pain in the world, especially any personal emotional turmoil throughout our entire lives all at the same time. We can become almost paralyzed with depression for extended periods of time. For each extreme high is an extreme low with no balance. That's where science, psychiatrist and pharmaceuticals come into play. I find my best medicine is my writing. I do have minimal medical treatment but my major therapy is my passion and that gives me balance and stability. I don't know if I'll ever find my mate but as long as I have my romantic dream and my vision I have peace.

I notice a lot of fake pics and when you send a reply you can tell they either didn't read it or ignored every word and only want you to email or text a text only number. in the past on another site the first time I emailed I was sent a picture with a virus and so much porn spam so I got so paranoid about this happening again I might have missed some legitimate opportunities. Leave it to me to go all in on the conspiracy theory.
I'd like to know what is the prevalence and when does the background check come into play with so much technology at our fingertips.

SWEET SMILING FROWN

She’s forever got a piece of my heart.
I guess I knew it from the start.
From that first time that we met,
the conditions all wrong. Put it out of my head.
Would be totally preposterous, just a major insult,
but already she had me, owned a piece of my heart.
I could comfortably accept it.
I could see it would never work.
She’s a raging volcano and I’m a ticking time bomb.
Just leave the beauty alone and watch the flower bloom.
And if I happen to catch the rare smile,
it’s like a rainbow at noon as it colors the sky
with rays of hope and bright sunshine
that burns clouds away and dries up the rain,
a taste of happiness sweet dessert
through way too much bitter pain.
Once this volcano erupted, spewed hot lava on me,
burned my skin away and smoked up my eyes.
I was so confused as I thought I was help,
so caught off guard, didn’t have a clue.
The sky became dark and grey
as the insults filled every bystanders ears.
The heat was so great, it nearly brought me to tears.
So the ticking time bomb finally exploded,
but too little too late,
was no match for volcano of such magnitude.
Swallowed up in the eruption and so easily calmed down,
used love’s sweet smiling frown.
Even in great anger
I had to admire this ridiculous woman,
had put out my fire and dispelled my rage.
I knew I had to escape and get to safe ground
and yet some sickness inside me
still wishes she were around.

By Jude Richardson

Love is real. There are different kinds of love and different reasons for love. Some love a mate for what that person looks like and can do for them and if one changes so does the love. Some love for the shared things or interest or things in common or for the opposite things that compliment each other, for selfish reasons or unselfish reasons or any combination there of when it comes to love of mate. I think the greatest love in relationships is the love that no matter what drew the pair together grew so strong and becomes so committed that even if the looks are lost and the finance dwindles and the things so enjoyed that brought the couple together are no longer, a spiritual connection and a moral fiber and a memory so passionate that the union will not die as long as the two are still alive and the one will always be there for the other even putting their needs on the back burner as their partner needs them more without reservation and the heart feels compelled to do this. To me this is the truest, strongest, realest, most romantic love and nothing else matters when it comes a romantic relationship. I dream of it. I pray for it. I write about it. I would treasure one year of life in this relationship more than one hundred without it.

FRIENDSHIP PLUS MORE
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August 24, 2011 at 7:43am


YOU ARE MY PROOF THAT GOD DOES EXIST.

YOU'VE SHOWN ME HEAVEN THOUGH WE'VE NOT EVEN KISSED.

YOUR MERE PRESENCE, A MIRACLE; YOUR COMPANY, A DELIGHT,

AS MY EYES FEAST ON A MAGNIFICENT SIGHT.

YOU MAKE MY HEART RACE THOUGH I FEAR SUCH A PACE.

BUT I AM THE BOLD ONE AND I DARE TO TASTE.

IF GIVEN A CHANCE, IF YOU CAN RELATE,

IF YOU SHARE MY CARE, IF YOU CAN DEPEND,

IF YOU CAN TRUST ME THEN I WILL DEFEND.

THEN I WILL PLLEDGE AND I WILL ENJOY

MAKING YOU SMILE AND MAKING YOU LAUGH.

WHAT EVER THE HURDLE ON THIS OBSTACLE COURSE

I SHALL CONQUER WITH LOVE AND NOT FORCE

IF YOUR PATH IS DIFFERENT AND YOU CAN'T RELATE

THEN I CAN ACCEPT THAT THIS IS THE FATE.

BUT STILL YOUR SPIRIT QUICKENS MY PACE

AND RENEWS MY FAITH IN THE HUMAN RACE.

YOURS IS A FRIENDSHIP I HOPE NEVER TO LOOSE.

BUT WE COULD GO MUCH FURTHER IF THATS WHAT WE CHOOSE.

BUT EVEN IF NOT, PLEASE DON'T FORGET THAT YOURS IS A FRIENDSHIP

I HOPE NEVER TO LOOSE.

Now that's what I'm talking about! I do believe we're on the same page

What a beautiful example of how contagious and infectious God's love can be. Just as people pass on hate, so can we pass on and spread love. Kudos to you Ladywind for lighting the fire. It's smoke got me a little teary eyed.

I am compelled to comment in this forum. My understanding is there is such a thing as pure love and perfection that has no beginning and no end. Everything else does have a beginning and therefore was created by that which always was. The pure love allowed it's creations to be individual beings capable of making it's own decisions whether good or bad and each decision affects other beings thus setting forth great shock waves and chain reactions throughout humanity. The first to choose against the creator started this reaction. I must add that other spiritual beings created chose to revolt against the creator first and were banished from the creator and did participate in tempting the first humans to choose to break the creators pact with them whom he had given all to. The creator became as his creations in flesh yet still unblemished in spirit and allowed his creations to inflict him with the punishment of all their infractions, dying for us all that we might be born anew without the blemish of that first sin which set off that great chain reaction of sin throughout history even now and tomorrow that if we confess and although imperfect follow his example of perfection, recognize our errors and confess and try, try again that by his grace and through his holy perfect love in his holy spirit we will be washed clean of our sin and though we die we will join him and live eternally with him. I as you can tell am no theologian but this is how I comprehend what I have read, been taught and have heard in regards to my faith, science and common sense. I believe there is no conflict between evolution and creation but science doesn't have all the answers, just theories that may be in many cases half truths, near truths and close falsities with the real truth being very close or totally different. But faith doesn't require exact scientific detail but knowledge, common sense, history and faith. It's more irrational to me to believe that something like the universe the planet and life could be random without any great intelligence or superior spiritual power behind it. How do you answer the question what was before everything that ever was not?

WARNING: DO NOT ATTEMPT TO OPERATE WITHOUT CAFFEINE!!!

I think the best way to relieve some of the inner pain is to do what good we can Ladywind. Do you agree?

They say there are no new stories, just different versions or creative ways of presenting them.

I feel like I just discovered a hidden treasure in these wonderful poems. Thank you for sharing

What A Glorious Day
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March 17, 2015 at 10:33pm





What a glorious day

I can hear God talk to me

What a glorious day

I am so glad to be

What a glorious day

I can feel God inside of me

It's like I just woke up

Discovered reality

Something I sometimes

take for granted

Or just don't recognize

how much he loves me

He woke me up this morn

Gave me the victory

He'd already rescued me

Made my day prosperous

My tasks done joyfully

He brought me home safely

And to my delight

Got a VIP invite

Went to his home for dinner

The body and blood

My soul was the winner

Twas redemption found

No more a wayward sinner

On this St. Patrick's day

I asked that saint to pray

And when saints pray for you

Miracles do come true

What a glorious day

What a glorious day!

By Jude J. Richardson

I love this work.

Required reading for all absentee fathers

I really like this one from breakup to recovery.