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Hi Mel!

Thanks! I'll stop..I'm being ridiculous by doing that...lol!!

I'm supposed to be getting chemo this week but it's delayed cuz insurance change. Probably get it next week.

Gives us more time to get this Xmas tree decorated. We've been hunting for last year's decorations and I think we finally found most of them. It was like an Easter egg hunt. Lol.

I got a little depressed this morning. I'm just letting things people say (IRL) really get me down. Some one said I probably have 5 year's left; then someone said I probably don't have much time left. Then someone else is acting like/planning things long term as if I won't be around. Four different people in last week....all men (lol). It's made me cry a lot. I'm being stupid to do that but I'm like...do they know something I don't or just aholes. Probably the latter.

My spoiled brat younger brother made me sleep on sofa over holidays when I was at my mom's. There's just one spare bedroom and he took the bed. What an &sshole. That lasted one night...I went home the next day.

Sorry to b$tch but this thread helps me to vent this stuff at least. Lol

Glad to hear from you! Hope all is well!!!!

Forgot to say that I like your Santa pic. Very cute!

Big hug for you Debbie!! Holding you tight!!

Hey Sitka!

Hope all is well!

Thanks Archer!

I have to watch on a computer. I can't find a live stream of the jaguar game. Boohoo..

Oh well...guess I'll take a nap.

Thanks Archer! You're the best!



Are you watching any games today?

I thought this was a Wizard of Oz thread. Lol



Seriously though, in my past love life I made decisions with my heart. Probably where I'm going wrong there. Most other decisions I make with my brain. I think that's best.

Woah!!! Where they gonna stick those flowers? I better get my arse outta here!

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Yeah, me referring to them as boys probably didn't help.

Lolololololol.

Were they trying to cross in or out of our country? Just curious.

Archer- post the matchup please, if not a headache.

I'm gonna watch the Jaguars play today at 1pm.

Hockey is awesome scoobert! I went to a game once with my girlfriend and sat up by the glass. Then they crashed right in front of us and their faces smashed all up on the glass! Then they got in a fight. It was so cool!!

They make me uncomfortable for some reason. Quite silly for me to feel that as it's just someone trying to be nice.

On several ocassions, at the grocery store, someone has stopped me and said to hold my head up and that I looked pretty. Weird, huh! I still look down....Lolololol.

Yeah, that has come up but my body has a weird reaction to it. I have done it a couple of times in the past and each time I blacked out. Very weird. So I'm just sticking with the pain med. And I use nausea patch and meds after chemo that help enough to get through. I'm glad it works/worked for your nephew. It's definitely medicinal.

Thanks so much for mentioning it and all your sweet thoughts!!

Yeah, people just don't know what to say. You're right about that, then they stumble.

My goofball older brother took me and my 9 y/o son fishing by this dam over the holiday. My son had never been fishing like that so I wanted to do it for him. Well, we get to the boat ramp...there must be been over a 100 vehicles, which means about 200-300 hot guys!!! I get out the truck and my brother starts introducing me to many of the people which was nice right???? Except for, he says, this is my sister, she has cancer. Over and over....I was kind of embarrassed but didn't say anything cuz he was taking us fishing and all and didn't want to be rude. My cancer must just really upset him, I think. Each time I just looked at my son, nodded my head side to side, and we laughed it off together. But we caught the hugest fish, stripers, warmouth, bass(had to throw back). My son caught the biggest and most fish so it was super awesome in the end!! It was a trip my son will never forget. I had to be in bed for 2 days after...lol!!

Let's see..I don't like when people say just think of someone worse off than you. Seriously...how can someone in a worst situation than me give me comfort. That just makes me sad for them.

And I hate the word remission. Its so negative to me...like the cancer is just lurking about still. When I get better I will use the word recovered. It makes me feel better.

Yes, cancer treatment has advanced and the side effects become a simultaneous battle and you try to balance the meds or discontinue to ward them off. My worst side effect right now is my joint pain...very, very difficult to walk, especially down stairs. My pain medicine helps but I may have to get a pain patch instead of pills to give me more coninuous relief.

You're right about me needing to only worry about me! I think I'm going to see a psychiatrist soon to get help with that. I got some serious issues of just taking it from people and being too afraid to speak back. Nice to a fault. Not a good thing.

Sorry for the long post...thanks so much always for your kind thoughts!!