What I lost...


Dear Teri,

I didn't realize until now just how badly I mishandled our relationship
and my feelings for you. By being
apart and not talking for so long, I quickly learned that you were
everything I ever wanted and by being so
afraid of losing you, I ended up chasing you away by scaring the heck
out of you. It wasn't until now that
I've realized that instead of complaining about the time I didn't have
with you, I should've cherished the
time I did have, because it was real and filled with affection. I didn't
realize until now ....

I was never alone when we were apart, because just as you were on my
mind, I was likely on yours. It
wasn't until now that I've realized how special it was to hear your
voice even just once a day, let alone
several times a day, instead of pouting that you may have fallen asleep
without calling first.

And finally, it wasn't until now that I've realized that it wasn't the
late phone call for me to come over
because you missed me, or to stay overnight that I miss so much ... what
I do miss is the feeling behind the
way you always stared at me and kissed my hand in the car. The way we
looked into each other's eyes and
spoke without saying a word. The way you wrote I love you on a steamy
window or mirror only to show up
again and again for me to see when we were apart. The way you signed to
me that you loved me or snuck a
kiss or hug in while the kids weren't watching. The way we joked that we
were attached at the hip while

fixing supper. The way we wrestled while tickling each other. Teri, I
could go on and on but you know
what I'm saying. Yes, it's the little things I miss the most. The little
things that I so recklessly took for
granted. All the other was purely a bonus that I overreacted on,
eventually destroying "Us."

The promise I made to you is a promise that I will keep forever no
matter what. You will always hold a
special place in my heart. Even though I'm dating here and there, I seem
to end up comparing them to you.

You've set the bar very high for me and that's a good thing because I
refuse to settle for less than the
standard you've set. On that Thursday (July 6th.) when I returned home
and found your e-mail, it was the
happiest I'd been in that 8 weeks. I so applaud you for making that move
because at the very least, I
regained a friend. One that means the world to me.

So, here's the reason I had to tell you this; if that man in your dreams
vaguely has a name and a face,
resembling mine, tell him to chill for a bit, so he doesn't make another
life altering mistake by moving on,
possibly settling for less. You can be assured that this time, he will
take the proper time for you to be ready
to accept it, however long that may take.

Before I close I want to sincerely say one last thing straight from my
heart ... I'm very sorry I tried to force
you play by my rules, and I realize now what I miss the very most is
you!

Forever my love,
Jeffrey

Jeff,
I hope you learn from your mistakes and I hope that this letter I wrote
for the both of you helps you to understand that you cant keep pushing
people away, just because you get afraid.
Take heed in knowing you deserve happiness, you just need to accept it.
And, Teri will be back...

P. Christopher
Until...

Another good one good read

Very good read,,,