Pics are looking pretty damn good.

Right now, just friends. Having a bit of a rough patch with finding the kind of relationship with the right woman, so....just calming things down to a sizable degree until I can see clearly who is worth my effort.
I don't think I'm ready for all the heavy stuff, and that's okay with me.
Just not the best time right now, I guess.
But life is good, I'm grateful for the roof over my head, the friends I have, the supprt of my family members, the hobbies that keep me busy, my decent retail job...so I have a lot to be grateful for even without a girl to spend time with.

One of my favorite spots to kiss a woman is the hollow between her neck and collarbone. Sensitive spot for some females, too. One woman I dated in the past said "if you keep your lips right there you're shirt's gonna get ripped off in public, mister!"
You couldn't keep the sexy grin off my face if you tried after I heard that!
DAYUM.

Shall I forever walk this earth alone, with no one else to call my own? Or is that a wrong ideal to have, for she is not a possession as much as her heart and fervor and love and affection possesses my own with such unrelenting faith, an emotion restored now, for then life was abject boredom upon monotony upon day upon month and year of no one could captivate my attention as she did.
And I shall be forever grateful that I can captivate her attention as well.

(saw some shakespeare and that insipred this bit of coolness)

when her fingers absently stroke the hairs on the back of my neck as we're either kissing or dancing...

.....damn.

I've had a bit of theater training and can affect a rather deep voice with little to no effort at all. Kinda fun when ladies think I have this "scrawny" kind of voice given that I'm not very tall, and then I give them the "natural radio leading man" voice, and they think I can't tell when they're cheeks blush. It's so adorable!

Also a well-placed whisper in my ear is a very intimate thing to do, as well as standing close to me, looking me in the eye, and placing a gentle hand over my heart, and telling me with her eyes "let's get out of here and get pie at a diner somewhere and laugh til dawn."

Um....or something to that effect!

NORTHERN LIIIIIIIIIIGHTS! WOOO!

oh pretty much anything with this particular logo:

im sorry i wasnt patient enough.
im sorry i wasted my time and energy.
im sorry i put all of you on high pedestals only to realize you didn't deserve to be put there.
i'm sorry i'm not good enough to warrant your attention on a more regular basis than i would've liked.
im sorry i'll never be able to have the privelege of making you happy.
and yet....im not sorry for the lessons your being in my life taught me about myself.
and that in hindsight, it just wasn't meant to be.





(yep still unlucky in love and writing stupid angsty poems about it wondering when im ever gona catch a phuking break, lol!0

thanks. always nice to get a sincere compliment on my work.

just watched avengers age of ultron for the fourth night in a row! great sequel!

kiss and stay

THEN:
What the **** is wrong with me?
Everything and nothing?
Something or no thing?
Tension
Miscommunication
Frustration
Intensity
About to
E.X.P.L.O.D.E!!!

NOW:
Days pass
Time goes by
Rest periods
Reflective thoughts
Balance returning
Slowly
But surely
Wind picks up
Tugs the leaves
They fall
We jump and dance in them
Laughing and smiling
Its good again
No more retrogrades
just balance


-ZenSoul

The reeds bend in the wind

a stiff breeze is on the air

as my feet bring me to parts unknown.

I am reminded of something one of the old masters

once implied about the longevity of nature,

so harmonious with all around it.

A reed is not rigid like a thick tree trunk

a reed can bend with any amount of force,

water can flow and crash with a sound and fury

against the hardest rock,

and bamboo can bend to the will of the wind,

and yet still stand.

You must be able to be flexible and adaptable

as your natural surroundings, young one.

for this world can be harsh enough with your heart to see

fit to break it and shatter it if enough pressure is applied.

I heed my master's words,

regarding the ways the reeds before me flow in waves against the oncomig gusts.

The moment passes.

I keep in mind the guidance of the masters.

And I continue on my path.

Solitary. But strong. Upright.

And flexible.

As any warrior worth his skill should be.

Exactly.

Thanks for the kind words everyone.

Hey you!

True. But I have faith that sometimes those rare, few people with a sense of curiosity and adventure will throw aside their inhibition and dive.
And dive.
And dive.
And personally, I love that they have that, because I'm the same.
If the vibe is compatible enough with a certain lady, the possibilities are literally endless.
It takes time, though, and a certain amount of patience to build that.
These days...I'm kind of recognizing that more and more, and I want to spend time not obsessing about other people, and focusing more on myself and becoming the type of person that is able to entice, ensnare, build my own "mystique" if you will...and maybe it'll leave them wanting more.
Or maybe it wont.
Risk is part of all things. Especially matters of the heart.

POEM FOR THE FORLORN (original piece)
Had you inquired, you would have known.
Had you known, you would've stayed.
Had you stayed you would've witnessed my depth.
Had you witnessed my depth, you would've delved deeper for more.
But you would never find a bottom, for my soul is infinite.
And yet.....the opportunity lies for my soul to be explored by you.
Because if you only scratch the surface, you will never be sure of how deep this soul can go.
So do you float above, with the others?
Or do you plumb my soul's depths and witness it's wonders?

Feeling unloved, unrequited, frustrated, upset, unbalanced and frankly in the mood to give up on all women everywhere until further notice.